I’m 20 years old, and I have ODC. I was dating my ex girlfriend for five months, we lived together, everything seemed great she was really kind and patient. One day I came home and she was on Xanax so I ended the relationship, (side note; I moved out on my own for the first time and it was scary so I got a kitten to help with my mental state, I had my kitten for 7 months before she went missing) turns out she killed my kitten a few weeks before I ended things and she was doing satanic rituals and she used me for my money. I’m having extreme anxiety over the fact I loved someone who hurt me so bad, my thoughts are on a compulsive loop that everyone is secretly evil. As a Libra I’m really going downhill because I’m isolating. Help me cope please I’m so tired of being alone. I’d like to make friends but that’s really scary

Firstly I believe all states have animal abuse laws. I’m pretty sure killing your kitten for a satanic ritual is against the law and should be reported to the authorities. This may help you bring some closure. Especially because killing animals can lead to more violent crimes.

Secondly, you recognized red flags after 5 months of living together. Good for you! Some people spend years of their lives with the wrong person. Thirdly, this sounds like a pretty traumatic experience and I totally recommend therapy to help you walk you through your thoughts and feelings. Isolating yourself isn’t a great idea as thoughts can spiral. You can use therapy as a way to make sure you’re out of house and connecting with others.

Hmm, difficult. There are a few items there which make me believe you may take things very literally? You mentioned being a libra being an influence on your mental state? You mention that one experience = all people are alike? First, you need to ask yourself two things: - do you truly believe your star sign influences your mood? - do you truly believe one terrible experience means all future experiences will be equal? Really think about this. Do YOU believe these things, or us your OCD telling you, you believe these things? What you experienced wawas traumatic, no doubt there, but your OCD is doing its job nicely now, by latching on to those events and beliefs and making you ruminate over them. For exposure, have you tried dating since? Even just a blind date through an app? Would be a good way to test your OCD theory that this is how things are and will also help stop your self isolation...

Sorry for what u live, but we have to remember same rule " this thoughts and feels not real, we can reliase that but we can't stop believe its to much real. Ocd is fighting with ur brain with urself. U can find nice person, u never gonna know thing about him until living it. So u have to push yourself, i know its looking impossible but u have to believe there is nice person outside of somewhere. I am dealing with obsession to my obsession about going prison, the fact is i did nothing, i can't even lie and hurt bugs. But every hour im thinking officers will come my house and take me prison. I feel like i did something bad but i didn't. I know its to hard to live with it. One friend told me about meditation yoga, im gonna try it. And do not try to not think about bad thoughts cuz u can't stop thinking it. Just ignore that. Sorry for my bad english.

I totally agree that you should report the person for harming your kitten. . And I know everyone is not like that. Positive thinking is a good start. Telling yourself one positive thing each day. Try to think of a new positive thought each day. And remember the one before and just keep adding to them. I am sorry for the loss of your kitten and everything thing you went through. I hope this helps. Cause we are all on here trying to help so there are good people out here.