Ive had 3 good anxiety/OCD days in a row and now im really struggling. I am so tired of struggling and trying to battle my intrusive thoughts. I honestly just want to die. I feel like its easier than living with this. I remember my life before OCD. I remember being normal and i would give anything to be like that again, but i am so discouraged.

Username: hanniehannie

Date posted: 5y ago

Please don’t give into the OCD. You are so much more then meaningless thoughts. Everybody’s brains thinks thoughts. Thoughts that are even like people who struggle with OCD the only difference is we hold on to them. Please know that you are not Your OCD you just have it. Please know that everyone on this earths struggles with something. Everyone has good and bad days. You have to just take care of yourself extra on the bad days. You are so strong and deserve happiness. You will get through this. I know because I am in your same shoes. We will keep fighting!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 5y ago

I used to have harm thoughts as a teenager, but now they're mostly about religious things. There's been a couple of times that I've thought suicide was the easier option, but it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. So, please don't feel alone. As a person with scrupulous thoughts, I totally understand. I hope you start feeling better, friend. Stay strong. ❤

Username: hanniehannie

Date posted: 5y ago

My OCD started out with checking and then turned into harm and shortly after, religious OCD and then existential, And then finally schizophrenia OCD( I have had a lot of OCD themes lol) Sometimes I struggle with all at once and that’s so terrifying. I started noticing my senior year of high school (2015) but a part of me feels like I have always kind of struggled with it my entire childhood. I have had a lot of traumatic events happen and a part of me believes this is my coping mechanism. Harm OCD was one besides my religious and schizophrenia, that was the hardest to get over because it plays into all of them. I have a huge fear of losing my mind and hurting someone or hurting someone in general. I know what you have been though and I know how scary those intrusive thoughts are. Thinking of you. Thank you! Stay strong as well?

Username: tylatyla

Date posted: 5y ago

I am going through this right now, had a good few days and then randomly this feeling was like a brick sitting on my chest and I’m bad again. You’re not alone, I also have the fear of developing schizophrenia and developing delusions. My symptoms change on me all the time and makes it hard to ignore. They all feel real but just think how many good days you have and hold onto them tight. You’ll get through this x

Username: hanniehannie

Date posted: 5y ago

They feel very very real and it’s so scary. You’re OCD is so good at tricking. Even if we are 99% sure it’s not true there’s always that 1% that out ways the 99. My mind had me believing I was gonna go crazy. I have had fact like thoughts that I thought were delusions because they came in as any other thought I would have. They weren’t the normal what if’s so I panicked and thought I was delusional. It was scary, it was like I thought this was the finale few hours of my sanity and I was just gonna lose it. Like I have said before it’s so nice to know we aren’t alone. I know this is a pretty common theme. It’s one that hits me the hardest. Thinking of you and I know what you are going though. We will get through this together ?

Username: ihateocdsomuchihateocdsomuch

Date posted: 5y ago

What is all your ocds

Username: hanniehannie

Date posted: 5y ago

I struggle with the fear of developing schizophrenia and also harm and religious OCD. What about you, if you don’t mind me asking?

Username: ihateocdsomuchihateocdsomuch

Date posted: 5y ago

@hannie I have extreme contamination and hoarding somewhat but more the not being able to letgo aspect of haording

Username: markson

Date posted: 2y ago

Good days

I wish my good days would last more than days. I love when I can look at a thought and automatically realise that it’s ocd and brush it off. And when my friends ask me to go out and I can say yes without even second guessing. But when the good days are over, everything I ignored so easily comes crashing down and I’m back to square one ! So frustrating !

Username: berryblood

Date posted: 47w ago

rough ocd day

lately i’ve been having pretty bad ocd days but today was definitely one of my worst days. i just feel like such an awful person and the ocd is really eating at me. i try really hard, or i feel like i do sometimes. i try to talk to my mom and she says she understands but she doesn’t- and i hate it. i can’t even get dressed in certain clothing or watch a show i like anymore without ocd interfering. my mind is all over the place and i feel so helpless. i just wish it’d stop.

Username: Anonymous243

Date posted: 38w ago

Getting worried

These past couple days, Ive had 2 huge panic attacks in a row. I’m getting worried because they were kind of the worst theyve ever been. I couldn’t function at all and if my partner weren’t with me, I’m afraid I wouldnt have been able to move or get up. I was convulsing and couldnt stop having the worst intrusive thoughts. I was so disappointed in myself that I started having super intense suicidal thoughts and couldn’t speak. I really hate ocd. I ruined some of the most fun days that were planned out in a trip too. Idk what to do anymore

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