I'm afraid of the internet.

I use to be ok with it, but then when I got curious about the interent and about everything, I freaked out, I snapped, and I cried, I deleted everything, my face, most apps, even trying to get my IP privacy safe even tho I didn't put my IP but when I search stuffs about it I freaked out and I put my IP private, I even cover my phone with tape so I won't feel unsafe, I'm still afraid to go to my laptop, I'm afraid to use wifi so I did data cause I did search about it, I can't afford anything to keep myself safe, my fear of the internet really made me afraid to be outside or do anything cause I feel like there cameras everywhere, I can't even let anyone take pics of me cause I feel like someone is getting me or something, I don't want to even celebrate my bday cause people will take pics of me, I just want to run away for a year to cover my face, travel, and pretty much just waited out until I decide to get my face back to the internet, idk what to do... How can I overcome my fear..?

anonymous_cat1

Date posted: 1y ago

I have had this before where I’d excessively worry about being watched or being taken to jail for something. I’ve deleted all my apps before so I don’t see / feel anything negative. I overcame this by realising just how many people use social media every single day and how nobody really cares about anybody but themselevs, I would also tell myself that it was just a thought and nothing will come true as it is excessive worry

XxWeirdlolxX

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm really happy I'm not the only one, It means a lot that I'm not the only one that is dealing this 💖

ReadyForImpr...

Date posted: 1y ago

I've had this come up for me, too. It happens periodically. OCD can attach to things external to ourselves, especially in the context of personal safety, being harmed by others, etc. The way to overcome is to not do those compulsions... stop avoiding using wifi or the internet, stop keeping your IP private, etc. Don't take any extra precautions. And sit with the uncertainty. There's no guarantee that you'll stay safe. That certainty doesn't exist. We learn to accept the uncertainty of not being able to control everything. Those compulsions create the illusion of safety but no matter how much we do or avoid, OCD will never be satisfied. Your world will keep getting smaller. ERP is the only way. You can do it! 🥰

Holly117

Date posted: 17w ago

Past porn use “what if’s”

I’m really struggling right now. My mind is racing and I’m panicking about the content that I watched in the past because I don’t have a way to ‘prove’ that it was safe and consensual. I stupidly caved in and googled “what happens if an accidentally saw illegal porn” and I ended up making my anxiety so much worse. What if the images I saw in the past had underage people in them? Am I going to jail? Will my ip address be tracked? My brain is making all sorts of scenarios up and they feel so real. At this point I don’t know if I’m a bad person or not, I just feel like something terrible is about to happen. Although I know I’d never intentionally look for that kind of stuff there’s still a chance that I could have seen things without realising, and I actually don’t know what to do. I’m in total panic mode

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 16w ago

I really need help please, please

I know a few of you saw my posts about my ERP and the googling urges. That didn’t end up going well. My therapist actually decided we needed to halt it for now. The thing is it’s almost like I learned googling is harmless from those few exercises and my brain keeps generating more things to google. Normally I would just spiral and be done but now I can barely hold back from searching for long. I eventually give in. I’m horrified because it feels like I want to find illegal content. I swear on everything I am, I don’t want to find anything even close to it. I’m freaking out because I don’t understand what’s happening. I keep compulsively searching/testing/checking or idk. I keep remembering details and I feel like I need to google again to be sure of something. I feel absolutely insane can someone please help me??? I’m petrified I’m going to get in trouble.

Anonymous

Date posted: 15w ago

Can't be home alone. How can I over come ?

It's been a year since I've been able to stay home alone. I don't know how to fight this. I feel like the world will collapse on me. That the house will cave in. Or I'll just lose my mind and scream and run outside screaming and saying the world is falling type thing. I don't know how to help myself. I'm to scared to even try to be alone. I have to have my son 18 stay home with me or my aunt stay with me when my son does leave. It's horrible. I feel like I'm holding my son back from so much. I don't know how to beat this. Please help

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