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I just want to love women, but this FUCKING HOCD WONT LET ME. To make matters worse I woke up with an intrusive thought of “I hope she’s a man” and that freaked me out. Someone also told me I was in denial as well. I was venting about how my HOCD makes me feel like I’m in denial, and the guy tells me, TRIGGER WARNING ““Because in a way, it is.” Like what the fuck? Your not alone on this one ma’am. I promise.
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If you are on your period you will feel better in a few days! For me it is always more difficult when I am on my period and especially the day before it starts. I realize that I get way more thoughts and that they try to latch onto anything that is going on around me and turn it against me. They feel more real too. It is exhausting but at least I have kind of an explanation for what is going on. I try to disregard, not engage with the thoughts or figure them out no matter how urgent they feel. Try to accept that you simply have a harder time right now and allow yourself to feel scared or stressed, there is nothing wrong with that but don't get into analysing or testing, try to go for walks or do some sports and just take it easy and be kind to yourself! Don't fight the thoughts, in a few days it will all feel less important, you won't even remember half of the things that put you off, I promise ❤
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This crap just feels super real. Don’t worry. I have just about burnt myself out with checking. I keep on feeling compelled to masturbste to the thoughts, and my head tells me I like them, but I am always super distressed and get very turned off when I try. I also get these tingly feelings in my hands and mouth if I try to think about it that makes me feel like I would enjoy the sensation which makes it more confusing. Just let the thoughts be there. We will get through this.
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Also, definitely in the same place with the false attractions.
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Hey, and let me put it this way. There are at least a good 20 people going through this atm. About 2% of the population is LGBTQ identifying. Assuming that percentage is about the same in the OCD population, it is very unlikely any of us are actually what we fear. A good chunk of the 2% is taken up by LGBTQ identifying individuals who do not have sexual obsessions, and a smaller chunk is probably take up by people who fear they are straight. All 20 of us have similar symptoms, so the more logical conclusion is that we are all just going through this shit. If we have faith in the ERP, we will probably come out of it fine.
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I have talked to a lot of people, and they seem to agree and experience WAY worse OCD on their period. Try chilling while doing self-care. Take it easy ❤️
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Thanks a lot guys I feel a lot better now:)
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hey guys, i’m almost fully healed in my socd journey but what’s stopping me is the false atractions. i get them almost 24/7 at this point and to every thing. they feel real and i hate them they make me feel disgusted. they also make me feel like hot and gross but then i see people saying thats what attractions feel like, but i have felt so much attraction to the opposite gender pre all of this and it felt nice and enjoyable not digustinf. i’m also getting false memory trying to show me ‘signal’ from my childhood to prove i’m gay amd i truly don’t know if they’re real. it’s so degrading and at this point i feel like govining up. pelesse if you have any advice or even if your going through the same thing just let me know. ocd is so terrible
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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