Trouble

I've lost my ability to differentiate between right and wrong. I'm lost.

hanny_23

Date posted: 2y

me too

SunJade

Date posted: 2y

i believe it is my ocd causing me to have a hard time knowing what is right and what is wrong. i just try to not do the things that deep down inside of me i feel are wrong. i still sometimes do things that i feel are wrong, but i tell myself we are all humans and we all do some things wrong sometimes. OCD has had me trying to figure out what is right and what is wrong for a long time now. And then OCD tries to make me figure out, why the right things are right and the wrong things are wrong. And then the OCD makes me question if what I think is right and wrong is correct. And last the OCD makes me question, what if some things I think are right, are actually wrong and some things I think are wrong are actaully right. Now my common sense tries to tell me, everyone has a different opinion of whats right and wrong and different beliefs as to why things are right and wrong. I cannot reason with my OCD though. I am going to have to live with some uncertainity and not have a definate answer about everything that is right and and everything is wrong. I wish I had some good advice to give but I start therapy at the end of this month here at nocd. I am learning that me arguing with OCD about why something is right or wrong, will not help me. I feel like I should, but that for me is a compulssion. I'm sorry you are going through this. Have you thought of therapy for the OCD?

Hope_Healing

Date posted: 2y

Thank you for you putting so much effort in your post. I've take therapy from NOCD but haven't seen any affect

SunJade

Date posted: 2y

well, i may not have the answer, but sometimes it helps me to know I'm not alone in my struggle. So just know you are not alone. I'm sure there are many others with this problem from OCD also. Have you tried asking for another therapist? Sometimes a person and their therspist just doesnt work out for somw reason. If you have tried for a whike with your therapist and its not working out, maybe NOCD will give you another therapist. Im not trying to force you to stay in therapy, I'm just saying, maybe another therapist can help in a different way. I believe Therapists have different therapy techniques. I have had bad experiences with counselors before, and i had to just take a break from therapy forna while. But now I know what is helping and what isnt, so when a tehrapist is not helping me or says something that is either unhelpful or I don't agree with, I speak up and tell the therapist. If it doesnt work with a therapist, I wont try to make it work, I will just try another therapist. I am hoping nocd can help me since my main problem has been OCD but thats not what I recieved therapy for with other counselors in the past.

Lavender Fie...

Date posted: 2y

For me having a relationship with God has helped in this area tremendously. I’m not so selfish like I use to be & only worries about me & my family. 🙏❤️

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 22w

I feel lost

I honestly can’t tell when thoughts are being affected by OCD. Sometimes I think I have what I think are normal “grey” thoughts, but then OCD adds so much weight to them and I spiral. I had this thought that I wished my boyfriend was more confident or independent. I felt so guilty for thinking it. I told him, and of course it hurt him. He told me it’s a normal thought to have, I just dwell on it too much. And that it’s the kind of thought most people keep to themselves. That’s the thing. I don’t know what’s okay to keep to myself and what isn’t. I think sometimes I say things out loud not just to relieve anxiety, but because I genuinely don’t know what’s okay to think or say. I do not know the line between a normal grey thought and something that’s “bad” to think. I don’t know how to tell if it’s something I should process privately or something I need to be ashamed of. I get this confusion with intrusive thoughts too, but those are easier to spot and evaluate. This is harder, because again, it is *my* thought. That makes it harder to sit with. Maybe the intrusive part is the voice that questions what kind of person I am for even thinking it. I don’t have the same telltale signs anymore. My physical anxiety isn’t there anymore, it’s all in my head and that makes it so much more confusing. But I don’t know. The line between honesty vs compulsion is so blurry. I just feel lost

laladracu

Date posted: 20w

idk if its harm ocd anymore

I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.

Harm OCD

lina112

Date posted: 17w

OCD flaring up

I used to be able to determine what was my OCD and what’s real life but now it’s all just blending together. I literally can’t tell what’s true between what’s not true. my overthinking is absolutely terrible and rituals and everything is just crumbling.

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