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I’m not even just sayin this but this is genuinely the most relatable and accurate thing to what I’ve been experiencing for a while now. I constantly get caught in constant thoughts about the universe and how everything works. And the hardest part is escaping the thought about everything. I’ll be sitting in class and get hit with it, I could be any where and get hit with these dreadful thoughts about life and the universe and how even though there’s some type of explanation for it I never feel satisfied with the theory’s. Just a constant back and forth about how all of this happened and how it’s unexplainable. I don’t think it really can ever be proven what really happened and if it did we simply couldn’t comprehend it. And what you said about feeling like an imposter is one of the hardest things about ocd. I constantly feel like my ocd is something that I made up and I’m invalidating everyone else who suffers with it. This post genuinely blew tf out of my brain. How real this shit is that your saying I’ve never felt so like understood, it’s like you just found out my biggest secrets and exposed them to myself if you know what I’m saying. I’m so down to keep taking about this if you are

I always love a good universe talk! You know in the spectrum of the universe we are small. However, now matter how small it is the details always matter. We are just a small detail in the universe. Thus making you matter. You suffering matters too a lot of us who understand the pain of OCD. I’m sorry to hear you experiencing a significant episode but seeing how you write and your passion behind wanting to feel better I believe you will over come it! I look at OCD thoughts and my thoughts as two completely different things. It takes time to notice the difference but there is one. Over time I notice that OCD thoughts are rooted in fear. It’s there to get a negative rise out of me. I learned that best way to handle it is to sit in that discomfort and accept uncertainty (I know it’s hard). Now my thoughts are thoughts I create they aren’t the random fear based signals that my brain sends me. They are rooted in more than just what i fear there is also hope, inspiration, happiness, sadness, anger etc. they are thoughts I resonate with because I created them. You are right that you aren’t control of all your thoughts - especially OCD thoughts. But you are in control to react or not react to it. You have a lot more power than you think! Positive affirmations are a great place to start. Just pick a good thing that happened today no matter how small it is, why? Because the details matter

I can fully relate to this. Back in July 2023 I started getting intrusive thoughts about the universe. Do you know what the trigger was? It was someone on Reddit saying Existential OCD was awful. I never heard of it until then. A little “Research” and a month later I was on medication for what was the worst and scariest time in my life. DPDR had set in and nothing felt real. The research and the theme kicking in was nearly instant. It was terrifying. I had to deal with all this, keep down a full time job, be a father and husband and support my wife as her gran was having end of life care. The medication dealt with the anxiety and the panic attacks and quietened down the noise from the thoughts. I did 12 weeks of group therapy which was really helpful. Fast forward to now - it’s Christmas so stresses have started again which has allowed an OCD flare up. I keep thinking back to how I was and it worries me that I will go through that again but I know I got through it and will again! My main themes have been centred around Harm and have usually come back around Christmas time which is why this flare up is no different. I found this app and a few select people on TikTok really helpful in knowing I’m not the only person going through this even if it does feel like it is sometimes. It will get easier and please post on the NOCD app. We are all here for the same reason and here to support each other. ❤️ (Sorry for waffling on a bit!)