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You know it’s interesting. When I was younger and I would have a dream doing something sexual with a family member, it would freak me out so much. I couldn’t deal with it. But now, when thoughts or dream or whatever happen, I could care less. I have learned to seperate thoughts from myself, to the point that I view thoughts as just a machine that generate ideas and images. It’s not me. It’s just a tool I can use. If you think about it; this is exactly what thoughts are. Just a thought machine. Unfortunately we have ocd, and the thought machine is linked to our fight or flight system, so it can feel like we are doing something wrong. But the truth is, thoughts are just thoughts. And the less you resist them, the less you will feel that fight or flight experience. Eventually you can just let them go like I do.
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I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s the absolute worst because you can’t escape - even worse when it is about a younger family member. The fact that you barely get time to grieve the relationships you used to have with family members because you feel such immense guilt is honestly traumatising. I’m so glad I found out this was OCD because I can’t imagine having to go on another year not knowing what was happening to me, but luckily I did and now I’m doing better. It’s still a struggle but I now feel safe in my own body the majority of the time and I am able to function as a human being, which is good. Wishing you all the best luck - you’re not crazy, don’t worry.
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You are not crazy, or we both crazy)) I have this thought too, that’s why I’m afraid to go to my hometown to see my parents ..
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I LIVE WITH THEM, so most of the time is thoughts and sadness does it happen to you, when the tear is in your eyes and you just want to cry but you can’t do it
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sorry, are u from russian speaking country?
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@xqrsljk No im not, but English is not my first language, is my writing this bad? And why you are sorry?
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@Laith I asked Eugenia😅I'm sorry because your post not about it and maybe it's not correct to ask this question, your English is good! Btw i have these thoughts like you sometimes, it's really disgusting
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@xqrsljk Yeah, I’m from Russia )
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@eugenia Это было ожидаемо😅
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@xqrsljk Да) откуда ты?
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@eugenia Украина, пришла сюда из реддита, на русских форумах никакой полезной информации не было и я просто компульсировала, и вот я тут, пытаюсь что то делать)
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@xqrsljk Да, согласна. На русских форумах только поддерживают компульсии и переживают ещё больше. Здесь хотя бы понимают, что не стоит переубеждать, и можно посоветоваться ) жаль терапия дорогая )
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@eugenia Если ты про терапию в этом приложении, то я даже не смотрела цены😅а так вообще да, я планирую попробовать сама делать экспозиции, пробовала с помощью nocd но для меня как то не эффективно было
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@xqrsljk С самостоятельными экспозициями надо быть аккуратней) я занимаюсь КПТ, но именно грамотных экспозиций недостаёт конечно. Но ничего, справимся)
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@eugenia С терапевтом кпт? Помогает? Я читала книгу как то ocd workbook, разобралась более менее в иерархии этих страхов и всего такого
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@xqrsljk Да, мне хорошо помогло с моими идеалистическими убеждениями, что часто у окрщиков есть, с отношениями помогло, что это нормально по разному относится к партнёру. Ещё кстати помогли подкасты ocd stories, gathering gold. Но сейчас что-то опять темы старые вернулись, может осень так влияет на меня. А ты подтверждала диагноз?
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@eugenia Поняла) Нет, у меня нет возможности сходить к врачу, все очень сложно в общем, надеюсь что смогу попасть к нему скоро. Подкасты не слушала, не уверенна что мой английский достаточно хорош) Окр отношений появилось в конце января, летом легче без учебы стало, высыпаться начала, а сейчас опять жесть какая то, еще и обсесси с других тем паралельно подключились
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@xqrsljk Да, подкасты лёгкие для понимания. И считаю очень важно слышать опыт других людей, которые через это прошли, очень воодушевляет. У меня с локдауна первого все началось в 2020, тогда же я и узнала что окр не только мытьё рук :/ ну и в детстве это все появлялось.
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@eugenia Хорошо, спасибо, послушаю тогда) У меня в году 17-18 началось, с банального перфекционизма и вечных проверок, вот сейчас с отношениями связано
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@xqrsljk Ещё Christie Hodges на YouTube классная, у неё большой опыт помощи людям с окр. если хочешь можешь в инсте добавиться eugenia.bogdanova. Вдруг поддержка понадобиться )
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@eugenia Хорошо, спасибо большое)
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@xqrsljk Нашел русскую общину! 😂
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@Sasha Видела вас раньше, думала, русский, не русский🤔
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@Sasha 🤣
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@xqrsljk Я хороший шпион 😜
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I have horrible sexual intrusive thoughts about my family! They make me feel sick to my stomach but I know it’s my ocd just being a d*ck and that I don’t actually want to do those things. You’re not alone and you’re not crazy 🧡🧡
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your not alone. it’s the worst
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You are not alone.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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Hi I am Aisha and I am not sure if I have ocd or not but I struggle with thoughts which I don't even know if they r intrusive or if I am thinking about them and they are usually about my family or friends. This time it was about my mom more specifically a sexual thought about my mom and my mind was thinking that this is what I want and when I was analyzing the thought I wasn't sure about my intention which made me feel really bad
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I’m a csa survivor which made me develop hypersexuality while actually being a asexual individual. (Where I did CP and talked to groomers and sexted, ect ect) A few months ago I’ve started to heal, but the fact that I’ve seen so many private parts since I was idk, young? I imagine them everywhere, it’s really frustrating and sometimes I also get intrusive thoughts about other kids or my siblings. It’s deeply distributing but I also kind of think of it from a curious kind of aspect which I despise too. Honestly I have a hard time with any kid in underwear, my intrusive thoughts have been ALOT the last months and they’re really really overwhelming. I also easily go into overanalysing them or even trying to figure out more clearer the thoughts to “test myself”. I think, I hope. Idk it’s scary
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