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- Daisyandconfused
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I don’t know who I am anymore
It’s so exhausting. I’d sob but I’m too mentally tired and I don’t want to upset my husband who’s lying beside me.
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- gp gp
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Not sure of your theme, mine is SOOCD/ROCD, and I feel you. It’s like you went from being sure and confident in who you were as a person (wants/desires/needs/etc) to someone who feels so unsure about who you are. Your mind is telling you that you want these things, even though you don’t think you do. It makes you feel guilty. And it all feels inevitable. It’s like - you feel like you have to do something that you really don’t want to. At least … that’s my horrible experience with this.
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- DaisyandconfusedDaisyandconf...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yeah, definitely very similar to that. It’s terrifying.
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- My OCD AcademiaMy OCD Academia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@gp 100% my experience too gp. I don’t know who I am anymore and when I say I know I’m straight, it feels like I’m telling a lie or i’m just trying to convince myself of something that’s not true. I feel so helpless sometimes
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- ctmontctmont
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I have definitely been where you’ve are. I’ve been married for ten years and we have 2 kids. I have had moments where I’ve slipped away to cry in the bathroom by myself because the thoughts have been so overwhelming. “You’re wasting his time. You’re not being true to yourself.” ERP is the only way to make the thoughts shut up. Just met with my therapist a few days ago after a recent lapse. Just tell yourself “ok, maybe that is what I want. Thanks for letting me know, OCD.” Try not to feed into the thoughts and fall down the rabbit hole. Grounding yourself in the present moment is also super helpful. Telling yourself “this will pass. I’m safe.”
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- gp gp
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@ctmont Hi. Thank you so much for responding. When you first overcame your SOOCD, was it purely with ERP? How did you move past the “feeling that it’s true”? Did you just have to relentlessly accept the thoughts and how they made you feel, that they felt real and just power on with your life? Any tips for someone who is really struggling with being stuck at this feeling true/real that I fall over with ERP ?
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- ctmontctmont
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@gp That’s exactly what you do. To be honest, I have had lapses but you just need to trust your values and continue to tell yourself “thanks for the reminder, ocd but I’ve got this.” It’s not easy and at times it still feels impossible but the lapses are temporary.
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- Lucapup1!Lucapup1!
- Date posted
- 1y ago
It’s a horrible feeling. When I start to feel this way I practice gratitude in my head. Even for the smallest things. Like the roof over my head
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- Ditto Ditto
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Same
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- Jesuslover28
- Date posted
- 18w ago
IM LOST
I have no idea who I am anymore. I have completely lost my self. And idk what to do. Idk where my caring, and loving, chirst like side went. I have lost touch with who I am and everything I once new. I've had ocd for so long that I think it just became me. Or I'm dealing with cognitive Dissonance, which I feel like it probably true. Tbh. But anyways I feel like I'm genuinely gone crazy towards god and idk what to do. I wish I could just go back to myself, and I'm just not sure what to do. I think I turned away from God the only thing that once brought me joy. Just seems so dry now, like I'm empty or whatever. I personally don't think I'll ever be ok again.
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- landonw
- Date posted
- 17w ago
Why?
They’re getting more intense.. My mind wonders if what i’m feeling is really OCD.. what if it’s not and i’m in denial? Why is my life like this, a constant loop of fears and stress holding me back. I just want to live. To be the kind boy everyone knows. To make and be a difference. There’s sometimes I wish I could stay asleep.. to rest for a while. To hibernate all these feelings away. But I know that’s not how it works. Each tear I shed is a reminder of the hell I live every day when I open my eyes. I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know why I am anymore. Please someone.. advice, words of positivity, something.. I feel so alone. I’m scared. I don’t know where else to go.
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