i don't know how to find comfort anymore. i'm just really sad because the entire day i feel like completely debilitated and just in my own trance of feeling like a terrible person and trying to combat my thoughts. it is so tiring already i just am longing for that feeling of feeling safe even if it's for five minutes
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@It’llBeOkay thank you :) im sorry you’re going through this!! keep your head up you will get through it !!
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@It’llBeOkay thank you so much. you are not your thoughts either.
I know this can feel so difficult at the moment. OCD can be very debilitating. Please give yourself self-compassion. You are likely doing the best you can with what you can. I am glad that you have found this community.
Awe, sometimes just wrapping in a warm blanket is nice, and giving yourself compassion, it’s difficult, you’re for sure not alone
I've found myself writhing on the ground from intrusive thoughts of my past. I have bruises all over from me hitting myself. Every waking moment is a nightmare, I can't do anything. Can't let people be mean. But standing up for myself turns into cruelty. Cruelty turns into a loathing, and then I fear that everyone hates me. I wish I could die, and live again. I don't want to lose my life, but I can't live like this.
I feel so freaking scared. I know I’ll have an intrusive thought/urge and whatever I know I’m going to fight off another compulsion until I eventually give in bc I’m still so new to this. I am petrified and I feel like I cannot for the life of me relax. I’m sleep deprived, in a terrible place hormonally, withdrawing from meds, and being treated like a burden by people around me. I literally feel like I can’t do this. I keep thinking about those posts where people talk about the hypothetical scenarios where you learn your death date. I feel like if someone told me I’d die soon, I would cry of relief. I would never hurt myself but boy do I not want to experience this anymore.
TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
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