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I’m right here with you too!
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I’m sorry I completely understand. It does feel real and makes you think “maybe it’s not an Illness and these are my actual thoughts “ in return freaks you out gives you major anxiety . I know this all too well. I’m currently dealing with this and everyday I wake up my heart hurts and always exhausted . But I’m not giving up and neither should you . We can fight through this.
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Lavander, take comfort in the fact that at least one other person on this planet is going through the exact same thing as you are (me). And I know it’s not only me, as we’ve seen on this app. If you want to exchange social media information I would be willing, just so we can talk with people who truly understand! I just got the ‘Mindfulness Workbook for OCD’ in the mail and there is an entire chapter on HOCD. You should definitely get it too- I have heard really good things about it.
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Thank you so much for all your support! Leah, I'm thinking about making a post here to try to gather up some people with hocd, so we can make a group that's more accessible than this app (just trying to gather up some courage haha) And idont241, I've heard about this mood Smith course, but I never got around to actually finding out what it's about. I'll give it a look, thanks for the advice!
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Could anybody exchange social media with me? I would love somebody to talk too
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Okay great!!:) I’m trying to think of the best way to do a group chat. Is Kik still a thing? You don’t need people’s phone numbers for that do you?
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Yeah kik is a thing! Just usernames what’s your username?
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Yeah! Sure. How about Instagram?
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hollystephanie5
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I just saw that I was added to an Instagram group about hocd
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If you are comfortable woth it, you can drop your Instagram usernames and I can get you in as well!
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Can you add me to Snapchat, please? my username is tappingangel101
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I don’t remember my old account haha. We can wait for Lavander to make a post about it and then see if everyone wants to use kik!:)
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Oh, I’m also in another NOCD snapchat group chat I can add you to!:) What’s your snapchat?
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Added you!
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hollbrindley
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Let me know when you’re adding people!:)
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Okay! There's already three other people there, so by now, it makes us five. Feel free to add more people from here as you wish!
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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i’ve just been feeling so off lately. i’m okay right now, but a couple hours ago i was in this mood where i felt anxiety creeping up. like i will feel like there’s danger when there isn’t. i just get this really uncomfortable feeling that something feels wrong even when it isn’t. and i’ve been feeling derealization/depersonalization. just really disconnected from myself and the world. i’ve also been unmotivated to where there are times when the thought of doing things upsets me. and i’ve been having existential thoughts that do not mesh well with harm ocd. i get the thought “if people aren’t real then it’s okay to hurt them”. it sucks because there are times where i just don’t even care to ruminate and find reassurance that that’s not the case. furthermore, i’ve just been really aware of my existence. i will get moments where i’m so aware of my existence and it freaks me out. like the fact that i’m a living human being is crazy to me. then there are times when i’m not even anxious about anything which then has me questioning and ruminating on that because i ALWAYS have something i’m worrying about. i’ve also been feeling really nostalgic and bittersweet of the good memories from the past. i keep thinking about good times i’ve had and really wishing i could relive it. for example, last summer was a pretty good summer even with my ocd. and i just wish i could relive some of those moments, but i obviously can’t. and it’s been upsetting me because this month has been shitty with my anxiety. as for an update with my room change to those of you curious, i still have anxiety over it and my mom is taking it as me being ungrateful with what i have when it’s my ocd making a huge deal of it. that upsets me especially since i’ve told her what’s been going on and she was really understanding of it. anyways, life has just been a bit much and i’ve been dealing with more to my anxiety that i don’t appreciate. while worrying about constantly throwing up with my contamination ocd is incredibly exhausting, it’s so normal to me that i’m used to it. but when my harm ocd kicks in along with other themes that aren’t usually common for me, i freak out and feel like i’m going insane. i genuinely wonder how people have dealt with taboo topics of ocd without treatment for years on end. i’ve had harm intrusive thoughts since i was little, but it didn’t get to any extreme until 2023. i feel like i’m drowning in it when it decides to hit me and the thought of having to deal with it for the rest of my life?? i’m scared something in me will flip and i’ll become what my thoughts are telling me i am. i apologize for the mixed thoughts that are all over the place but i feel safe posting on here about it and want to hear how y’all are doing
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I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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