i miss blasting music in my car and singing along to it. i miss being able to work. i miss getting excited about shopping/starbucks. i miss laughing. i miss smiling. i miss being able to feel normal around my family. i miss watching twitch streams/playing video games. i miss being able to watch tv and be on social media without getting triggered every 2 seconds. i miss being attracted to people and flirting w/o my brain twisting it into something it’s not. i miss my life. i want it back so bad. more than anything i want to feel whole again.