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Exhausted
A bit hopeless. I feel like my efforts to overcome ocd are mostly in vain.
A bit hopeless. I feel like my efforts to overcome ocd are mostly in vain.
Some days are good days, some days are not. If you're feeling some pessimism, try to take the night to be kind to yourself. Do something you enjoy. Continue doing your best with your erp (don't stop trying because ocd is waiting to find an opening). Everything your doing is making a difference, even if you aren't sure. Its a journey that makes progress one day, one step, at a time. Have a good evening.
@Student of my mind Much needed words. I appreciate it. Thank you so much. In the midst of me feeling so hopeful this past weekend while practicing erp, i had some major setbacks.
@Bumblebee30 I just recently dealt with the same thing. Hopeful progress followed by frustrating back sliding. I'm now getting my footing back again and these words are what others told me on this message board, as well as what I'm seeing myself. You sound a little better. I'm glad we have this space to help each other. :)
@Student of my mind I feel less alone now, on one hand I’m glad to know there are others going through the same trials as me, on the other hand i wish you and so many others didn’t have to.
@Bumblebee30 I feel the same about you and everyone else too. The good news however, we've found our way to help, and we can support each other as we take back our lives. I think the worst part may be behind us, now that we're not dealing with this alone. :) I hope you have a good day today!
@Student of my mind Ah you’re quite right. First step in the right direction - knowing we are not alone (Oh and we are not crazy) because for a while i was considering it😏
@Bumblebee30 I can't imagine going through this even 50 years ago. How fortunate that there's a better understanding and resources nowadays.
@Student of my mind Oh absolutely. I see OCD in all it’s glory on my Dad’s side of the family but they don’t know. Back then, this wasn’t even a term they heard of, let alone understood.
@Bumblebee30 It happens. UPS and downs. Lean into your heart and true values
It's all so exhausting! Sometimes you just need to try and forget it all and get some sleep. I know easier said than done. I hope you can relax a bit a get a good night's sleep
Great advice. And making sure to eat properly is important too. My ocd gets worse if I'm hungry and/or tired.
@Speckles Exhausting truly is the right words. Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate it.
I know this feeling, but I promise it’s not in vain. Progress may not be linear, but every step you take is a step in the right direction! Bad days don’t mean you’re not moving forward. Take care of yourself and have faith that things will get easier with time :)
@Luckyfish Your kind words put a smile on my face. Thank you for that. Needed this reminder big time.
im sorry to hear that remember its never in vain you got this i hope you feel better soon
@thorpesarah563@gmail I appreciate this.
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
I don’t know if it’s worth it to keep going. I have so many diagnoses, so little support, and constant struggles with finding the right medication. My immune system is weak, I have multiple deficiencies, and I’m dealing with so many physical health problems on top of severe OCD. It’s just too much. On top of everything, my family treats me so not okay. Every single day is a fight just to keep going—to wake up, to eat, to take care of myself even a little. I’ve lost over ten pounds in the last two weeks from how depressed I’ve been. And instead of support, all I get is blame. My family constantly throws my struggles in my face, calling me selfish, as if I’m choosing this. I am trying so hard to push past all of this. But after five long months of severe OCD, anxiety, depression, panic disorder, and everything else making life unbearable, I am exhausted. And to be called lazy? Selfish? *Worthless*? How am I supposed to keep going when the people around me refuse to see how hard I’m trying? I don’t want this anymore. None of this suffering feels worth it. What am I fighting for just to be treated this way by my own family? To be yelled at for the look on my face, when my face reflects nothing but the stress, panic, and despair I’m drowning in? Am I still supposed to smile for them? This isn’t fair. No one should have to live like this. I don’t deserve to be treated this way, I’m really trying to keep going, but I just want everything to end.
I cannot help but feel exhausted as I go through life. It feels like I've lost the spark in me. And I'm pushing myself for no cause.
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