- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
having a bad flair up day
i just need words of encouragement. it’s been too much in my head today. i can’t ever be in the moment with family.
i just need words of encouragement. it’s been too much in my head today. i can’t ever be in the moment with family.
I actually left my parents house earlier than I wanted to today because my OCD was flaring up and I didn’t feel like I was enjoying my time w them and just wanted to be alone. You’re not alone in that
Don’t worry. Everyone is struggling their own battles. If you couldn’t enjoy time with your family today there will be many more days. It comes and goes for me as well. You got this!
i completely understand, i think the new year affects it a lot too honestly and im not sure why. it’s good to acknowledge that it is in your head- it’s just thoughts! you are not your thoughts! you’re just the observer of them. unfortunately we can’t and shouldn’t try to control these thoughts, but we can control how we react to them and how we allow them to make us feel. its not easy, but i’m proud of you!
I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
I got TMS almost a year ago and it helped so much. Now I am having one of the worst flare ups I have had in over a year. My themes keep changing, I am so exhausted. Its affecting my relationship because I am constantly on edge and my boyfriend is struggling to manage the whip lash. He thinks its his fault. I feel like I cannot trust my own thoughts but they feel so real, I am so lost. Has anyone had their OCD score drop and then rapidly peak? No one understands my heightened anxiety, and I’m just so tired 😔
I’m really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, it’s like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isn’t that great and everything is super tough for me. It’s like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now I’m really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me it’s decently strong so it’s hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. It’s an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that I’m getting better when in reality I’m in so much pain, it’s like I’m barely doing anything at all. Please, help, I’ve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though it’s extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I don’t want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? I’m in so much pain. I don’t know how to even deal with it. I’m so lost, I might lose it more, and I’m scared for myself. I feel like I don’t even deserve help. I’m so mentally unwell I can’t even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. I’m so numb to it all. I don’t feel anything anymore.
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