Something popped up on my feed that was triggering. Usually I scroll past but I watched it. I feel sick. I cried a bit. Why the hell did I do that. I know ill be ruminating about it now. I have guilt for watching it even. What do I do now
Accept and move on! Honor yourself
Hey, it seems like what ever you’ve seen, your OCD has really latched on to. ERP has taught me to accept the uncertainty and them thoughts of “what if”. It seems like you’ve also done some exposure by not just scrolling past (not giving in to your OCD) and by watching something it has really challenged your OCD which it won’t like. WELL DONE YOU !!!! The more you do this the less anxiety it will create. Sounds odd right ? Your brain will be thinking it should be the opposite way around but that’s not true. The more you expose yourself to the triggers the less you become triggered. You’ve got this, ruminating only supports the OCD cycle. Remember “there’s nothing here for you to figure out”. There’s light at the end of the tunnel my friend !
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
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