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Keeping it to yourself?
Part of my OCD is that I can’t share my intrusive thoughts and compulsions with anyone. I can’t say it out loud because then that makes it more true? OCD is weird like that.
Part of my OCD is that I can’t share my intrusive thoughts and compulsions with anyone. I can’t say it out loud because then that makes it more true? OCD is weird like that.
I struggled with this a lot, very early in my ERP journey, and sometimes now. It took me awhile to share my thoughts with my significant other, and my friends. Ultimately for me, I realized I could handle speaking my fears out loud. It also helped me to tap into my support system outside of my therapist. It did feel weird for me too, but if you want to work towards getting past this fear, you can do it ❤️ give yourself grace as you do
trust me, not saying it out loud just gives it more power. It’s literally voldemort complex LOL. Ok that sounds silly and I literally just came up with it rn but it actually makes sense. Like not saying the thing out loud gives it this dark looming energy that scares you and builds up until you’re positive saying it will end in disaster, but when you finally do just SAY the fucking thing, you can see it’s just a weird looking clammy bald dude who never wears shoes and doesn’t have a nose. Let it out mama. It’ll feel so much better and give you back your power <3
@athoughtisjustathought wow it’s going to be so funny if you have never seen Harry Potter that will literally make no sense to u I’m sorry
@athoughtisjustathought When I’m ruminating, or caught in a fear, I try to laugh it off. It reminds me of the boggart scenes, where the boggart is something very scary, then the wizard/witch shouts “Ridikkulus,” and it lessens the fear.
Basically I just mean that not saying things makes them a lot more scary and usually when u just say it out loud ur like “wait a minute that’s a silly thing to think” so yeah. Sending you love!!! ❤️❤️❤️
I feel that exact way, I feel awful about wanting to say my intrusive thoughts out loud. It seems so real which is why it’s so scary but it isn’t. You can take as much time as you need to, but saying it out loud is definitely beneficial.
Last night I had a fucked up intrusive thought/urge about harming my partner and I'm spinning out today. I let them know I had an intrusive thought and was struggling with compulsions around it and future repercussions, but did not tell them exactly what the thought/urge was, which they accepted. Do y'all share details with your partners about harm ocd? How can we healthily ask for support from people we are having horrible thoughts about?
I find that the intrusive thoughts that hurt me the most are the quiet ones. The ones that, at a glance, can be hard to differentiate from your own thoughts. The louder thoughts are easy to diffuse, to say "maybe, maybe not" to but the quiet ones leave me ruminating for hours trying to figure out if they're mine or OCD's. They leave me feeling disconnected from those around me and even from myself. I can go from happily thinking about marrying my boyfriend in the future to feeling like I have never actually loved him in a matter of minutes all because a thought was a whisper rather than a scream. This is my first post and I'm not sure what I'm looking for in making it. Advice? To know I'm not alone? I guess if there's anything you feel the need to share I'd love to hear it.
Has anyone experienced their reputation affected or misunderstood because of a societally taboo OCD theme? Others catching wind of your obsessions and misinterpreting it, assuming the worst? I’m intentionally keeping it vague because I don’t want my specific situation to get reassured, but it’s been a real tough pill to swallow knowing that people close to me (and anyone else they might talk to) think of me differently. I’m unwilling to share about my OCD because I feel pretty confident it will be taken as an excuse or denial, and feels compulsive and reassurance seeking. Let me know if anyone here has experienced anything like it, how they handled it, exposures you did.
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