F*ck Hocd
- Date posted
- 4y ago
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I just want to love women, but this FUCKING HOCD WONT LET ME. To make matters worse I woke up with an intrusive thought of “I hope she’s a man” and that freaked me out. Someone also told me I was in denial as well. I was venting about how my HOCD makes me feel like I’m in denial, and the guy tells me, TRIGGER WARNING ““Because in a way, it is.” Like what the fuck? Your not alone on this one ma’am. I promise.
hyperactivebrainhyperactiveb...
- Date posted
- 4y ago
If you are on your period you will feel better in a few days! For me it is always more difficult when I am on my period and especially the day before it starts. I realize that I get way more thoughts and that they try to latch onto anything that is going on around me and turn it against me. They feel more real too. It is exhausting but at least I have kind of an explanation for what is going on. I try to disregard, not engage with the thoughts or figure them out no matter how urgent they feel. Try to accept that you simply have a harder time right now and allow yourself to feel scared or stressed, there is nothing wrong with that but don't get into analysing or testing, try to go for walks or do some sports and just take it easy and be kind to yourself! Don't fight the thoughts, in a few days it will all feel less important, you won't even remember half of the things that put you off, I promise ❤
nGfloatnGfloat
- Date posted
- 4y ago
This crap just feels super real. Don’t worry. I have just about burnt myself out with checking. I keep on feeling compelled to masturbste to the thoughts, and my head tells me I like them, but I am always super distressed and get very turned off when I try. I also get these tingly feelings in my hands and mouth if I try to think about it that makes me feel like I would enjoy the sensation which makes it more confusing. Just let the thoughts be there. We will get through this.
nGfloatnGfloat
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Also, definitely in the same place with the false attractions.
nGfloatnGfloat
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Hey, and let me put it this way. There are at least a good 20 people going through this atm. About 2% of the population is LGBTQ identifying. Assuming that percentage is about the same in the OCD population, it is very unlikely any of us are actually what we fear. A good chunk of the 2% is taken up by LGBTQ identifying individuals who do not have sexual obsessions, and a smaller chunk is probably take up by people who fear they are straight. All 20 of us have similar symptoms, so the more logical conclusion is that we are all just going through this shit. If we have faith in the ERP, we will probably come out of it fine.
ChaiChai
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I have talked to a lot of people, and they seem to agree and experience WAY worse OCD on their period. Try chilling while doing self-care. Take it easy ❤️
F*ck HocdF*ck Hocd
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thanks a lot guys I feel a lot better now:)
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King silly
- Date posted
- 15w ago
Bad again
Pocd feels real again and I can’t tell if I’m actually attracted or not. can’t believe it got this bad again. I used to be able to go “no I don’t like that, go away” and now it feels like I do like it and want it, and it’s starting to linger longer so it feels more real. I’m avoiding checking but I’m so scared that what if it’s true. Is it because I have not been doing my exposures? I’m not sure, but every time a 14 year old person comes to my head, I keep hearing something go “they’re attractive” and it sounds like me so I panic, and it makes me even more scared because I’m not feeling bad about it??? I saw some kid at Walmart that had long black hair and my brain kept saying shit and no matter how much I say I don’t feel that way, it won’t shut up, i want to check 1000 times to make sure. But I know it’s not worth it. I’m trying so hard
🌊☀️ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ☀️🌊
- Date posted
- 12w ago
I'm sorry if I keep posting I'm just scared..
Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
Anonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 9w ago
Pls I need advice
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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