lemonlolly
- Date posted
- 2y
Keeping it to yourself?
Part of my OCD is that I can’t share my intrusive thoughts and compulsions with anyone. I can’t say it out loud because then that makes it more true? OCD is weird like that.
MichelleVMichelleV
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
I struggled with this a lot, very early in my ERP journey, and sometimes now. It took me awhile to share my thoughts with my significant other, and my friends. Ultimately for me, I realized I could handle speaking my fears out loud. It also helped me to tap into my support system outside of my therapist. It did feel weird for me too, but if you want to work towards getting past this fear, you can do it ❤️ give yourself grace as you do
athoughtisjustathoughtathoughtisju...
- Date posted
- 2y
trust me, not saying it out loud just gives it more power. It’s literally voldemort complex LOL. Ok that sounds silly and I literally just came up with it rn but it actually makes sense. Like not saying the thing out loud gives it this dark looming energy that scares you and builds up until you’re positive saying it will end in disaster, but when you finally do just SAY the fucking thing, you can see it’s just a weird looking clammy bald dude who never wears shoes and doesn’t have a nose. Let it out mama. It’ll feel so much better and give you back your power <3
athoughtisjustathoughtathoughtisju...
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- 2y
@athoughtisjustathought wow it’s going to be so funny if you have never seen Harry Potter that will literally make no sense to u I’m sorry
MichelleVMichelleV
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@athoughtisjustathought When I’m ruminating, or caught in a fear, I try to laugh it off. It reminds me of the boggart scenes, where the boggart is something very scary, then the wizard/witch shouts “Ridikkulus,” and it lessens the fear.
athoughtisjustathoughtathoughtisju...
- Date posted
- 2y
Basically I just mean that not saying things makes them a lot more scary and usually when u just say it out loud ur like “wait a minute that’s a silly thing to think” so yeah. Sending you love!!! ❤️❤️❤️
jordie__jordie__
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- 2y
I feel that exact way, I feel awful about wanting to say my intrusive thoughts out loud. It seems so real which is why it’s so scary but it isn’t. You can take as much time as you need to, but saying it out loud is definitely beneficial.
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