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Kids do a bunch of weird things when they are learning. Be gentle with yourself.
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^^ !!
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Everyone has made unfortunate choices. Most people can understand that, repent if they are religious, and move on. You have OCD, so the current problem is not what you did, but how you think about it. Its important at this stage to identify- what does my OCD want me to do? And then to not do it. http://www.ocdspecialists.com/real-event-ocd/ This article can help. Try to refrain from googling for similar experiences, or from wallowing in the guilt, or from playing over the event. A good mini-script would be "I notice I'm remembering the time I put my sister's hand on my breast. Maybe that says something about who I am today. Maybe it doesn't. I am choosing to be uncertain and to focus on the task at hand"
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But what if it isn’t about me? If it involves another person don’t I have the obligation to tell them what I did? I already brought up once how we might have sexually experimented as kids and she thought it was weird and told me to forget about it but I didn’t tell her about the sleeping thing. So do I tell her or not?
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@worryqueen Don't tell her that. You don't have an obligation, and your OCD is trying to make you think you do, so it can have a stronger hold on your life. She already felt uncomfortable the first time you tried to bring it up. Please don't involve her in your OCD by creating the same situation again.
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I used to have a similar theme. While it might feel like you have to tell her to be a moral person, this is a sneaky compulsion and you must avoid it. I made a deal with myself that I would never talk to my husband about details of my OCD themes for this reason. It becomes compulsive so easily.
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Thank you, I’ll try my best not to bring it up to her. I just feel very torn because there was no consent involved in what I did, and no consent = rape/molestation :(
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@worryqueen Even if there was consent, you would still be worried- because you have OCD. The thing you did has come and gone. The choice now is how you handle it :)
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@emma589 Maybe but the fact that I didn’t makes me a bad person :(
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@worryqueen Did you read the linked article?
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@emma589 Just finished it. It helped a lot, thank you. I’ll talk to my therapist about my state of mind on Thursday for additional help. Thanks again!
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You were ten years old. I know it probably feels like you're a monster, but OCD has a way of blowing things out of proportion. When kids are discovering their bodies they tend to get up to a lot of weird, taboo shit. When I was seven I masturbated in front of family members, without knowing what I was doing or why it was wrong. Children just don't have the mental capacity to understand those things yet, because they don't have experience. Maybe think of it this way: if you saw a young child doing that, as a parent, you would scold them, but it wouldn't make you think they were a terrible person for the rest of their lives. You would realize they were just a kid and forget about it sooner or later. I find that a good method is to ask, how would I feel if I were on the outside looking in as an objective third party?
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Thank you for that perspective. I tried imagining what I’d do if my friend told me she did something like that and kind of realizied that we’d probably just laugh about it. I’m still worried over what my sister thinks and if I hurt her somehow and I think I always will think that. Feeling a bit better now, though.
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when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do
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I feel nauseous. Extremely sick, i cannot eat, cant sleep well, and I haven't enjoyed things I normally enjoy to cry in bed and spiral for several days already. I feel extremely anxious over my past real events. I remembered something extremely triggering. I used to be morbidly curious about crimes and like I remember when i was a younger teen I watched a dark documentary that honestly i shouldnt have watched. There was this extremely weird scene and i think i felt weirded out but also a little aroused? but only bc I was thinking "lucky, shes already having sex. I wish I was her so i could experience it too." The poor person was like 1-3 years younger than me at the time. I KNOW how wrong that is now i legit feel like im going to throw up rn. Anyway I think I felt a little aroused??? And I think I touched myself a little bit and imagined myself in her place? I dont think I enjoyed it bc i remember it felt forced and weird and i stopped. I never did it again. I feel so sick! I would NEVER watch a documentary like that now as an adult and think or touch myself to it thats just so wrong but im scared that this is a sign im a sicko/p. I remmeber crying at the end of the documentary bc I felt disturbed by the contents but i still put some in my watch later out of morbid curiosity to see more real cases of these crimes bc they scared me. I never watched them again though. It only happened once and it was before my ocd started which SCARES me even more!!! And i wouldnt watch them as an adult either theyre too disturbing! I regret it so badly and feel like a monster bc it was messed up. Like what was wrong with me?! Theyre extremely disturbing to me and I rather avoid such content bc its triggering to my ocd but im afraid now like was that a sign of me possibly being a p? Am I a monster??? Am I in denial? Is this even ocd?! I feel so much shame and guilt it's killing me. 😔
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I feel like I did something bad now because I went to put the blanket on my brother and my hand was close to his back I had a thought before like “it’s time to touch him” and I stood up and he was on a call but he was sleeping so now I’m like why did I stood up? Was it to take the iPad or what exactly? I feel like a child molester I don’t remember touching his area or butt because I didn’t but I had my hand near his back I asked my brother if I did anything he said no I asked if I did anything when I put the blanket over him he said he was sleeping so that doesn’t reassure me So I almost acted on it?
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