yaya_zz
- Date posted
- 1y
Good morning !šāāļø
Does anyone else wake up with such a guilt feeling or like a very heavy heart from your sleep like tired of feeling or still having ugly thoughts in your mind?
StormyskiesStormyskies
- Date posted
- 1y
Yep. Every morning. Itās usually worse when I first wake up because Iām bombarded by guilt and intrusive thoughts. Gotta regulate.
KpikaKpika
- Date posted
- 1y
Yes every morning and night. Its a torture, how i wish i wake up energetic, hopeful and happy. Feels like a living hell everyday šŖ
yaya_zzyaya_zz
- Date posted
- 1y
@Kpika It feels like it took your life away I understand, I wake up everyday wishing to have my old life and how I would complain back then.
KpikaKpika
- Date posted
- 1y
@yaya_zz Me too, how i wish i can get back my normal life. Haiz, i hope it will someday. I wish you too. Just to let you know that i feel you, we can get through this, this shall pass, virtual hugs!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
yes. i had a really bad episode last night and i just woke up right now and the second i woke up i immediately started thinking about those thoughts again. itās tough, but weāll get through it.
ExpertParakeetExpertParakeet
- Date posted
- 1y
Omg yes. You are not alone. When I was in the pits of OCD hell, Iād wake up and my mind would immediately recall, my heart would race, and my stomach would drop. I donāt wish it on my worst enemy. My brain wouldnāt even give me 5 minutes to wake up in peace. I think what you are describing here is actually one of the worst things about having OCD.
Buttercupz Buttercupz
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Mornings and nights are worse for me. I cannot get more than 3 hrs of sleep. I wake up every hour feeling anxious and it takes me some time to calm down and try again.
Anonymous813Anonymous813
- Date posted
- 1y
Absolutely. Yup. I worry when I gotta sleep and then I also worry about how itāll be when Iāll wake up. Because these thoughts start before I even wake up.
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