- Username
- Worried_Mads
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I am so sorry your going through this, maybe try doing this. It might be hard but let your thoughts pass by writing each thought down and think “is thought something I can change right now”? And if not go onto something you can and really try and let it pass and focus on things that really make you feel good and that you enjoy.
Over two-thirds of the world has herpes. So chances are you’ve already come in contact with it many times. I’m not saying there’s no risk, but there’s a high chance you either already have the virus for another experience or won’t get it from this one. Also, I dated someone with it for years and never got it. He didn’t take anything for it. https://www.who.int/news-room/detail/28-10-2015-globally-an-estimated-two-thirds-of-the-population-under-50-are-infected-with-herpes-simplex-virus-type-1
@pureolife Thank you so much for sharing your experience and knowledge! I appreciate it, this definitely provided me with some information to better tackle my Triggers. I am hoping that is the case for me! I have a grandparent with them, as well as several friends, and even teammates from school. Im hoping all is well. The girl herself tried to backtrack, saying that : “she never gave it to any boy friends” So I’m hoping the same goes for me! I have a really bad cold right now, so we will see. I’ve really appreciated all of the advice all of you have offered. Relenting my control and understanding the situation better has made me feel so much better! I just can’t believe someone would lie like that.
I understand that, and that’s scary ya know. But what’s so scary about having herpes ?
Well it can be quite unpleasant to deal with outbreaks, plus there’s a stigma attached to it. But I think for this person it’s also a huge trigger for contamination OCD. You don’t have to personally fear someone else’s OCD theme/triggers to understand how that likely makes them feel. Whatever your theme is, just imagine dealing with a big trigger for it.
@Jazmine_Leigh It is more so that it is a severe trigger for me. Especially since many rumors about self contamination are out there: essentially that if I touch my mouth, then later my genitals, I could get outbreaks there aswell. My OCD surrounds contamination, and this whole situation has opened a can of worms (or more so a can of all new triggers) for me.
I think it would really help since I don’t have the type of OCD you have. So I’m sorry if I’m not much help. But a ocd specialized therapist will help so much I just started seeing one.
After being sexually assaulted I developed a fear of sex and as a protection my OCD became obsessed with STDs and I’ve been tested a million times for everything they will test me for (they strongly recommended against testing me for herpes because everyone has it in some form and if you’re not showing symptoms and using protection it is near impossible to pass on so it doesn’t matter until you want to settle down and there is a big stigma) I’ve always come back clean, even for the random shit I googled like mycoplasma that I begged to be to be tested for. I still freak out. And now since I am starting to believe I am ok I don’t want to have sex with someone else Incase they infect me (even though if we use condoms and they get the routine test for HIV, Hep, Syphillis, Gonnorhea , and Chlymidia) the odds are slim. What do I do!!! And I agonize over whether I should disclose I have HPV even though my gyno says no because everyone has it (literally the CDC says that) and it goes away on its own almost always and dude to the lack of education it would do more harm than good. I think I am just finding reasons to avoid intimacy at this point and my OCD is making me intensely fearful about my sexual health in a very painful way to distract me, and I can’t deal. I’d rather just confront my issues.
I have a problem that I'm scared to catch a serious illness like hiv or aids from kissing people or becoming to close to them. It makes me get away from people and I have problems in relationships because I cant trust them if they are clean and I'm too freak... this Sunday I kissed a girl I met on tinder and she made me an scar on my mouth... and now I feel terrible cause if her blood got into my scar I may have caught hiv. I have been 3 days on terrible distress and this sucks... I dont know how to not think about it and I really dont talk to this girl anymore, I checked her mouth 2 or 3 times for injuries or blood (she didn't had any and I dont know if she has hiv or not) but I'm in terrible distress just for the fact that I had an open cut while kissing her and thst kiss could have made me sick with hiv. I really hate this and I hate myself and my decisions of kissing her. And this combines qith my religious compulsions... I'm really hating myself, OCD and illness right now... I'm in big distress and just want to vent a little bit. I just hope I didn't caught hiv from kissing this girl that made me an open cut as I said before but I cant be sure and this makes me crazy.... I just hate it... and hate this thoughts
So I’ve been doing so well lately. One of my biggest OCD themes besides harm is related to health and particularly STD’s within that. I’ve always had a fear of the STD’s that are incurable...particularly herpes though it’s effect on someone’s life is minimal. I’ve been sexually active recently (always with protection) and have noticed a spot on my penis. It very well could be acne or dermatitis of some kind but my OCD has already convinced me that it’s herpes and that I need to immediately get tested (which both my therapist and primary doctor have said would be feeding into the OCD unless it’s blatantly obvious that I need medical attention.) So I’m not sure what to do, any ideas how to cope with this anxiety, has anyone else had this form of OCD? Thank you in advance....
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