Ark8
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
nzyblenzyble
- Date posted
- 4y
Hey bro I’ve been feeling pretty much the same way. I have harm ocd thoughts that’s like to pop into my head like all the time and “what if’s” that come along with them. Like I want to get a girlfriend but the “what if” likes to tell me that I’m a monster (as you say) and that it’ll never work out because of how bad my mental state is right now. I am almost 21 and was completely normal until last November when I had my first panic attack, ever since it’s been extremely rough and I picked up HOCD in February. I just want you to know you are NOT alone in this bro. I know, TRUST me, I know it sucks and I’ve had similar thoughts when it’s really bad. However, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Never let that light fade away because one day it will be so bright you won’t even have time to think or be this “monster” you know? Keep fighting the good fight bro :)
Ark8Ark8
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
This was really pleasent, insightful and relatable to read dude; especially the part about “not having time to think of or be this monster” these anxieties come in waves and at the least it really is comforting to know I’m not alone. And neither are you. Thank you very much for this comment.
Kyla91Kyla91
- Date posted
- 4y
Hey kadianj, I have the same subtype if OCD. I was undiagnosed for 10 years. Didn't know it was OCD, I just thought I was the scum of the earth and hiding it from everyone. I want you to know that I still have intrusive thoughts but that I have learnt to let them sit in the backseat of my mind instead of taking the steering wheel. By that I mean; I have numerous wholesome and loving relationships with children in my life whilst dealing with intrusive thoughts in the background. I am also planning on having children of my own. I want to lead my life by my values and not by my fears. I have been where you are mentally and have seriously thought about ending it all. I want you to know that I am so grateful that I didn't. I hope you pull through and take some time out from all the guilt and shame to give yourself some well needed love.
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- Date posted
- 4y
if you ever need someone that understands to listen. I can give you my number if that’s aloud on here
Ark8Ark8
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you for making me feel less alone. I don’t feel comfortable giving out my number on here but I do wish there was some sort of chat or crisis chat on the app.
loved by the one true king loved by the...
- Date posted
- 4y
@kadianj totally understand🤍you’re awesome, and needed. We gotta educate the world about OCD. WE NEED YOU!!!!
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