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- 2y ago
Help..
Ive given into my anxiety and triggers so many times today.. I feel so weak, ashamed, and like I’ll never get better
Ive given into my anxiety and triggers so many times today.. I feel so weak, ashamed, and like I’ll never get better
I can understand what you are going through. I've been there many times. In fact i'm having a minor episode right now. But these episodes taught me one thing: they will pass. Things will get better, you will get better. This is a temporary situation. Remember you are still you and you are strong. Stronger than you believe you are. There is nothing to be ashamed of. This is a bumpy journey and we can not always except ups. There will be downs too. But they will pass. Just keep loving and respecting yourself.
I too have been through periods, while in therapy for OCD, where I have felt like I regressed some. However, there was always another opportunity to PAUSE, embrace the uncertainty, stop compulsions, and sit with the uncomfortable feelings produced. My recovery through OCD was by no means a straight line. There were ups and downs throughout the process, but the overall trajectory was up. Consistency in ERP was really important for me in the beginning of therapy. Stay with it, I find if I resist the first compulsion of the day, it sets the tone for my day and makes it a bit easier to resist compulsions. I hope this helps in some small way!
I too gave into mine as well. But we don't give up! I continue to try and approach the triggers with a good attitude. Sometimes I win, sometimes OCD wins. But remember every day starts fresh! Sit, Breath, Relax, Reset, Try Again. Hope you get good rest for a positive start tomorrow.
I have today:(
Hey today I’m feeling very tired because of my OCD I’m just so tired of it. I feel I’m doing everything to get better. I disregard the thoughts, I’m trying to do things like I don’t have ocd but it doesn’t want to go away. I was doing fine for a long period of time and now I feel like I’m back a square one. It’s been almost 2 months now I’m battling with OCD and I’m just tired. Sure I have moments where it’s better than others, I also have days where I barely have OCD but I also have really bad days like today where I just don’t want to get out of bed. Last time I had a relapse it took my 4 weeks to get out of it I don’t understand why this time it takes me more. I’m starting believing that I will never feel better again. Anyway I’m gonna try to find the strength to get out of bed and to start my day. But I just wanted to share. It’s such a horrible illness.
I have come so far in my therapy and days like today feel like I’m just still buried in OCD. Sometimes it is so insidious and I don’t realize I’m in a loop. Once I do realize it, it’s hard to get out. I thought sharing here may help, as I never have, but I know you guys will understand. It’s so hard to decipher between regular anxiety and obsessions and compulsions. It has all just become one big ball of panic. Anyway, I’m just struggling today - so thanks for listening.
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
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