How many of you have 'confessing' as a compulsion? I do, and ever since I realized I could have OCD, a lot of my past guilt confessions (thought to be just a quirk of mine) started making more sense. It feels like I'm physically going to explode unless I 'confess'. And in the end the person I confess to (mostly my girlfriend) is like was that it? Wondering why I was acting like I had murdered somebody. It's weird.
Ive had that experience from time to time, but what I’m mostly triggered is that I’d have thoughts saying that I’m finally ready to “accept” to be the sexuality I don’t identify myself with and it feels so real and convincing at times
@Acrasia Oh I definitely experience that too. I hate it so much. I'm sorry you also experience that 😭
@12354462 at least I can relate to someone, but somehow this makes me feel like I’m pretending to
@Acrasia (Same here, the more I read others that relate, I feel like I'm a faker. So I think it's a part of the experience)
@12354462 yes thank you for this 😩 I hate this kind of feeling
@Acrasia Same here. I wish you the best 🩷
Same here. That was the first thought I’d ever had as a kid, the thought of “omg I’m gay or the need to accept/say it” but wasn’t accompanied by attraction or fantasizing of same sex so was so confused.
Confession was one of my earliest compulsions in childhood. I didn’t realise then. But the events leading to the confession seem so real that I can’t help but congress/ apologise and so on and the associated guilt just makes me feel worthless. Sometimes it’s too difficult to resist
I do this , I call it “ confessing my sins “
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
I don’t know how to stop confessing. It’s driving me insane. I confess every little thing to my boyfriend. I confessed that I liked attention (this is so obviously human), that I liked it when people found me pretty (also very human??) I confessed about a million other things and I feel out of control. I felt so safe with him last night that it just started pouring out of me. I felt guilty and awful and I just needed release, I couldn’t breathe I felt like I was dying. I’m stuck in a confessing loop and I know I’m only making things worse. Has anyone experienced this and been able to overcome it? It feels absolutely horrible and impossible. I tried to ERP this and I genuinely feel like I am suffocating if I hold off. I feel so disappointed in myself, but I can’t seem to stop. I even had a dream where I confessed to him and woke up needed to confess that. I’m scared I’ll start sharing my worst intrusive thoughts I’ve had if I feel too safe around my bf. Help please :(
I’m having the need to confess that I was unfaithful to my girlfriend (even though I was not) because I drank too much Saturday night and don’t remember every single second from my evening. My OCD immediately goes to that I cheated on my girlfriend and I need to confess my sins. I know it’s only OCD, but the thoughts are extremely strong. Any suggestions? Thank you, community.
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