TMI So I'm on my period rn and idk why but my hocd has been extremely intense. My false attraction is going out of hand and it doesn't even feel like false attraction. I'm literally liking all the sexual thoughts I have and that freaks me out! I just want to like men and I can't deal with having sexual thoughts about women anymore. At this moment I don't even know if I have hocd anymore. Maybe I am what I fear of being:(

I just want to love women, but this FUCKING HOCD WONT LET ME. To make matters worse I woke up with an intrusive thought of “I hope she’s a man” and that freaked me out. Someone also told me I was in denial as well. I was venting about how my HOCD makes me feel like I’m in denial, and the guy tells me, TRIGGER WARNING ““Because in a way, it is.” Like what the fuck? Your not alone on this one ma’am. I promise.

If you are on your period you will feel better in a few days! For me it is always more difficult when I am on my period and especially the day before it starts. I realize that I get way more thoughts and that they try to latch onto anything that is going on around me and turn it against me. They feel more real too. It is exhausting but at least I have kind of an explanation for what is going on. I try to disregard, not engage with the thoughts or figure them out no matter how urgent they feel. Try to accept that you simply have a harder time right now and allow yourself to feel scared or stressed, there is nothing wrong with that but don't get into analysing or testing, try to go for walks or do some sports and just take it easy and be kind to yourself! Don't fight the thoughts, in a few days it will all feel less important, you won't even remember half of the things that put you off, I promise ❤

This crap just feels super real. Don’t worry. I have just about burnt myself out with checking. I keep on feeling compelled to masturbste to the thoughts, and my head tells me I like them, but I am always super distressed and get very turned off when I try. I also get these tingly feelings in my hands and mouth if I try to think about it that makes me feel like I would enjoy the sensation which makes it more confusing. Just let the thoughts be there. We will get through this.

Hey, and let me put it this way. There are at least a good 20 people going through this atm. About 2% of the population is LGBTQ identifying. Assuming that percentage is about the same in the OCD population, it is very unlikely any of us are actually what we fear. A good chunk of the 2% is taken up by LGBTQ identifying individuals who do not have sexual obsessions, and a smaller chunk is probably take up by people who fear they are straight. All 20 of us have similar symptoms, so the more logical conclusion is that we are all just going through this shit. If we have faith in the ERP, we will probably come out of it fine.

I have talked to a lot of people, and they seem to agree and experience WAY worse OCD on their period. Try chilling while doing self-care. Take it easy ❤️

Thanks a lot guys I feel a lot better now:)