Guys, harm ocd hit me so hard yesterday. I haven’t dealt with this In years. I know I got trigger watching a video and it was like a chick who killed her boyfriend and I can’t even look at my husband right now with out wanting to lock myself in a room so I can’t be around him. For some reason any rationalizing isn’t helping at the moment and I just want to go back to how I was 4 days ago when shit like this never crossed my mind. I feel like a monster and I can’t tell him. And I tell him everyone of my themes. Guys I need some help right now

Today I am working but a huge amount of panic has over taken me because of a violent intrusive thought I got last night. I am so anxious to the point where i am considering cancelling because the intrusive feeling feels so terrible. What if i actually do it. What if I did tht and snapped. I am scared i just need a bit of support, a bit of i sont know wnymore

I am really struggling with harm ocd. ( The fear of hurting others) My ocd is very tough to combat at the minute. I feel like i’m having intrusive thoughts every minute of every single day. Except from when Im distracted. I feel guilty and foul for the thoughts. I have this strong intrusive feeling that feels impulsive, as if i’m about to act on a thought. It almost feels like I want to. But I really don’t and i’m so scared this isn’t normal. I keep thinking. “What if this isn’t OCD” “What if i did that” and it’s really worrying me as it feels relentless and as if I’m about to do it. In my head chest wrists. I feel tired of this. I don’t know much about compulsions etc but i find myself - Asking my bf if he gets intrusive thoughts like me. Asking him if he actually does and asking repeatedly. - I ask him over and over again and check if he definitely does. - I will literally try to fight the thoughts by kind of saying “ as if i’m not that type of person” Then saying everything will be okay to myself. Please can someone tell me if this is normal. Yes I may be looking for reassurance but i need to know if it is, Im scared, i’m crying. Please tell me if you’ve had this feeling of as if you’re about to do it!

Guys it feels so real and im really scared because it feels like i dont care about the thoughts and it feels like im going to do something terrible, its horrific. I am so scared i keep getting urges and images i dont know what to do because i get a whole rush of panic. I think what’s triggered it was my for you page on tiktok, on the Mendez brothers murder cases and The prada guy and im so scared but it feels like im not worried like abt the thoughts or feeling but i am scared pls reply its literally plaguing me in my head idk what to do bc it feels like im gonna do it