I use to say I hated my life because my situation was bad. Parents split, ended up dropping school, working two jobs, paying off debt always being broke. Not really having friends. Only constant was my boyfriend who was a safe space for me which he really isn’t now. No I’m dealing with these intrusive thoughts and other thinking every thought and attaching mean to everything. Wondering if I’ll become these things. I rather go back to those days when I thought my life actually sucked because right now it’s more than sucking. I wish I could go back to worrying about those minor inconveniences. I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up 10 times a night with anxiety. I wish I could sleep on till 12 in the afternoon on my days off. I wish I could wake up with a clear mind, with no intrusive thoughts and no anxiety. I feel so bad for my mom seeing me like this. She was crying last night because I was confused and I afraid as to how I got this bad. She looks at me like what happened to my daughter she was perfectly normal two months ago, she even said that :( I told her I wish I knew how this happened because I don’t like being like this. It’s crazy how just overnight I became this. I hate it and I wish someone could just take it away. I wish someone could just take all of our OCD and intrusive thoughts away. I’m sorry for posting so much negativity on this app. I just want to vent. Maybe I should start journaling instead of venting here.

Heyyyo

Date posted: 4y

This makes me so happy because I never knew someone felt the exact same way. But so so sad you have to go through it to ❤️ I have gotten better and relapsed a few times over my years with ocd but the good part about that is that I know I can get better!! I was doing so good before we went into a lockdown last winter and I’ve been really struggling since. I spend my time dreaming about my future and looking forward to when I’m better again

JoyousEffort

Date posted: 4y

Don’t feel bad about venting here, seriously especially longer posts like these where you’re thinking through your situation. You’re not spamming a bunch of negative posts, and you don’t seem to be fishing for reassurance… you’re just processing. If you know traditional journaling helps you that’s one thing, but it doesn’t work for everyone so if typing things out here is a better alternative, that’s ok 💜

Keepgoing1995

Date posted: 4y

Ahhhh we you just took my thoughts out of my head

Godsgood

Date posted: 4y

It’s okay to let it out, thank you for being vulnerable and helping people to feel less alone. God bless🤎

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