The phrase "it's not that deep"

Today I've let myself go down a huge rabbit hole regarding this phrase and it's stressing me out. Sometimes, yes, it is that deep. But other times, it really isn't. I keep finding myself torn between these two ideals. I've been seeing all these videos regarding the rise of anti-intellectualism and the anti-woke mob, all that. These videos make me extremely worried about cancel culture and moral guilt, and they had me rethinking every morally wrong, gross, questionable thing or thought I ever had. I saw many comments saying that yes everything is that deep and it feels like my mind is on constant security and asking myself "what would the internet think about the things I've thought of or may have done?" On one hand, I feel like if I say "it's not that deep", I feel like a hypocrite or a bad person or an idiot. But on the other hand if I say "it is that deep", my OCD begins to spiral and analyze everything about myself. It's not healthy to overanalyze everything but it's also not healthy to ignore bad things. It's very stressful Does anyone relate to this?

Username: issphra 🫶🏻issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 2d ago

You have Moral OCD. It’s so hard, I know that personally. It’s my main theme. Everything else, harm, pocd, ROCD, real event, all of those fall under my main theme of morality. I’m terrified of being a bad person, of being viewed as evil, unforgivable, unworthy. I like to describe my OCD as an extreme SJW. Bickering, recoiling, and spewing its venom at every morally grey thing I’ve done or do or will do. Every mistake I’ve made and any future mistakes I will make. I am terrified of mistakes and of not being perfect. Why fear others “canceling” you when your OCD cancels you every single day? I’m poking a bit of fun at this horrible monster that we have in our heads that judge us SO harshly. I relate to everything you said. It’s hard to let go when it has to do with the uncertainty of being *unforgivable* and *unredeemable*. It’s terrifying, but it’s also exhausting to overanalyze everything. It’s so frustrating and painful to constantly wonder *“am I wrong for this? Am I disgusting? Violent? Evil? Perverted? A monster? A predator? A bad person? Someone who lacks ***real*** morals?”* It’s not healthy to feed your OCD. It’s insanely convincing that you’re this irresponsible, ignorant creature but that is still a LIE. Your OCD will never tell you you’re pure hearted, compassionate, a great, beautiful loving person. It will always tell you that you are your worst nightmare. My heart goes out to you, from one **maybe evil, maybe not evil** soul to another ;), don’t let your OCD win.

Username: SavageGirlSavageGirl

Date posted: Yesterday

I only have this with my family. I don't care what others think about me unless it comes to my family. I constantly overthink everything I say or do, scared that they'll be disappointed with me.

Username: MichelleVMichelleV

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d ago

Remember that the world is rarely black and white, like OCD wants it to be. People on the internet will always express their opinions, but you may notice there is not really one singular truth. Philosophy and topics like anti-wokeness have come and gone for years. The key is to live a life according to your values and your own morals. Trying to analyze every single thought or behavior will only keep you in the spiral. In terms of things that are that deep, or aren’t - again, this is going to ebb and flow for you personally. And that’s ok! That’s life. You don’t have to have answers. You won’t ever have all the answers, because no one does. I also want to remind you to be gentle with yourself. There is a huge influx of news and opinions and headlines in the world, and it’s a LOT to take in. Take a break from the videos to ease your mind. Are you considering ERP therapy to help you through this?

Username: Jennifer DalimonteJennifer Dal...

User type: Therapist

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi there, I am so glad our community shared their thoughts, I hope it helps you feel less alone here. You are definitely not alone in this experience. OCD loves stressful & uncertain times. It ceases these opportunities to try to further deepen its hold on our lives. Using the strategies the others have suggested will help decrease its hold. You might find these resources helpful, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhKmY1IeFf8 and https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/the-rumination-trap

Username: FairyWithaKnife

Date posted: 16w ago

I just don't know

I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 11w ago

I'm fearing myself and I hate it

I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"

Username: Megan Ruth

Date posted: 4w ago

Is anyone else freaking out because of politics?

PLEASE do not argue over political stances in this post that is not what this is for at all. For context I consider myself someone with mixed views (politically homeless) and I am connected with people of all stripes and beliefs and stances. After the inauguration in the USA this weekend there has been an overwhelming response from the populace especially online. I feel like I’m completely surrounded by people (on every “side”) who are making very intense and unyielding statements about other people’s morals and values and “good-“ or “bad-ness” based on their beliefs, opinions, responses or non responses to all the different things going on politically. I feel like it’s driving me insane. My head has been spinning constantly and I can’t stop crying. I feel like I’m drowning and cornered and under a police interrogation light. I’m so terrified of saying or doing or thinking or not thinking the “wrong” thing, I’m feeling my heart being torn in so many directions and I’m struggling to stop ruminating and spiraling over feeling like I don’t belong anywhere and no matter what I’m always going to be evil to someone. This is not me taking a side or revealing what I think, or trying to make an implied judgment or comment on ANY political figure, policy, etc….My point is: the issue I’m having is with the way people are talking about these issues and about other people in the midst of these issues, so black and white, so moralistic, and my OCD is having a field day. Just looking for camaraderie and to know I’m not alone in this. I please ask again do not bring up specific political issues or take stances in the comments. Thank you.

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