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Confidence and OCD
Does anyone experience physical confidence issues that might be related to OCD?
Does anyone experience physical confidence issues that might be related to OCD?
I had an eating disorder growing up and very likely have body dysmorphic disorder related to OCD/perfectionism. So I would say yes. I realize eating disorders and BDD are not OCD but high risk of having both. Not sure if this is what you're getting at but yes, I see other women and I am like, how can I be that comfortable in my own skin?
Yes, for me a lot of social interaction are difficult because I have intrusive thought that tell me what I think this person is thinking about me, and that create a lot of distress because I have to prove to my self that it is no true (it is a compulsion so it dosent work because the thought will came again). Also I think that when you have a lot of repetitive intrusive thoughts specially about how you are perceived by other, it can alter the way you see yourself. (Or at least it feels like this in my case) I mean if I had someone telling me the things my mind is telling me every day, probably would be considered bullying or worst haha
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and itās so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started Iāve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I donāt feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before Iām constantly overanalyzing how Iām feeling , it makes me really anxious and like Iām preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and itās extremely anxiety inducing and idk if itās the ocd now but it feels like thatās how I want to dress.. thatās not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like thatās what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
I'm really struggling to figure out where my OCD ends and where I begin. Iām scared of most thingsānot in a panicky way, but in a deep, cautious, worst-case-scenario kind of way. Example: I haaaaaaaaate my spectacles. Iād love to do Lasik, or even just wear contacts, but the idea terrifies me. Iāve heard about the tiniest risk of blindness or infection, and once that thought is in my head, it takes over. I picture the worst, and then I donāt act. TRIGGER Also Lasik involves cutting TRIGGER which petrifies me. Iām stuck between wanting change and being too afraid to make it. The same goes with wanting to travel but being scared I'll be trafficked or someone will plant something in my bag & I'll get arrested overseas. No amount of praying will fix it. Does anyone else feel like their OCD makes them freeze in everyday decisions? Like you canāt tell if you're just being practical or if it's the OCD gripping the steering wheel again? Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's not OCD but my personality, that's what I'm trying to figure out.
Iām struggling with something Iām afraid to even admit out loud. Iāve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. Heās kind, safe, and emotionally close to me ā and weāve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I donāt feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe⦠I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection ā and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, Iām starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was āsupposed to.ā Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness ā but not sexual chemistry. And now I donāt know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: ā āIf you really loved him, youād want him.ā ā āYouāre leading him on.ā ā āWhat if youāre lying to yourself?ā ā āIf you try to fix this and fail, youāll have to leave.ā I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship ā and being terrified that trying will just prove itās hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
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