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I’m right here with you too!
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I’m sorry I completely understand. It does feel real and makes you think “maybe it’s not an Illness and these are my actual thoughts “ in return freaks you out gives you major anxiety . I know this all too well. I’m currently dealing with this and everyday I wake up my heart hurts and always exhausted . But I’m not giving up and neither should you . We can fight through this.
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Lavander, take comfort in the fact that at least one other person on this planet is going through the exact same thing as you are (me). And I know it’s not only me, as we’ve seen on this app. If you want to exchange social media information I would be willing, just so we can talk with people who truly understand! I just got the ‘Mindfulness Workbook for OCD’ in the mail and there is an entire chapter on HOCD. You should definitely get it too- I have heard really good things about it.
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Thank you so much for all your support! Leah, I'm thinking about making a post here to try to gather up some people with hocd, so we can make a group that's more accessible than this app (just trying to gather up some courage haha) And idont241, I've heard about this mood Smith course, but I never got around to actually finding out what it's about. I'll give it a look, thanks for the advice!
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Could anybody exchange social media with me? I would love somebody to talk too
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Okay great!!:) I’m trying to think of the best way to do a group chat. Is Kik still a thing? You don’t need people’s phone numbers for that do you?
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Yeah kik is a thing! Just usernames what’s your username?
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Yeah! Sure. How about Instagram?
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hollystephanie5
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I just saw that I was added to an Instagram group about hocd
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If you are comfortable woth it, you can drop your Instagram usernames and I can get you in as well!
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Can you add me to Snapchat, please? my username is tappingangel101
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I don’t remember my old account haha. We can wait for Lavander to make a post about it and then see if everyone wants to use kik!:)
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Oh, I’m also in another NOCD snapchat group chat I can add you to!:) What’s your snapchat?
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Added you!
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hollbrindley
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Let me know when you’re adding people!:)
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Okay! There's already three other people there, so by now, it makes us five. Feel free to add more people from here as you wish!
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I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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