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- 37w ago
Confidence and OCD
Does anyone experience physical confidence issues that might be related to OCD?
Does anyone experience physical confidence issues that might be related to OCD?
I had an eating disorder growing up and very likely have body dysmorphic disorder related to OCD/perfectionism. So I would say yes. I realize eating disorders and BDD are not OCD but high risk of having both. Not sure if this is what you're getting at but yes, I see other women and I am like, how can I be that comfortable in my own skin?
Yes, for me a lot of social interaction are difficult because I have intrusive thought that tell me what I think this person is thinking about me, and that create a lot of distress because I have to prove to my self that it is no true (it is a compulsion so it dosent work because the thought will came again). Also I think that when you have a lot of repetitive intrusive thoughts specially about how you are perceived by other, it can alter the way you see yourself. (Or at least it feels like this in my case) I mean if I had someone telling me the things my mind is telling me every day, probably would be considered bullying or worst haha
Iāve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I wonāt give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that Iāll ācheck/testā my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that Iāll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. Itās so complicated but I guess Iām mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. Iāve even envisioned myself checking and itās making me so nauseous. I know itās a compulsion like any other but the sound of ātouching yourself to the thought of a childā sounds atrocious and vile. Iām terrified Iāll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, Iād appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
It started when I became an adult, and started receiving my mental health diagnosis. I hyper fixated on each and every action I did and how it could be related to my diagnosisās. It then lead to fixation to my physical health ā making appointments and seeing every specialist I can to rule out every possibility. I currently have been suffering with obstructive sleep. I woke up the past few days with severe pain from the lack of sleep whilst believing I was oversleeping. Luckily my fit watch tracks my sleep cycle and it turns out I am not receiving any sleep. I had an extreme panic attack ā bursting into tears on the phone with my mom wondering what this case might be. She told me it could be sleep apnea and that a simple sleep study could figure this out. However, knowing my family history I made appointments to every specialist I can to make sure it is nothing serious. The unknown of health can be scary to me. Watching my mother suffer with her physical health chronically since I was a child lead me to be very conscious and aware of how my body is functioning. This morning was one of the worst moments of physical pain. I should just take one step at a time with the sleep doctor instead of taking measures to see every specialist that could pertain with this issue. However, that is very hard to me. I donāt want to ever wake up in the pain I was this morning. Does anyone else suffer with health-related OCD? And if so, how do you find a sense of ease during moments like I expressed?
This list by ai gives a good summary of my symptoms. Does it resemble OCD or is it something else? 1. Compulsions (OCD-specific behaviors): ⢠Feeling the need to flex or contract muscles an even number of times, equally on both sides of your body. ⢠Needing to reverse actions (for example, if you roll your eyes or trace a line with your finger, you feel compelled to do it again in the exact opposite way). 2. Intrusive Thoughts (OCD-specific ruminations): ⢠Daydreaming about people you care about getting hurt (e.g., school shooting, injury, or kidnapping). ⢠Sometimes feeling like you might want something bad to happen to someone you find attractiveāpossibly because of a desire to help or save them, though itās confusing. ⢠These thoughts can sometimes provide a twisted sense of relief while remaining distressing and confusing. 3. Sexual Orientation OCD: ⢠Experiencing confusion or doubt about your sexual orientation. 4. Contamination Thoughts: ⢠Feeling like things are contaminated, especially after touching something gross. 5. Sensory Compulsions: ⢠Feeling the need to smell your hand after touching areas like your ear or hair. 6. ADHD-like Symptoms / Additional Observations: ⢠Fidgeting or moving your legs when standing or sitting.
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