- Username
- d a i s y
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Hi everyone! Thank you all soooooooo much for your support. I wish there was a way I could demonstrate just how much you all mean to me. I really like the sound of partial inpatient, it just seems less intimidating. My psychiatrist wants me admitted to a sub-acute mental health unit here in Byron Bay, otherwise she wants me to fly to Melbourne to stay in a specialist OCD clinic. I’m so scared to tell her what I’ve been doing because it sounds crazy. It’s humiliating. I think I will write everything down too :) that’s such a good idea, thank you guys!
There’s no shame in getting the help you need! I know that it can be embarrassing at times but know your OCD is not your fault and you don’t need to feel bad for it. As for your psychiatrist, she’s a mental health professional and she’s not going to judge you for your OCD, or think you’re crazy, I’m sure she understands! Hang in there and good luck! Keep us updated :)
Thank you so very much ghostly! You’re truly wonderful. I’ll let you all know what happens tomorrow! d a i s y
I’m so sorry to hear that - it sounds terrible - if you’re finding it hard to voice how bad it’s gotten, how about screen shorting this, or writing down how bad it is and showing it to your psychiatrist? If you find it easier - that way your position is clear and they are more likely to be able to help you :). Wish you all the best :)
I agree with the above, you were able to let us know so just write it out for your psychiatrist.
I hope only the best for you!
Bless you. You really need a break. You are always so helpful for others you deserve support too. I agree show them your message. Wish you the best for your appointment.
I agree with @Ellz, you’re always so helpful and you deserve the best. Good luck at your appointment tomorrow, just show them what you wrote on here and they’ll understand, that way it’s easier for you to tell them how you feel
I think its time to consider inpatient treatment. One day you will be able to manage at home, but right now it sounds like you need to be in a safe space where you can learn to improve ❤️ don’t lose hope, recovery is in all of us
Does Australia offer partial hospitalization programs (where you go home at night but go to the hospital for therapy groups all day)? I did this for 2 weeks a few months ago and it was helpful and to me a slightly easier alternative to inpatient. Right not I think you need to open up to your psychiatrist and tell them exactly what you told us. If you can, you need to give your parents the liquid nitrogen and acids you are using because they are too much for you to healthfully use right now. You may also need to have a discussion with your parents about turning off the water at a certain point, maybe no more than 15 minutes. You also must eat. I know how hard this is because before I went to my partial program I had been awake for 48 hours and barely eaten a snack. I would ask you psychiatrist if you can take your crisis medications or if he can prescribe anything else to bring down your anxiety level.
Although many people are scared of inpatient, it is not going to be as bad as you think. You will likely have a private room and probably will only allowed to wear certain clothing from home. You will probably be expected to go to groups in a common area during the daytime and have individual meetings with psychiatrists and therapists.
Honestly, if there is a time in your life to get your OCD under control it is now. It’s better to go now and not have your career disturbed once you are more established. You can say you’ve decided to travel for a month or something similar and don’t have to tell them you are getting medical treatment. Due to your age, they will probably be very forgiving. I don’t want to make assumptions, but unless this is your dream job, please don’t compromise your health for it.
Thank you so much Ben! I hold you all so close to my heart. I don’t know what I’d do without you guys. Thinking of you always, d a i s y
Write everything down before your psych appointment, like a script almost
I’m sorry you’re going through all of this. Like the others, I would advise you write down everything that you’re dealing with, and how bad it had gotten, before you meet with your psychiatrist. That way you have a clear idea of what you want to say. Try to be as honest with them as possible. I know I try to play things down because I don’t like being vulnerable and I don’t want to feel like I’m being overdramatic. Try not to do this.
