Today was my youngest sibling’s birthday. It was nice. We were at my aunt’s pool and I got to hang out with my baby cousins. I saw my uncle’s girlfriend and her son. Hardly any intrusive thoughts lately and today was no different yet i still felt uneasy. Ignored the degrading thoughts as much as i could. Made happy memories with my youngest sibling and baby cousins. Gave my baby cousins piggyback rides in the pool. Watched the night sky with my youngest sibling. There was a huge thunder cloud and the lightning lit up the sky like fireworks. They told me information about clouds and stuff and I told them about space because I just love it so much. It was nice. I wish they were like this all the time and even though it hurts me, being mean is their love language I guess. Anyways, It was the best day I’ve had in a while. I’ll try to collect music into a playlist to show how I felt today. I really like music. Maybe I’ll share it when I’m done.