getbetter33
- Date posted
- 1y
this sucks
i hate ocd i hate the control it has i hate the inability to distinguish real from fake i hate the immense guilt i hate it feeling like a horrible person
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
I get it
Dakari PDakari P
- Date posted
- 1y
It’s nothing short of hell
scotty2hottyscotty2hotty
- Date posted
- 1y
Sounds like you are letting your ocd win. Remember, it can NEVER make you do anything you don't want to do. You do compulsions because you want to. Ocd might whisper in your ear and and highly suggest you do them but in the end it can't make you do anything. It's impossible. Ocd has NO control.
OCDewewewOCDewewew
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
People don’t understand this. They say to “trust your gut” and “you know what you feel” but you can’t and you don’t. You truly don’t have a gut or intuition. You don’t know what’s real feelings and what’s fake. You don’t know what thoughts are real and what are fake. And I think that’s the hardest part. Ocd convinces you that you are the worst version of yourself. It’s a 24/7 internal bully that you can’t turn off.
scutodragonscutodragon
- Date posted
- 1y
Maybe death is the cure I have white hair at 17 because of this disorder I’ve reached my limit with life and want to end it for good
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