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Firstly I believe all states have animal abuse laws. I’m pretty sure killing your kitten for a satanic ritual is against the law and should be reported to the authorities. This may help you bring some closure. Especially because killing animals can lead to more violent crimes.
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Secondly, you recognized red flags after 5 months of living together. Good for you! Some people spend years of their lives with the wrong person. Thirdly, this sounds like a pretty traumatic experience and I totally recommend therapy to help you walk you through your thoughts and feelings. Isolating yourself isn’t a great idea as thoughts can spiral. You can use therapy as a way to make sure you’re out of house and connecting with others.
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Thank you, genuinely.
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Hmm, difficult. There are a few items there which make me believe you may take things very literally? You mentioned being a libra being an influence on your mental state? You mention that one experience = all people are alike? First, you need to ask yourself two things: - do you truly believe your star sign influences your mood? - do you truly believe one terrible experience means all future experiences will be equal? Really think about this. Do YOU believe these things, or us your OCD telling you, you believe these things? What you experienced wawas traumatic, no doubt there, but your OCD is doing its job nicely now, by latching on to those events and beliefs and making you ruminate over them. For exposure, have you tried dating since? Even just a blind date through an app? Would be a good way to test your OCD theory that this is how things are and will also help stop your self isolation...
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That introspection really allowed me to switch my perspective, thank you for the advice !
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Sorry for what u live, but we have to remember same rule " this thoughts and feels not real, we can reliase that but we can't stop believe its to much real. Ocd is fighting with ur brain with urself. U can find nice person, u never gonna know thing about him until living it. So u have to push yourself, i know its looking impossible but u have to believe there is nice person outside of somewhere. I am dealing with obsession to my obsession about going prison, the fact is i did nothing, i can't even lie and hurt bugs. But every hour im thinking officers will come my house and take me prison. I feel like i did something bad but i didn't. I know its to hard to live with it. One friend told me about meditation yoga, im gonna try it. And do not try to not think about bad thoughts cuz u can't stop thinking it. Just ignore that. Sorry for my bad english.
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I totally agree that you should report the person for harming your kitten. . And I know everyone is not like that. Positive thinking is a good start. Telling yourself one positive thing each day. Try to think of a new positive thought each day. And remember the one before and just keep adding to them. I am sorry for the loss of your kitten and everything thing you went through. I hope this helps. Cause we are all on here trying to help so there are good people out here.
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- 23w
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- 22w
Hi I’ve never posted before but I need to talk with other people that have this too because it’s hard to explain to other people without ocd. I was in a relationship for awhile and we started dating before either of us knew I had ocd. Anyway I have a really bad episode of it that led me to go get on medication and got into therapy. My ocd can have some really taboo themes and thoughts which I have learned is just what comes with the illness. The problem though is when I was really struggling one of my compulsions was confessing and reassurance seeking specifically to the guy I was dating because I trusted him. We both knew at this point that I had ocd and it affected many parts of our relationship particularly our intimacy which he made me feel bad about. He started calling me crazy, just joking, but still. Eventually I start feeling better and we start being intimate again and the day after he breaks up with me. About a month later after I hear he went on a date with another girl (we live together) he tells me he couldn’t be intimate with me because of my intrusive thoughts. We still live together with 2 other roommates so I still see him everyday. We try to be cordial with each other. I still have my moments though I’m still dealing with my ocd and a breakup seemingly caused by it and I cry a lot. Some months go by and he’s dating this other girl and I end up making out with one of my other roommates. I have no idea if my ex knew but the next day when it was only me in the house he starts screaming “THOSE MOTHER FUCKERS” and starts slamming shit. I tell my roommate about this and he and I are both kind of scared of him. He started acting really cold to us after. Then the night before my graduation my two roommates moved out so it’s just me and my ex in the house. In the middle of the night he comes downstairs and in front of my door calls me a horrible name relating to my intrusive thoughts. I open the door and say fuck you and he says you took my fucking friends. I said I didn’t take shit from you and he says yeah and goes upstairs and screams BINGO for some reason. He did it in the middle of the night when we were alone and I had no one to talk to or go to. He blames me because a lot of our friends sided with me in the breakup because they knew what I was going through. He had told me that I could never speak if my intrusive thoughts to anyone including my therapist (I did don’t worry) but he had made me feel so ashamed more than I was already. Also the next day he left a mess for me to clean up since I was the last one to move out. I’m coming to terms with the fact that on top of this awful experience with ocd that I may have been emotionally abused as well.
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My girlfriend, who’s become increasingly controlling, read my therapy notes while I was sleeping (the one thing I told her not to read). She found a note I wrote, forgiving myself about a past guilt that I hadn’t in detail told her about, and she accused me of exactly what I fear about myself. A week later, she left me. I am destroyed. I’ve spent the past week desperately trying to rekindle the relationship, and I had some level of peace. I got heavy reassurance from a friend, but I think this was a trigger. A day later, while still focused on the relationship, my brain shifted to the guilt itself, and it went deeper. I am now back to where I was 2 years ago torturing myself over my real event OCD, and thoughts that I’m afraid to mention. I am losing my mind and can’t talk to the person who always accepted me, who I feel almost cured my OCD for two years. Now, here I am back to this app, I really need help, I feel I’ve lost everything.
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