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- Someone shut up my brain
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I get anxiety for both thoughts .
I lost my libido
And sometimes I don't get anxiety for neither
At this thoughts
I’m in this place too. Even though I was boy crazy before, I think I’m just asexual now bc I really can’t see myself with a girl and I can barely see myself w a guy now
I don't know what's real
and sometimes I feel like I have to smile.
Hey, @Someone shut up my brain- I don’t want to speak out of turn, but I think what Katie is getting at is that, often times, seeking comfort from the thoughts that are scaring us makes them worse because it reinforces the idea that the thoughts are anything more than just a thought. OCD plays tricks on us to get us to seek comfort and certainty, but the comfort we get is usually very temporary, and it actually perpetuates the cycle of thoughts and compulsions. I don’t think she meant that you are making it happen. I think it’s kind of like quick sand, the more you fight the more stuck you get. Just like quick sand though, there is a way out, but you have to learn the techniques (for example- ERP) and, if available, the right tools/support are always helpful. I hope my quicksand analogy is helpful. It gets better. @NOCD Advocate - Katie
Yes, I'm not saying it's intentional. Just that the more we practice going around the OCD cycle, the harder it is to stop
What happens that changed? Did you change meds or something?
I overthought.
And it changed all of that? Wow. How are you at this moment
Not good. I want to cr
I am sorry you are going through this. That's how I am. I overthink everything and then my anxiety just goes crazy.
i know. same. i find comfort in my bf but it’s so confusing. it feels weird when i say that i like girls. it feels wrong. even late bloomers that figure out they are gay later in life always say they’ve had a fascination with girls all their life or certain girls, that was true for me but only with boys. i thought i was in love with a girl last year but i wasn’t in a good state of mind it almost seemed like i was getting mad and all this anger came out because i came out as bi. this girl just passed me in walmart and my heart dropped. i don’t even know what is going on anymore.
Me too, I'm holding onto all the past memories and how I dealt with HOCD before in order to remind me that this is all in my head
@Someone shut up my brain i will help you get through this. it seems like we’re in the same place with our disorder kind of. is there anything i can do to help?
@holley Im just hoping this passes :')
But it's ok if you do but if the anxiety comes along with it I've heard than it's just your ovd taking over.
You've created six new threads today. I'm curious what information you're hoping to get out of multiple threads that can't be addressed in one
Today has just been a rough day. I don't know, why I'm doing this .
@Someone shut up my brain Rough days happen. You deserve support and connection. I'm just concerned that the way you're getting that may be reinforcing ocd
@NOCD Advocate - Katie Reinforcing ? What does that mean ?
@NOCD Advocate - Katie Like making it happen ?
@Someone shut up my brain Reinforcing ocd means making the connection between unwanted thoughts, distress, and compulsions stronger. Essentially, making the OCD worse
I don't know I stopped feeling numb now to the thoughts and I feel like I'm starting to enjoy them , I don't know who I truly am anymore
does anyone else feel like they’ve completely lost themself and don’t know what they really feel like or who they are anymore. i have no idea what i should have as morals or if i even care about anything, i’m really stuck, i don’t even know my sexuality anymore, it’s really tough.
i don't know who i am. trauma and bad choices. being exposed to things as a kid. developing an addiction. I'm not happy with who i was. now i don't know what i am. i have thoughts and feelings and they are processed. i have a face and a voice and i seem to fit in sometimes. but i don't fit in anywhere. i don't know if I'm really there. I'm kind of just along for the ride. my eyes are seeing things and the information is being relayed to me. what is me. who is me. how many of me are there inside my shell. how many masks do i have. what am i. who's emotions are i feeling. who's thoughts am i having. am i good or bad. do i exist at all. am i a ghost. am i a mannequin. am i a puppet. am i an actor. what are my motives. what is my goal. who controls me. it hurts. help.
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