- Username
- Lavander
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m right here with you too!
I’m sorry I completely understand. It does feel real and makes you think “maybe it’s not an Illness and these are my actual thoughts “ in return freaks you out gives you major anxiety . I know this all too well. I’m currently dealing with this and everyday I wake up my heart hurts and always exhausted . But I’m not giving up and neither should you . We can fight through this.
Lavander, take comfort in the fact that at least one other person on this planet is going through the exact same thing as you are (me). And I know it’s not only me, as we’ve seen on this app. If you want to exchange social media information I would be willing, just so we can talk with people who truly understand! I just got the ‘Mindfulness Workbook for OCD’ in the mail and there is an entire chapter on HOCD. You should definitely get it too- I have heard really good things about it.
Thank you so much for all your support! Leah, I'm thinking about making a post here to try to gather up some people with hocd, so we can make a group that's more accessible than this app (just trying to gather up some courage haha) And idont241, I've heard about this mood Smith course, but I never got around to actually finding out what it's about. I'll give it a look, thanks for the advice!
Could anybody exchange social media with me? I would love somebody to talk too
Okay great!!:) I’m trying to think of the best way to do a group chat. Is Kik still a thing? You don’t need people’s phone numbers for that do you?
Yeah kik is a thing! Just usernames what’s your username?
Yeah! Sure. How about Instagram?
hollystephanie5
I just saw that I was added to an Instagram group about hocd
If you are comfortable woth it, you can drop your Instagram usernames and I can get you in as well!
Can you add me to Snapchat, please? my username is tappingangel101
I totally know what you are going through. There’s this mood Smith course that costs 27 dollars monthly that people swear it’s what has lead them to recovery. You search up “hocd mood Smith” and it will lead you to a course. This lady that does the course knows so much about what we are going through. When I didn’t know I had ocd, I stumbled up to her and with her I had finally figured out what had been bugging me. Seriously go do it!
I don’t remember my old account haha. We can wait for Lavander to make a post about it and then see if everyone wants to use kik!:)
Oh, I’m also in another NOCD snapchat group chat I can add you to!:) What’s your snapchat?
Added you!
hollbrindley
Let me know when you’re adding people!:)
Okay! There's already three other people there, so by now, it makes us five. Feel free to add more people from here as you wish!
Isa.priv219
Sometimes I worry that I don’t have ocd and that I’m losing my mind and that I’ll never feel better again. I was starting to feel really good last night and I thought it was finally over so I went ahead and did a lot of the stuff I enjoyed doing before this happened (the reason I had to stop was because certain things were triggering in either one way or another) but eventually I hit a point where I just could not bring myself to do something because it was causing too much anxiety. I got this horrible image last night in a dream and then I began to get a flurry of bothersome thoughts, so now I have 2 obsessions to worry about now. The first one is kind of in control but I’m just afraid what’s going to happen to my brain and I’m worried about having an episode in front of my family, who I’m supposed to be having a small dinner with today. I don’t want to tell them what’s going on but I’m afraid they’ll notice that I’m not well. I’m never present because I’m always in my head analyzing and ruminating and worrying. The feeling last night gave me hope that I could be myself again but I just worry that these thoughts will always linger and make me lose my mind. :(
When I look at pictures of myself, I see a young woman who deserves a fulfilling life that is not dictated by OCD and anxiety. I feel sad that so much of my time, my energy, and my choices have been consumed by OCD. I spend so much time in my head, ruminating and worrying and trying so damn hard to figure out that one thing that my OCD urgently presses me to solve. Sometimes I don't enjoy things that I want to because I'm overwhelmed with my compulsions. I've struggled with this for years, and lately OCD has been telling me that the struggle will never end--that I'll never feel in control of my life. I know that this isn't true, but I'm so scared that it could be. My faith doesn't feel bigger than my fear right now. How do I change that? I don't want to live like this anymore. As I'm writing this, my OCD is telling me that I'm incapable of recovery, but I know I can recover. I deserve to recover. I'm in therapy with an OCD specialist outside of this app and I'm going to increase the frequency of my sessions from once a month to once a week because I deserve an amazing, fulfilling life. And to whoever is reading this, you do, too.
Today I got a new intrusvie thought from the same themes and I feel really sad and devasted because it feels really scary and like I'm worried that I agree with the intrusive thought or that it is revealing something about me ...the intrusive thought feels more intense like why would I have such a thought? and I feel to tired to react but I have a heaviness and worry for my mental health. I feel ill/disgust and tired but too tired to fully react. I almost feel like the more intrusive thoughts I get the weaker I get because of the distress and mental/emotional pressure and stress. I don't know how to describe it but it feels very heavy and I almost feel like I will never recover from this intrusive thought.... I also get moments when I think what if I'm making this up and I do not struggle with OCD
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