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Yes I feel that, and I say that in my head all the time, people have said I’m not the same….
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I mean it’s understandable that we aren’t to some extent I think.
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It is so hard especially when other people notice and say these things. I think it is important to recognize that everyone changes. We are always changing and always growing. Changing doesn't have to equal a "bad" thing-- difficult paths often lead to beautiful destinations as they say. Hard things impact us- they should- that's what makes us human. Focus on you and what you need to do to get through this season in your life. You got this.
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I think my parents feel that I’m quieter or don’t reach out to them as much and that’s probably true. They can understand what I deal with so I tend to keep to myself. They probably think I’m grouchy too which maybe the case but I am trying to learn to be a better version of myself. Thanks for you reply and encouragement!
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Absolutely! Going through cancer and OCD has ripped away at any shred of happy-go-lucky attitude I previously had. Comparing our current selves to our former only makes us feel worse about ourselves. I often wanted to be like I was before all those things happened to me but it is impossible. We adapt to our experiences and struggles in order to survive—of course we are going to change in more ways than one. It’s disheartening to hear people in your social circle tell you they wish you were the old you. Like damn I wish the same but I’m here and I’m alive despite it all which is plenty to be grateful for. Find those who accept you—the reinvented you—and ignore the ones who don’t. You are worthy of compassion and understanding!
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Thank you 🙏
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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Hey fellow OCD warriors! Wanted to ask if anyone else’s OCD tends to latch onto change and catastrophize with all kinds of worst-case scenarios. There’s a lot going on in my life, and even though they are all exciting things that I truly want and am happy about, I’ve had moments of deep fear at so much change happening and even a sadness that I can only think is a kind of grief of entering a new stage of life/a new me and leaving the old one behind. I am in my mid-20s and a lot of this centers around nostalgia and fear and intrusive thoughts of changes like my parents getting older, myself aging, friendships growing apart leading to loneliness, etc. I know I need to treat it as any other OCD flare-up and do ERP, but it also feels different than other OCD themes because I feel blue and like existentially sad. Even as a young kid, I always hated change and the thought of growing up (even if exciting things were happening) - like I cried when I turned 10 because I was leaving the single digits behind forever! 🤦♀️ I feel like I’m preemptively mourning things like losing my parents or my health even though I am healthy and my parents are too. I don’t want to waste the time I have ruminating about the future. I haven’t heard this kind of theme mentioned a lot so just wanted to see if any others could relate.
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