My OCD relapse has hit its worst point once again. I'm crying everyday, I'm struggling to function. I have obsessive dreams, I wake up in tears, with a dry mouth or straight up in a panic attack. Even though I'm doing ERP, I keep thinking my intrusive thoughts are right. My brain automatically ruminates and catastrophizes, sending me into instant distress whenever my intrusive thoughts happen. I feel so disgusted and I want to give up. I can't do this anymore.
Stay strong .. what helps me is praying and believing Jesus is in the erp telling me ok I’m with you I’ve heard your prayers but it’s time to agree with your thoughts and I imagine wanting to ruminate after it gets hard but Jesus in the background saying agree my son . It’s been helping me.