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- 4y
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I totally understand the part about therapy over the phone... it's hard to adjust to I can't Waugh for this all to be over so things can be more accessible! I'm sorry you're going through this :( we are here to support you!
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- 4y
Totally hard to adjust. I can’t wait for all of this to be over as well. Thank you for your support🤍🤍
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- 4y
I prefer face to face in a room too. My home isn’t the safest place to talk to a therapist. I got family who say they won’t try to listen in, but I know their curiosity is much more powerful than what they say. I have dark shit to talk to my therapist about, and I don’t want anyone else to listen in to anything I say. This quarantine will be the most toughest time for people with mental illness, and all we gotta do is try to help ourselves as much as we can to pull through this. Hopefully when the time comes, we can all to face to face therapy.
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- 4y
Right! Like I definitely do not want my family to hear what I have to say! They don’t even know about my OCD I embarrassed to tell them. Quarantine has made everything worst mentally for sure, I’m gonna have to find ways to help myself because the phone therapy can’t even be an option for me.
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- 4y
Hey man, I’m sorry you’re this deep in distress right now. I want to say that everyone messes up sometimes and falls into an old compulsion. It’s okay. Try again tomorrow. This disorder IS hell, so I’m definitely not ignoring that. And I know what you mean by looking back and feeling like nothing has changed. Try to take it day by day anyway. One battle at a time. And enjoy the parts of each day that you can to keep going. For insomnia, mine used to be so bad I would fall asleep at 7 AM. I fall asleep at 12 now, which is a bug improvement. There’s a lot of different strategies that might help if you want to hear them (besides meditation or meds bc that’s a given haha)
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Thank you for that. I always try to tell myself to take it one day at a time, because if not I’ll start worrying about the next few days and I’ll lose it from there. What else do you recommend for insomnia? Because seriously I hate being up at night not doing anything besides worrying. Sleep is like my only time off lol
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@nowsheindistress Sure thing! It might be long, srry I’ve tried a lot of different things , so YMMV. If you want supplements, valerian root is safe. Ofc supplements aren’t the first measure, but this one is noticeably calming and safer than the way people will use, say, weed to calm down. Try making a “resting” vs “sleeping” zone in your place. I realized that when I couldn’t sleep and wouldn’t get up from bed, I was starting to associate bed with pressure + stress. So now, I either use my couch, or rest with my head at the FOOT of my bed to chill first. These are zones where I can relax, but there’s no pressure to fall asleep. Once I’m almost sleep there, THEN I go to my actual bed. I know this sounds like a ritual but I’ve done it without it being an obsession. I find I can adapt it as needed to different places. I know intrusive thoughts are probably the root of losing sleep. Buy a journal and write all that stuff out. You can schedule 15 minutes to just write. The worries will still probably be there, but their weight will reduce. Also, consider avoiding tech for maybe for an hour before bed. Not because of the light, but because it’s easy to go down a rabbit hole online. If you read a book in that hour instead, it’s a lot less engaging and energetic than tech. TLDR: rest zone vs sleep zone, journal thoughts, no tech before bed, valerian root Remember you can’t force yourself to sleep (I wish). And you can’t control thoughts. But you can control making your environment encourage calming down.
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- 4y
@rootytooty Thank you so much for this !!! Definitely going to be trying some of these things !!
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. I completely understand you about the phone therapy. In my case I started treatment with a new therapist and the next week of that a lockdown happened. Now with do therapy by phone. I going to be honest is not the same. But I don’t know what I would have done if it wasn’t for those phone treatments. They help me a lot! Game changer. My suggestion is to maybe reconsider the phone therapy as a positive option. Also meds help me a lot. I hope things get better.
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You are right, while I am against it, it could be a postive outlet for me. I just feel like I wouldn’t be listened to as much as I would be if the therapy were face to face, but idk. I’ll look into it. I’m glad to hear that you are doing well though and that phone therapy has helped ! 🤍🤍
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- 24w
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
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- 23w
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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- 22w
I don’t have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I haven’t felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe it’s hormonal, because I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because I’m not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isn’t me. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, I’ve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I don’t just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I don’t even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and it’s been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still can’t seem to fully see it. I don’t know how to separate what’s OCD from what might be another disorder. I’m sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you 🤍
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