feels like i’m going crazy again. i thought i was doing really good managing my TOCD/gender identity OCD, but today i’m not so sure. today is the day of my first ever day of college orientation, and i’m already really nervous about that. i’ve been really nervous about it ever since the other day, and ALSO ever since the other day, my TOCD symptoms have been really bad and inescapable. there have been many days where i don’t even feel/see my symptoms at all because i had been recovering on my own pretty well but now i just feel so hopeless. i feel like i really am lying to myself and my worst symptom is feeling like i am nervous in my chest/breast area and it makes me feel like i don’t want to have breasts, even though i do (at least i think i do) :(