- Date posted
- 2y
Trouble
I've lost my ability to differentiate between right and wrong. I'm lost.
I've lost my ability to differentiate between right and wrong. I'm lost.
me too
i believe it is my ocd causing me to have a hard time knowing what is right and what is wrong. i just try to not do the things that deep down inside of me i feel are wrong. i still sometimes do things that i feel are wrong, but i tell myself we are all humans and we all do some things wrong sometimes. OCD has had me trying to figure out what is right and what is wrong for a long time now. And then OCD tries to make me figure out, why the right things are right and the wrong things are wrong. And then the OCD makes me question if what I think is right and wrong is correct. And last the OCD makes me question, what if some things I think are right, are actually wrong and some things I think are wrong are actaully right. Now my common sense tries to tell me, everyone has a different opinion of whats right and wrong and different beliefs as to why things are right and wrong. I cannot reason with my OCD though. I am going to have to live with some uncertainity and not have a definate answer about everything that is right and and everything is wrong. I wish I had some good advice to give but I start therapy at the end of this month here at nocd. I am learning that me arguing with OCD about why something is right or wrong, will not help me. I feel like I should, but that for me is a compulssion. I'm sorry you are going through this. Have you thought of therapy for the OCD?
Thank you for you putting so much effort in your post. I've take therapy from NOCD but haven't seen any affect
well, i may not have the answer, but sometimes it helps me to know I'm not alone in my struggle. So just know you are not alone. I'm sure there are many others with this problem from OCD also. Have you tried asking for another therapist? Sometimes a person and their therspist just doesnt work out for somw reason. If you have tried for a whike with your therapist and its not working out, maybe NOCD will give you another therapist. Im not trying to force you to stay in therapy, I'm just saying, maybe another therapist can help in a different way. I believe Therapists have different therapy techniques. I have had bad experiences with counselors before, and i had to just take a break from therapy forna while. But now I know what is helping and what isnt, so when a tehrapist is not helping me or says something that is either unhelpful or I don't agree with, I speak up and tell the therapist. If it doesnt work with a therapist, I wont try to make it work, I will just try another therapist. I am hoping nocd can help me since my main problem has been OCD but thats not what I recieved therapy for with other counselors in the past.
For me having a relationship with God has helped in this area tremendously. I’m not so selfish like I use to be & only worries about me & my family. 🙏❤️
I used to be able to determine what was my OCD and what’s real life but now it’s all just blending together. I literally can’t tell what’s true between what’s not true. my overthinking is absolutely terrible and rituals and everything is just crumbling.
17f That's it I'm a monster. Before yesterday I had classic textbook POCD. Avoided children like crazy, was scared to even look at them. But something randomly clicked in my head and I became a monster. I suddenly became numb to s*xual thoughts about children. No anxiety, no remorse, no "this is wrong" or "this is weird" feeling. Nothing. Just weird curiosity. I was able to imagine SAing a child. Even made a hypothetical plan on how I would do it. And still. No remorse. No nothing. Now it's the next day and I'm freaking out. I still feel kinda numb to the images and the morality itself but at the same time it scared me how OKAY I was with the thoughts even made a PLAN.
Idk how to caption it other than that. My whole life I’ve had an issue with memory hoarding and the upside has been that I have a really vivid memories of my childhood and I get to remember my best days, the main downside has always been I have a lot of childhood trauma too and I remember every detail meticulously like I can relive and reanalyze them which has caused issues in my healing. However as much pain as it is to remember bad things so well it’s always been a bit of a comfort bc at least I know for sure even if other people don’t know or don’t believe. But as of lately I I’ve been forgetting things, whether it’s what time I’m supposed to work (and I have compulsions when checking my work schedule bc I’m always scared of reading it wrong so I usually open it up read it close it and open it up again 2-3 times so I usually KNOW) or what day it is, or just small things that I don’t remember saying or doing that other people swear on. I just have always felt like I know at the very least I know and lately I don’t and I’m so scared of going crazy and losing myself like literally my biggest fear. So I hate this. Today is Friday I was convinced yesterday was Friday and I woke up today for my Saturday shift completely convinced today was Saturday. I hate being wrong and making those small mistakes because it’s terrifying to think about what else I’m remembering wrong, or what else do I not “know” that isn’t actually the truth? I’m just so scared of losing myself mind. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this?
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