I’m actually going crazy

I have dealt with OCD for over 25 years. I know how it makes you feel. But think about that word "Insane"! What does it actually mean? Are you sure you feel any different than anyone else? You can't get into anyone else's head to know that. So how do you judge insanity? Most would say insanity can be summarized by losing touch with reality! Even though you are having obsessions, thoughts ect.. Do you still know down deep they are irrational? I don't know you but if I had to guess, you probably do know down deep they are irrational. Because of that you are probably not insane!

I don’t really know how to explain it I just feel like I’m going crazy. I feel like my mind is just deteriorating and that with each day I am just losing grips on real life. I know they are irrational but I’m also starting to almost believe them and it’s freaking me out

Why do you say that?

@jec4568 I have ocd and you kinda always have the feeling that you’re going insane. I just had a massive ocd episode and I literally feel like I’m losing my mind

Well said

I'm here all week

No seriously! If I can help in any way. I am a veteran at this.

I feel the same way too, but from Jec said I believe we know deep down any intrusive thoughts are likely not true so we need to hold on to that. They wouldn't be such a problem for us if we were really bad people, it proves we are good people by having the fear of these thoughts being true and wanting them to go away. I guess it's a journey of coming to terms with the fact that these thoughts are always gonna be there, and down to us to learn how to manage them so they occur less often. I'm still learning a lot too and it's still early days of me even realising what OCD is. I've been trying to keep a diary, exercise, meditate and change old habits. Some days it feels impossible, but day by day I am hoping it will get easier now I know what it is. Try and stay positive and focus on doing little changes in your daily routine, and hopefully things will get easier.

I could tell you a heck of a story about myself regarding that same thing. However I'm not going to go into that on this blog. Your thoughts can freak you out if you let them. What you have to remember is a thought is only a thought until you give it meaning. Until you give a thought power, it has none!