- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
hi! i don’t get anxiety anymore with my thoughts. it’s frustrating because with anxiety i say to myself “okay i know i have ocd that’s why i’m so worried” but now without the anxiety i always question well is it actually ocd?? but i just learned to sit with the uncertainty once you really learn how to do it the less and less you will care about whether the thoughts are real are not. ocd is so frustrating, you aren’t alone❤️❤️
Very nice it’s hard tho cause somtime I feel like this isn’t real if know what I mean
YEA I did the same thing and like ruminating has been harder to determine if I am or not because of the less anxiety.
love the encouragement here, too - and yes, this is called the backdoor spike. once you recover or start to recover from ocd, it's common and typical for you to have thoughts like "what does this mean about me now that i'm not worried as much? does this mean i don't care? does that mean i really am a bad person, and it was good to have those thoughts?" ocd is tricky but you're calling its tricks out before it has a chance to take hold. AWESOME!
@Gabe445 - OCD can make it hard to tell - very rarely do we know yep 100% this is OCD and i don't need to worry about it! Usually there is some creeping feeling that this feels like a true emergency. The recovery process comes when you can still take that leap of faith and commit yourself to the ERP/process.
@Anonymous - Rumination is tricky for a lot of people. You aren't alone. Keep on keepin on!
It is definitely weird to sit with uncertainty. Think of it like if you were working a new muscle for the first time - if you go to the gym and start lifting weights, it'll feel weird... your body will kind of be in shock for a few days. But when you start to make those muscles stronger and stronger, you'll get into a groove and it won't feel as strange. You're doing a great thing for your mental health and for your recovery by sitting with that uncertainty. Great work.
I feel I’ve been having no anxiety lately too and just being uncertain but it feels weird to be uncertain but I feel like where getting better slowly
Yea it feels like getting better slowly. I kinda have into ruminating a little but still not responding as much
Recovery can definitely feel weird for a lot of people. After all, your brain is no longer preoccupied with the things that it used to be preoccupied with - so it's kind of like .. okay, what do we do now!? I find it helpful to make sure that I'm really engaging in my values. Whether that's family, health, hobbies - engaging in my hobbies and making sure that I'm living a values driven life helps me keep the recovery process moving along.
@Anonymous - Way to go!
@NOCD Therapist - Jenna O. Thank you so much! Yes definitely my brain is trying to figure things out haha. That's really good advice thank you!
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Thank you so much
Loooove the encouragement here! <3
This has been my experience recently. I have also found my brain jumping to one theme when another isn’t bothering me as strongly. We got this!
This is a huge sign of improvement! Awesome! That sneaky bouncing from theme to theme can knock people off their feet potentially but you're right - you've got this
@NOCD Therapist - Jenna O. 🥺 you made my day. I start ERP tomorrow. Thank you!!
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
my therapist suggested that some of my less bad rocd intrusive thoughts are actually mine, and not intrusive. She ended up taking it back when she saw the alarm on my face and saw how panicked I got. I feel really freaking anxious. We were only talking about it because I mentioned a lot of doubt surrounding those less bad ones, but it only filled me with more doubt. I don’t want those thoughts to be mine. I really don’t. I feel scared and so discouraged after this session. I feel scared about the worst thoughts, what if those aren’t intrusive. I feel so much doubt.
Has anyone ever just felt weird? It’s hard to explain but I just feel weird lately. I usually suffer with harm OCD and I feel like lately I’m not reacting to things I normally would. There’s certain things that will trigger me a little but then other times (like over the last few days) it’s like I feel nothing. I’ll get thoughts and because I don’t feel the physical sensation in my chest or get very emotional like I normally would it’s weird to me. Does this mean I’m liking the thoughts now? Or like I’m comfortable with those actions happening? I’m so confused. Has anyone ever gone through this?
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