Guys I did a compulsion and stalked my boyfriends ex girlfriends Facebook page. And my anxiety got the better of me today .... and I’m heart broken cause they shared something special. I just wanted to say that... I just am in a low state right now.

Hey I don’t know y’alls pronouns but I am a cis-gendered male who now in a loving relationship with the woman I want to marry. But before her I was in a 3 year long emotionally abusive relationship that ended badly. I’ve noticed my partner having similar anxieties to yours and I wanted to share my thoughts about what I’m think when she feels the way you do. Honestly: I know that I am with my partner NOW because she is my best friend, partner, everything. Whether or not your relationships are at that level, the only way I compare my partner to my ex is in two ways. Just noticing similar traits in partners that I notice from time to time (i.e. for me it was having a sense of humor that is silly. They are silly in different ways but it’s that silliness that I know I needed In partner. The other way? I think about how much happier I am to be with my partner now. She is my WORLD. There is a reason I got myself out of the abusive relationship and now in a beautiful relationship with “M”. She is my other half. Now, idk if you’re at the level of engagement or anything, but as a guy, I never feel the need to compare because I only wanna be with my girlfriend. You know how you may have liked something like a “bad boy sketchy type” but later in life you’re like, WOW that’s not attractive (unless that’s you’re thing then peace, love happiness). By us choosing YOU we are growing and maturing further into our life and as we grow we learn to choose what would be the best partner for me in every way; mentally, lifestyle, interests, morals etc etc. Long story short, by us moving on from the past and choosing you to be our futures, it’s a choice that I know I don’t regret.

I know where you're coming from, I hit a low point where I checked my boyfriends ex girlfriend's page almost every day and compared my looks and posts they shared, thinking she was better and prettier and less problematic etc etc. It only got better when I talked to my boyfriend about it and he told me all about their relationship and how problematic it was and he told me how he thought I was better for him in every aspect, sometimes I still obsess about it but this heart to heart conversation really helped me, so maybe that could help you too!

Ugh I know how you feel.... I struggle with the other females, past or present, in my boyfriends life too.

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Honestly I have talked to him about it and his relationship with her was also problematic. But I still obsess even tho I know it was bad. Which is why I feel like I’m going nuts