Ocd warriors please some advice ❤️ Are fake feelings a thing? Or am I just making stuff up. Sometimes I “feel” all these horrible things about my partner but I know even in those moments deep down that I love him! And when I’m not in those moments it’s not even just deep down that I love him - it’s right there, on the surface. I even feel guilty typing ‘deep down’ but it’s the only way I can try and explain it. I’m a 13hr shift tomorrow and I can’t even bare to think of it and how I will get through it feeling the way I do. For the first time in a while I’ve had suicidal thoughts and that’s not really like me. My fake ‘feelings’ make me feel I’ve betrayed my boyfriend, and I feel I’m not in control and have opposite actions. For example actions I don’t want to do, that I do. E.g, leaning too close over a colleague when reaching for something near them. I don’t know what else to do?

I’m sorry you’re struggling with this! In my experience, these R OCD feelings do get better over time - just try to stick to your normal life and routine as much as possible and try not to engage the thoughts. For me it’s like: “Do I really love my partner? I’m not going to answer that question right now. I’ll consider it in 1 month. Until then, I’m just going to carry on as usual!” Sometimes just deferring when I think about my ‘real’ feelings eases the anxiety and gives me space to get back on track. And if the suicidal thoughts get serious, you can always text 741741 for help. Hang in there!

Yes, I have those fake feelings daily, and it really makes my OCD a bit worse. Something I do when I have fake feelings is just analyze the situation and once you decide if you feel happy or sad or whatever, that’s your true feeling and whenever you think you have another feeling just remind yourself that no, you feel this way. This sometimes helps for me, sorry if it doesn’t for you, but to hope you can figure out a solution for yourself if it doesn’t ! I believe in u!?

Read brain lock by Jeffery Schwartz he has a 4 step program to help you get over OCD for good. I have listened to the book on audible for 3 days and have already noticed huge improvements!!

Thanks that helps me what you said. I have had those false messages and thoughts. They are definitely False and have no reality. All coming from that monster O.C.D. THATS WHY ITS CALLED A DISORDER. It sends out False, illogical, senseless, stupid messages.

Thank you everyone for your replies I really appreciate it. I will try so hard to put it all into practice. Thank you! Much love x