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Feeling hopeless
I feel like nothing is ever going to get better. I don't want to live anymore.
I feel like nothing is ever going to get better. I don't want to live anymore.
Don’t give up! Things WILL get better! You can’t see above the water now but you will and you will be so glad you made it out when you!
Hey things WILL get better. I have dealt with ocd for over 5 years now and let me tell you there were times where I couldn't do it anymore. But i got back up on my feet because you know who runs my life? ME. You know who's not going to put me down? my ocd. our ocd isn't us and I know it's REALLY hard to do but what i've done to get better is try to let the thoughts fly by. Embrace some uncertainty☀️
Things will get better! Please know you are worthy and a good person! Your OCD doesn’t define who you are!!!!
Please don’t give up! I had these same thoughts going through my head yesterday, but then I stepped back and realized that no one sees my OCD, but me. My nephew doesn’t know my struggle with POCD. He just sees me as a person he loves. My parents don’t see my harm OCD. They just see the daughter they love. We only see our OCD as ugly. We need to love that part of us, even though we hate it most days.
I’m feeling the same way and I just don’t know what to do anymore I feel so much guilt and shame tied to my POCD thoughts, sensations, urges like I honestly don’t feel like I deserve to live
I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I can’t do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and she’s right I can’t, she breaks down constantly because of me, I don’t know what to do, it’s been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I don’t want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I don’t think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. I’m not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I can’t work, I can’t go to school, I’m trying desperately to get therapy, I don’t know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and I’m killing her, I’m actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, it’s too much, I miss being a kid.
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