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I have a lot of rituals that I do in the morning, shower and night time and a lot of compulsions during the day
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Do you? I thought I was psychotic for having these rituals. I’m on medication and see a counselor but I can’t seem to get rid of them. They are the same rituals and I have to put my mind somewhere of in the past like a past hotel room or something. How do you work through them they are getting stressful. Also if I don’t do them I feel like I won’t be the same person
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I’m also on medication and I can’t get rid of them as well. I keep doing them if they get stressful. Some of the rituals get checked once some more.
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@hanajade That’s about how it is for me to. I continue to do them even if it takes me sometime 2 and half 3 hours in the bathroom. Do you think this is just ocd? If so it’s bad what I have. Sometimes I stop and think should I do all of these rituals but if I don’t I will have problems in my life. What did they give you for medication? My dr gave me prozac
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@Espresso16 I have 20-30 minute shower due to contamination fears and I do rituals as well. I got prescribed Zoloft.
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At least your shower can be 20-30 mins. My showers even when I set a timer they go for 1 hour or 1 hour and 30 mins with the water on. I use to have rituals before shower but I cut that out also with therapists idea. But when I’m in shower it takes me about an hour. Brushing my teeth at night takes me an hour rituals before I start to brush my teeth it’s really stressful. Sometimes I can go into shower at 8pm and come out at 10pm it’s stressful and hard.
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When I brush my teeth I have to rinse my mouth 4 times. I’m sorry to hear that. Maybe try and reduce your rituals bit by bit until you don’t have anymore.
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My rituals take up almost all day , so hard to stop .i also noticed they got so much worse after the pandemic started .. I also have health conditions and I will do them and do them until feel it's right or count has to be even and feel right ..lately gotten worse and health passed out in bathroom month ago doing rituals ..and almost several times since.. For me it's hard because due to my health a lot of meds won't work I just throw them up ..and lost my therapist due to missing a couple telehealth appts because rituals to get out of bed that I do.plus not feeling well ..
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Wow finally someone that actually gets it. Mine got worse after the pandemic started also. It’s like a constant worry about covid or that my kid will be sick in a Covid unit. I have to have hand rituals to get covid off of me. I have had 2 horrible panick attacks in the bathroom were I felt like I was losing my footing and racing heart like I was going to fall with a heart attack. Anything I do in the bathroom involves a ritual except peeing I don’t know why. My wife says I got worse of a couple years. But I know I have gotten worse sense the pandemic. I can tolerate most meds and I take my medicine everyday. Just can’t seem to get out these rituals. The pandemic dosent help because it’s been months on going with no vaccine so that adds to my anxiety and ocd. I have lost therapist telehealth also good ones to because of my rituals also. It takes me 20 mins rituals before I lay me head down to go to sleep. I have the same ritual every night
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@Espresso16 My ocd got worse due to covid and the death of my grandad.
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@hanajade What about covid has mad it worse for you?
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@hanajade Mine has gotten way worse
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@Espresso16 I was scared that I was going to get covid, that I would pass on covid to someone else which made my hand washing worse. It’s still an issue at the moment as well. Until covid has been eradication and there has been a vaccine they I am going to still wash my hands due to contamination fears.
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Ps you'd think they'd get it but she didn't know much about OCD anyway
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I’m sorry about your granddad. I lost my father 4 years ago and still struggle with his loss today
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@Espresso16 I’m sorry for you loss.
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@hanajade It’s hard he came to visit me and went back home and 2 days later his girlfriend came home and found him dead
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@hanajade What about covid has made your ocd worse? Mine seems like it’s gotten a lot worse sense covid. I was given extra prozac to help. I also live in a legal state so I have cbd but I don’t ever take that I’m worried it will mess my ocd up worse but I heard a lot of good things about it.
