How do you know?!

How do you know if a thought/feeling or idea is unwanted??? I didn’t WANT to have OCD but I do. What if I am the thing I fear and it is unwanted but it’s just who I am? How can I accept that when it would completely destroy everything and the relationships in my life? I don’t know how one can be expected to accept something like that. When in any other conversation besides and OCD conversation it would make you a pariah. So how do you know a thought/ feeling/ idea is truly unwanted?

hailey.haddox

Date posted: 1y ago

I usually know my intrusive thoughts by the spike of anxiety they give me. I know it’s not the same for everyone though. It can definitely be so scary because it feels SO REAL. And makes you feel like you want those things. I try to remember and definitely still struggle with acceptance. To me, acceptance isn’t saying, “I want this thought,” or, “I love this thought.” I feel it’s more saying, “I’m accepting that I’m having a thought that I don’t like and that is okay.”

Lrn

Date posted: 1y ago

My thoughts can also be so repetitive it’s hard to tell the difference from your own thoughts. Sometimes I can hardly even tell what my emotions are it can feel like I’m making it all up or I’m deluding myself to feel a certain way. It’s really a blurry line but you need to be kinder to yourself and try to assume the good in yourself. I often feel like a horrible person but it’s important to remember that those thoughts do not define you.

Ellasmama

Date posted: 21w ago

Things that scare me

Is this ocd? I Have a thought or think something f harmful that I’ve gotten intrusive thoughts about - and get a feeling like I want/like it or it would give me relief??? Please tell me that will eventually go away and I’ll get my real feelings back??? Or have I just turned into those things? Sometimes things that make me upset it even feels like I’ll do them just so I can be upset about them.

landonw

Date posted: 20w ago

Why Does It Seem So Real?

Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.

FairyWithaKnife

Date posted: 18w ago

I just don't know

I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.

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