- Username
- chey
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Reallt the best advice I can give that’s worked for me, and it may not for you, is there’s no way to really “solve it” I kinda just dealt with it, and told myself that if I’m questioning something this much on weather or not it happened, it probably never happened. I told myself “oh that’s an excuse to get away with what you did” I soon came to realize that OCD was speaking to me, saying those things. It created the false memory, told me it’s true, then started telling me im a bad person so I more than likely did those things I’m imagining. Don’t worry, push through, accept your memory, as a false memory, not as a true one, don’t label yourself, and it will pass. I promise.
Great advice!
Hi! I deal with false memory too... to the point where there’s no memory there and every time I think of a new scenario.. point is the “memory” is always changing, it’s not straightforward and direct. Just like the person above me said, “if I’m questioning something this much on whether or not it happened, it probably never happened.” However, I understand that getting so trapped in our brain can be stronger than ANY rational thinking. So, my advice just tell yourself “I am uncertain, I’ll never know what happened in the past, because I can’t go back in time.” A phrase I learned in therapy. I understand that this subcategory is so rough because we always WANT answers. If things are getting out of hand, I highly recommend ERP! it’s definitely scary but it helps face fears.
I currently am dealing with this and posted the other day so word- but in another situation I was always told to feel your body over the thoughts. Everything they said ^ just helped me, but just another tip that when those thoughts come up feel your “gut” and see how your gut feels cause that’s the most responsive. Usually when you think of the “what if” your heart races, mind spirals, feels like the world is ending, but most often your gut is just like “eh whatever.” And doesn’t trigger. Sometimes that helps. Especially if you’re spiraling!
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Question for you guys, Those of you who suffer from HOCD or POCD and have vivid memories that contradict who you feel you are, how do you manage those memories? I had an OCD/anxiety attack that clinged on to the memories around me being curious after being bullied in school. My OCD keeps telling me that I enjoyed those experiences more than I should have. Even though it ended in tears and me knowing that that's not who I am, my OCD keeps telling me that it's an indication of my being gay or bi. I realize that some of those memories may be fake, but in the scope of acceptance of uncertainty let's assume that everything is right. My therapist tried to calm me down by saying that this is really normal and expected in young children and that it has nothing to do with who we are, especially since I was interested in girls and always fantasized about chased after them from a very young age.
Anyone else struggle with real event type OCD (OCD latches on to a real life situation you’ve experienced)? How can we know the difference between what actually happened and if it’s just my OCD making me feel like a horrible person? Specifically with harm/pedophile OCD. Anyone ever experienced this before?
"pOCD and zOCD false memories" I'm so sorry for venting... I need help... Or just someone to lend me an ear. I'm suffering from really serious, really bad false memories that are not only illegal but also make me feel like a monster. Basically, my false memories are extended to these two topics only and are always of a sexual nature. 1. That I used my pets as tools to obtain sexual gratification. (and or touched them) 2. That I touched a child (during an actual real event) inappropriately. I don't have images for these false memories... It's more fears than anything else! I feel like I forgot about them or I'm just in denial. The 1st one comes from a situation where I masturb- near my cat. (she was in my bed but I can't recall where she was standing). There's also another situation that I have also masturb- near my dog but in this case, she wasn't near me. Just in the same room as me, in separate beds. The 2nd is from a real event where I played with this child in the pool. I can only remember one physical interaction that was giving her a piggyback ride. In conclusion, I'm so afraid these are real and if they are real, then I should be punished! I don't want to go to jail because I'm terrified of that place so the only option is to kill myself. I don't deserve to be happy or even alive...
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