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@Espresso16 I wrote it above
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@hanajade I saw it now. Covid has had me doing more ticks and ocd rituals. My counselor calls it Wilbert in my head and he is a big tough guy that tells me what to do these rituals. He tells me to stop feeding into Wilbert but it’s difficult
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Something I haven’t shared on here is that when I get anxious and my OCD is really bad, I end up spending a lot of time in the bathroom. My family isn’t supportive when it comes to mental health, and I don’t have any privacy at home. So, when I realize my butt is numb for the I don’t even know how many times today, I know I’m not doing okay. :( All my panic attacks happen in the bathroom. Even when I’m out shopping or doing something, I run to the bathroom. It’s like I have an emotional support toilet instead of a support system. I’m crying, feeling so anxious, and I can’t stop doing compulsions that I thought I had gotten past more than a month ago. My streaks are broken, and I feel broken. I want to get out of this bathroom, be normal, and be productive, but I just can’t. I can’t stop crying, and I can’t even breathe properly. I didn’t even realize what time it is, the day is nearly over and I’m still in here :(
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I am having an appointment with my psychiatrist this afternoon and I am obsessing about what to do with my medication. I think it’s also very ocd like obsessing. I am currently on 30mg mirtazapine. Ive been on this for years (because of insomnia, anxiety and depression) (15mg) and after we tried to switch to another (amitryptiline) because of nerve pain, I went down the road of insomnia and later on ocd again. So I am back on mirtazapine, and weaning off of the amitryptiline. This is/was a very traumatic experience. Because the switch caused a mental breakdown. Now my psychiatrist has mentioned to up the mirtazapine to 45mg. And my obsessive self has done a lot of research and a lot is saying that the higher the dose, the more you can experience anxiety. And for ocd it’s obviously not the first choice. I am obsessing all morning about it. I am too scared to go up. But I am also too scared to try another and to wean myself of off mirtazapine. I feel stuck at this point. Taking two meds is also not something I want. I could really use some words of encouragement right now I think. 🥹
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I don't really know if these will count as ocd 'proof' and I'm almost trying to prove to myself that I have ocd at this point. I really don't know. And these don't even mention my current themes (pocd, soocd) and rocd but its kind of stopping idk. So here's what I wrote do you think it's worth mentioning or it even counts as ocd idk? -Blinking in a certain way, breathing in a certain manner till it feels right, making sure that im breathing right, holding my breath for a bit again and again, made sounds that disturbed others (my mom) because of that. -Focusing too much on my eyesight and what i see to make sure I don't have symptoms of an Illness in the eye, checking my body reactions a lot and getting scared. Checking my pulse regularly for a heart attack. Fear of dying, researching random illnesses of symptoms I have -When i was a child I pictured my family dying a lot and got intrusive thoughts about their heads being cut off, especially in Eid El adha (where we basically sacrifice cows and sheep) I couldn't handle being there because I was scared that the guy killing the cow will accidentally cut my mom's head instead and I'd picture it so graphically. random intrusive thoughts about me doing harm to others but they didn't make me anxious just disturbed, fear that someone will get in the house and kill my whole family since I was a child that I have a slight fear of doorbells. Can be sensitive to gorey images but not always a persistent fear unless I'm focused on it. In the streets I get stressed out by cars around me because I get thoughts that someone will shoot me and kill me from the car. Fear of dying in general as a kid I saw a video that talked about if you see fish in your dream it means you'll die soon and I wasn't able to sleep for a long time without literally collapsing out of tiredness because I was scared of sleeping and dying in my sleep. -Irrational fears when I hear really loud sounds, as a kid I'd hear sounds of parties or so and it stresses me out because I got intrusive thoughts about someone playing party songs but killing everyone in the enjoyment of the killing. Doorbell sounds stress me out and I keep hearing the doorbell ringing in my ears a lot that I check the door randomly sometimes. -When I play games I have to do things a certain way and I can click on a button multiple times in a different pattern until it feels right, repeating prayers constantly until they feel right. Same with the breathing from before idk if these count -I question morals a lot, I'm not sure If it's in an ocd manner but I am really scared of being a bad person with bad morals, I get scared I'm racist and sometimes I see someone from a different race and I get racist thoughts like racial slurs or so get in my head, I question morals in general a lot and the idea of them and why they exist. And that makes me scared that I'm just a terrible person and I don't want to be. I can fixate on "trying to do what's right" too much that I end up messing up more -Immense guilt on things from a long time ago that I already dealt with. -what I'd say my worst compulsions are (pure o I think) : Checking constantly, feelings or thoughts or reactions. Sneaky reassurance seeking from friends and confessing my thoughts. Excessive ruminating trying to find an answer, can take so long out of my life that I can't eat or drink. Researching my thoughts and asking people. Repeating prayers in my head constantly even though I'm not religious anymore but I get so disturbed by my thoughts.
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