Hi everyone! So I haven’t met with my psychiatrist yet, I’m seeing her in a couple of hours. I know she’s going to suggest inpatient, but I just left high school and got a new job and I don’t want my employers to think I’m unreliable. I don’t know what to do! Can you do inpatient but still be allowed to go to work? I know this sounds bonkers but if my OCD takes my job away from me too I don’t know what I’ll have left. Hope you’re all wonderful. d a i s y
I’m honestly thinking the same thing. I’ll see what my psychiatrist thinks. Surely they can’t dismiss me on the grounds of requiring hospital admission. Thank you so much, I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you. d a i s y
You know that I’m always here for you and I’m keeping you in my thoughts! I know how strong you are and I’m looking forward to hearing about your recovery! :)
I told my psychiatrist I was too scared to go to hospital right now so admission is the 15th of October if I’ve made no improvement, or earlier if I decline. Thanks for being here for me! d a i s y
Hi everyone! It’s been a while! For anyone that doesn’t know me, I’m Daisy :) I’ve been a part of this forum since it first opened and boy has it come far! I’m 18 and live in Australia ?? I’m currently 8 weeks into an inpatient hospital stay due to the severity of my OCD. So believe me when I say, I’m very, very familiar with OCD and how truly horrendous it can be to live with. I just wanted to let others know that I’m here to listen if they need someone to vent to. Sometimes it’s hard to open up as an obsessive-compulsive because our thoughts are so terrifyingly intrusive. Our friends and family, although supportive, can be unfamiliar with the mechanisms of these horrific thoughts and how to approach them. Feel free to ask me anything! I’ve taken dozens of medications, seen many specialist and engaged in multiple different therapies. If anyone’s interested in life as an inpatient, I’m more than happy to answer some questions ? Hope you’re all wonderful ? d a i s y
*venting* I’m so tired of life. I just woke up, and I feel like going back to bed and sleep until this nightmare passes. This week has been one of the hardest of my life. I don’t think I can face another day of intrusive thoughts, fear, anxiety. I need some moments of relief, but there are none. I wanna have a life again. Anxiety and obsessive thoughts have killed my social life, my ambitions and desires, my happiness. I’ve been fighting for the past 6 months for nothing. I don’t see any improvement. I’m on day 3 of Lexapro and of course i can’t tell if it’s gonna work for me or not. I’m on the first stages of ERP therapy and I still haven’t got any assigned homework to work on, which I really need because I need to feel like I’m doing SOMETHING to help myself with ocd and Gad. I just hope someone could just take out whatever part of my brain isn’t working properly and replace it with a new piece. I don’t wanna feel like a burden to my family or boyfriend anymore. I can’t believe all the damage that I’m causing. I don’t know what to do with all this self hate. I don’t know where to turn to. I seem to have all the help that one could need - therapy, medication, support system. Yet I feel like I can’t spend another day living like this.
I honestly do not know how to get through or do better anymore. I’m really hoping therapy will help, I hope ERP will help, but I’ve been so bad off for a while and it’s only getting worse. I hoped I could be okay during this weekend with my brother’s wedding and all, but having it in Vegas and and all kinds of things around me that were new and/or not my speed just wrecked me. I have snapped and I feel like im just lost. All the time. I ruined Thursday night when my brother and I had a fight. It’s okay now but I still feel the guilt (and ruminate on the whole thing). My friend that came with me is really worried about me because she feels like im getting more and more self destructive and when I told her about how bad the thoughts in my head were she was like “holy shit I love you and I’m here for you and I want so bad for you to get help cuz it’s scaring me how bad off you are.” But I don’t know if anything will help. For so long I was okay and I was going forward and I felt like I had a handle on myself and my mental health and instead I’ve backslid into this disastrous cycle of thoughts and like even through it could be just ocd talking (I mean the amount of doubt if I really have it or not is high) or if it really is all my fault. I don’t know. I don’t even know what shouting into the void will do. But im slowly feeling like I can’t function and im scared of going back to work Tuesday and I’m scared of trying to take care of myself even though im so tired of always feeling like everything is my fault and that I can’t do anything right and that if I do try to express myself I can’t do it correctly anyway so why bother. I’m just so tired. I was doing so well for a bit and now im just tired. Like I said. I don’t know if talking into the void of this app will help. I don’t know if anything will. But honestly it can’t hurt anymore than it does not trying *something* and I am so tired of how much I hate myself and my mind and my lack of function. I guess im just shouting into the void. Thank you for reading if you did and no worries if not.
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