Very, very bad day

I just took my 4th shower, maybe my 100h hand wash, I've done laundry twice, I had to clean my glasses a few times. I've basically spent all day on edge and getting tiggered, trying my best to ignore it just to get triggered by something else and spiraling. I haven't stopped moving for 12 hours and I'm not even done yet, my blanket is still in the dryer and I probably need to eat. I needed to clean my four "safe" cups but only managed doing one after not having anything to drink for three or four hours. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry and play animal crossing but my 2DS is dead and my charger is "dirty" and I just don't have it in me to clean anything else if I can help it. :(

Username: User11123User11123

Date posted: 47w ago

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I have had those days too. It’s so unfair and draining. Know that you are not alone.

Username: User11123User11123

Date posted: 47w ago

I do have a therapist and I am still in the process of doing ERP. I will say that the biggest thing I’ve learned is that the anxiety is much higher the first time you fight back than the subsequent times - it almost reminds me of going on a diet or cutting out a certain type of food, like the first week is miserable and then you actually start to get used to it and suddenly it’s not so bad, and then you start to see your progress and it’s even more motivating. Knowing that about ERP really helped motivate me to push back on the OCD, because it was really helpful to know that it gets easier to fight. I don’t know if that’s helpful, but that was the biggest takeaway for me that I wish I had known before, because it made it less scary than thinking that every time you fight back will feel as hard as the first time.

Username: seb111seb111

Date posted: 47w ago

That fucking sucks maybe try the prozac

Username: MichelleBrando55MichelleBran...

Date posted: 46w ago

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time right now. It sounds like you've been dealing with quite a bit of distress and it's taking a toll on you. Just know that you're not alone in this struggle and there are others who understand what you're going through. Keep holding on, and try to be gentle with yourself. 🌸 By the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called "unstuck"? I've been in a similar situation before, and my NOCD therapist recommended it to me. I think it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides personalized step-by-step support when OCD gets difficult, just like having an OCD therapist by your side. I hate when people promote stuff, but I really think it can help you because it's changed my life. Lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! ❤️

Username: Crazy.Cat.Lady

Date posted: 5y ago

Today was the worst Christmas ever! I woke up with cramps in my tummy PLUS the thing that triggers my ocd fear was on my chest. So of course full blown meltdown, hitting things and everything else while I cleaned my bedroom and the bathroom. Then shower. Then checking the bedroom. It took me a little over five hours to complete. I don’t have anyone to talk to while I was hysterically crying and trying to deal with my ocd. It’s so hard. Life is not fair. I bet I was just as bad as Hitler to be subjected to my mental illnesses. I don’t know what I did to have to live like this. There are people deliberately hurting and killing animals and other humans. The only good thing was that I didn’t feel nausea nor panic attack-which is extremely rare for me.

Username: Stefanie280

Date posted: 1y ago

Completely exhausted

My OCD has been a total Hell. I literally was stuck trapped in bathroom for 15hrs straight no food water or rest for days. When ever i shower/brush teeth anything of washing it takes forever! I was up for 18hrs total i started crying i was soo exhausted then i still couldn't drink anything all day my anxiety was soo high i couldnt. My severe contamination OCD stops me from everything including drinking n eating. Sooo miserable!😭

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 47w ago

I'm stuck

Hi I'm new to this app and just wanted to communicate with someone struggling with simular things. My ocd has me feeling so stuck right now, like I just don't know what to do. It's caused me to stay home from school and quit my job due to panic attacks. I should probably specify I have contamination ocd and some other one idk what to call. Closest thing would probably be perfection ocd. A couple days ago I had a really bad panic attack once I got home from work where I cried and sat on the stairs for about 2 hours. I only got up when my mom forced me to, because everytime I tried I just felt like I couldn't move. It was mainly triggered by my job as I find it "dirty" and cant handle it anymore- I quit mt job that night. Then is also when I finally told my mom how I've been feeling because of it and now she's constantly worrying that I haven't hurt myself as I finally told her "I just want it to stop." I don't think I actually would but I can't help but to think what would happen and how I could go about it. I have a therapist I see monthly, but I find it really hard to tell her how bad it's effecting me because it's hard to talk about and Idk what kind of power she has but I don't want her to send me to the ward. Idk if that's even a thing anymore but I'm scared of it. I constantly feel like I have to clean everything and I just dont have the energy to do it. All I want to do is lay in bed. But these "dirty" things full my mind untill they're "clean" again. Not to mention the things I literally can't clean because of their material 🥲 I apologize for the awful organization, these are just my thoughts right now.

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