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Feeling very hopeless
I am generally optimistic about my OCD recovery but today I am feeling very hopeless. It feels like I may never recover from it and that it’s a life long punishment.
I am generally optimistic about my OCD recovery but today I am feeling very hopeless. It feels like I may never recover from it and that it’s a life long punishment.
I can relate to your thoughts of never recovering and life punishment. Sends me into depression and the why me mind set. I'm sorry I don't have any advice other than try to do the opposite of how your feeling. That's what was suggested to me last session. I struggle with my emotions. If you're feeling down look at things in a positive way. In your case try to find all the positives to look forward to. Easier said than done I know when you have negative feelings.
@proudmommy Thanks so much for your reply ❤️
@Youarenotyourthoughts You're welcome. I hope it gets easier for you ❤️
@proudmommy Thank you! I hope the same for you 🫶🏻
I think we all fall prey to the doom and exhaustion that ocd brings from time to time. It’s the nature of the beast and we are only human!! BIG HUGS AND LOVE TO ALL MY FELLOW OCDers out there!!!! We are blessed to have each other to lean on!! 🥳😍
I feel so awful and ungrateful. My partner and I are moving to a new place for which we worked very hard. There were lots of tears and sweat. Instead of being excited and grateful, here I am making it about my stupid thoughts. I guess the big move has triggered my anxiety. I don’t know what to do or how I deal with it.
I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
I know everything im dealing with is OCD. I have accepted that, but I just feel down. I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this. I just want to be free from this horrible illness. Any positive stories and recovery journeys will help. What did recovery look like for you? I used to be so happy, I miss it so much. This feels like it’s taken everything from me. How do you just live your life despite how you feel? Any hope will help!
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