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Not sure of your theme, mine is SOOCD/ROCD, and I feel you. It’s like you went from being sure and confident in who you were as a person (wants/desires/needs/etc) to someone who feels so unsure about who you are. Your mind is telling you that you want these things, even though you don’t think you do. It makes you feel guilty. And it all feels inevitable. It’s like - you feel like you have to do something that you really don’t want to. At least … that’s my horrible experience with this.
God > OCDGod > OCD
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@gp 100% my experience too gp. I don’t know who I am anymore and when I say I know I’m straight, it feels like I’m telling a lie or i’m just trying to convince myself of something that’s not true. I feel so helpless sometimes
ctmontctmont
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I have definitely been where you’ve are. I’ve been married for ten years and we have 2 kids. I have had moments where I’ve slipped away to cry in the bathroom by myself because the thoughts have been so overwhelming. “You’re wasting his time. You’re not being true to yourself.” ERP is the only way to make the thoughts shut up. Just met with my therapist a few days ago after a recent lapse. Just tell yourself “ok, maybe that is what I want. Thanks for letting me know, OCD.” Try not to feed into the thoughts and fall down the rabbit hole. Grounding yourself in the present moment is also super helpful. Telling yourself “this will pass. I’m safe.”
gp gp
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@ctmont Hi. Thank you so much for responding. When you first overcame your SOOCD, was it purely with ERP? How did you move past the “feeling that it’s true”? Did you just have to relentlessly accept the thoughts and how they made you feel, that they felt real and just power on with your life? Any tips for someone who is really struggling with being stuck at this feeling true/real that I fall over with ERP ?
ctmontctmont
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@gp That’s exactly what you do. To be honest, I have had lapses but you just need to trust your values and continue to tell yourself “thanks for the reminder, ocd but I’ve got this.” It’s not easy and at times it still feels impossible but the lapses are temporary.
Lucapup1!Lucapup1!
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It’s a horrible feeling. When I start to feel this way I practice gratitude in my head. Even for the smallest things. Like the roof over my head
Ditto Ditto
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Same
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