- Username
- bulldog1
- Date posted
- 5y ago
So glad that we have this too. I am 33 and have dealt with ocd as long as I can remember. It was (and is) very difficult for me and for my family. We are so fortunate to live in a time where we can share things and connect with others that deal with similar issues. You young folks don’t know how much of a head start you have to bettering your mental health! I wish that I knew (and my parents knew) what this was when I was young. We didn’t have the information so readily available and people didn’t talk about it openly like they do now. Faith in God is a must for me too. Glad we all found each other!!!
So true. Faith in God is a must.
I am sure this is not on your scale but I experienced a very traumatic life event which has triggered my harm intrusive thoughts. OCD uses what you fear, what is way out of character. I have rarely shouted at anyone never mind physically attacked anyone or worse yet this is my fear. It's bonkers. If we lose the fear we can get things back in perspective. Thanks for your story I am in the UK and now have a fear of the police - have to laugh ?
Hey! Thanks for sharing your story. I’m almost 30 and wish something like this community had been around when I was younger and dealing with OCD. I’m just so glad it’s here now
Hi everyone. I’m new to this and I don’t know if this would be the right place to share this but my first encounter with OCD was when I had my first intrusive thought around the age of 12. The thought was “God is stupid” and I couldn’t stop crying that whole night. It was the craziest thing ever. How my mind went from normal to abnormal in just a flash was terrible yet fascinating. I’m a Christian and always wondered why God would let such a strong and intense disorder enter my mind. One of the most strengthening things that someone told me was that these thoughts were not “me”. As in, these thoughts are not my fault. I believed and ever since, I was slowly able to conquer such as crazy disorder. Other issues I had was my mom not understanding it. It feels even more rough that your parents don’t really know it because they don’t experience it. But I’m here to say that God has helped me gain control of my mind overtime and I believe he didn’t give me a disorder. He gave me a gift. I just needed to learn how to control it, that’s all. God Bless and Shalom❤️
So, this may not be everyone’s cup of tea. But eight years ago after getting out of the military. I was very ill, my walking around weight now is 219-225 I love food. At that time I was 159 I thought I had cancer I couldn’t keep food down. I spent more time going to that bathroom than living. The VA thought it would be good to put me on muscle relaxers, it did the opposite affect. It made me worse almost to the point where I almost lost control and took my own life. Fast forward eight years later and the fear of losing control is what is consistently on my mind. I do rituals to make sure the door is locked, I have to watch my groceries at all times because I feel like someone might poison me. I have to put my clothes on a certain way or else I feel like I might lose control. So, this is my life right now I had my first appointment today and I can feel some light at the end of the tunnel. I know erp therapy is going to be rough. But I just want my life back. To all suffering from this terrible thing called ocd keep fighting and turn to God, it really does help me when the anxiety kicks up. Love you all and remember the valley is only temporary and the sun shines brightest at the peak. Don’t give up.
Hey everyone! I’m new here and thought that it might help to get my OCD story off my chest. My intrusive thoughts are so bad that I never want to talk about them to anyone so maybe that’s why I’m here. When I was 13 my grandma was in the hospital. She was my best friend in the whole world. I imagined so much life with her. I remember pulling into the hospital one day with my Dad and immediately knocking on “wood” (the car door) to help put me at ease about my grandmas health before going in. I knocked on wood because everyone knows that’s what you do when you don’t want something to happen. I didn’t want anything bad to happen to her so bad that all I could think about in that moment was something bad happening. So I knocked on wood. It made me feel better so I kept doing it whenever I had bad thoughts. But then it going confusing. If this was helping ease these thoughts, why was I starting to have these thoughts more frequently? 13 year old me didn’t understand what I was doing or why these bad thoughts started. It had got so bad that I was knocking on wood every second of the day, every surface I came across that felt right, and if I didn’t I would force myself to turn around and touch that surface. I would have to knock on wood 8 times every single time but the 7 would have two knocks because the word 7 have two syllables. But then the 8 times wouldn’t be enough, I still wouldn’t feel satisfied so I would do it again and again and again until my entire day was overpowered by intrusive thoughts or knocking on wood. My family and friends started to notice, asking why I do it. I would always avoid the question or make a joke out of it because I couldn’t tell them these terrible thoughts I was having. I was so deeply afraid of something bad happening to the people I love the most or myself that it was debilitating. A couple years later I noticed how bad it had gotten and wanted a change. So I forced myself to stop knocking. I would tell myself angrily that nothing bad would happen if I don’t knock. It took me a lot of convincing and small steps to realize this, but it worked. I got better. I went to the doctors office at about 15 and told them everything. How I did this but how I solved this. They told me it takes great mental strength to be able to fight something in your brain like that. I have always been so mentally strong but hearing them say that made me feel so much better. And I was better. For years. Yea I went through times when it was bad again but it was so much better. The past couple years it has gotten worse again. I noticed that it gets worse when my anxiety about things is higher. New changes, new people, new things. Now, at 21 I won’t let myself get back to the point I was when I was 13, but recently I can’t seem to keep the intrusive thoughts out. I am so terrified of myself or someone else getting hurt of getting older that I put the whole toll on myself. I am so so so happy with my life right now that I don’t want anything to change. That is why it’s been so bad recently. Life is amazing which is why I only want it to get better and I’m so scared something might get in the way of that. I realized after talking to my friends that I never want to say my intrusive thoughts out-loud because I believe strongly in speaking things into existence so I only speak good things out loud. That’s how I’ve always been. But when I talked with my friend she said she’s the opposite, she says the bad things out loud because then you jinx them and they won’t happen. Her saying that gave me a little peace because it made me realize that it’s okay to get these things off my chest and that saying these things out loud isn’t so serious, it’s not life or death like I thought it was. Honestly, the weight of getting my story off my chest has already helped me feel a little lighter of a load on myself.
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