Guys, harm ocd hit me so hard yesterday. I haven’t dealt with this In years. I know I got trigger watching a video and it was like a chick who killed her boyfriend and I can’t even look at my husband right now with out wanting to lock myself in a room so I can’t be around him. For some reason any rationalizing isn’t helping at the moment and I just want to go back to how I was 4 days ago when shit like this never crossed my mind. I feel like a monster and I can’t tell him. And I tell him everyone of my themes. Guys I need some help right now

Its not quite the same, but I remember how it felt when I had to tell my then boyfriend about my ROCD. It was HORRIBLE, I was so upset, but he barely even flinched. I feel like his support could be useful, but if you don’t want to tell him I understand why

Tell him, use this app to start ERP. You’ll need support and chances are he’ll want to know ?❤️

It’s no reflection on who you are or what you might do. That being said I totally understand. I have panic attacks over the fear that I could kill someone or myself. Just lose control.

I’m so glad I’m not alone

I would tell him... it may be hard but he loves you he will understand that it’s your ocd and not you. Just because you have a thought doesn’t mean you will act on it or what to do it. If you want help before telling him, maybe grab a journal and write down what you want to say as if you are talking to him through it... maybe it would help release it and process it so that way you can get to a point to tell him or if you are too embarrassed them give him the letter...

We are here for you... you got this!

Your not alone

I feel like I can’t tell him that. I couldn’t even sleep that well last night because of it...

I thought I just had panic disorder

Want*

I had a horrible bout with harm ocd and rocd a few years back. It was very hard to tell my husband as well but to my surprise he was very understanding and the fact that I have this problem and these thoughts doesn’t seem to bother him at all. He says he just doesn’t like to see me suffer. I’m EXTREMELY glad I told my husband! He also is able to bring me back to reality and rational thought as well, which helps me get through the ocd thoughts