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cause immense guilt when receiving gifts? Or when someone is nice to you, the guilt just floods every vein of your existence. I feel so awful :( awful about my compulsions, about some of my thoughts, about who OCD has made me. My boyfriend just gifted me something, and I have such a heavy feeling in my chest. Worst part is: when I’m not feeling guilty I’m spiraling over that gift was enough, if it could’ve been “better.” I feel like an idiot. I don’t understand why I’m like this

So my doctor is starting me on 25 mg of Zoloft soon and I'm actually really exicted. I'm finally ready for this to be manageable. I know it's not a cure but I am told that zoloft is primarily recommended for specifically ocd. I'm not sure if I'm ready to start it tonight but yeah. Please do not tell me any negative side effects or anything related to nausea since I'm taking it for emetophobic contamination ocd and I don't need any opinions to make me biased but if any of yoy had SUCCESSFUL zoloft stories please comment!!

Hello! I just needed some words of encouragement. I have a trip in a few weeks to Florida. I have severe airplane anxiety. I get unwanted thoughts and urges. I know I’ll never harm anyone but I always think “what if” I do. What if I get the urge to open an emergency exit, or I get the urge to say “bomb” out loud. I would never want to hurt anyone. I’m in serious distress and I’m thinking of cancelling my trip.

I’m a Christian and I’m in my first relationship, often feeling guilty/uncomfortable with various things in relation to sexual purity. I’m struggling to know when things are OCD or genuine conviction. Any advice on how to know?

(Trigger warning) So recently I’ve caught myself being more content with these thoughts…and due to the fact of me not freaking out is making me freak out because I also have this weird little birdy in my thoughts that just say “do it” I’m not sure if I’m the only one and I’m ofc scared of that but please tell me this is normal…I can’t even cuddle my boyfriend or anything right now.

I have listen somewhere that a person will die after 3 days if he or she will take false swear oath of a particular place I have religious and blasphemous thought ocd and my mind manipulate me to take oath he fears me my mind manipulate me 24 by 7 to take the oath I resist it now my mind has develop strange thing I have death fear also whenever thought come I am going to die blasphemous thoughts comes and abusive thoughts comes againts God and holy spirits and a voice Lound in my mind to take oath of abusive words against them death fear mix with anger that they are not giving me life and all such things occurred I know it's not good but that time I cannot control on myself now after that my fear of die after 3 days develop my mind says to me you have take a false oath now I am weeping and shivering I have taken wrong oath i will die but I cannot control myself that time now I am unable to understand what is this. My brain force me to take oath with mix of anger hate against them I think I don't love them. It's so painful

sometimes my brain is thinking of every thought you could have all at once and it makes me insane and i keep telling myself in my head to shut up and i try to stop thinking but it doesn’t stop

I feel so hopeless right now. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so tired of living with this constant fear and guilt. I keep thinking that God is angry with me and that I’m being punished. I’m terrified that I’ve committed blasphemy—especially against the Holy Spirit—and that I’m going to hell. Yesterday, because of my OCD-driven curiosity, learning more about my faith—especially about the Trinity—has left me mentally exhausted and deeply confused, like I’m losing my grip on reality. The thought that God might already be punishing me only makes everything feel heavier. I’ve been breaking down since yesterday and struggling with intense anxiety. Even trying to pray scares me, because I feel like God is so mad at me. Deep down, I’m afraid I might be beyond forgiveness. I feel completely lost and terrified.

Anyone know any ERP techniques or specific exposures that help with health anxiety OCD? I’ve heard such great things about ERP for other subtypes but I can’t think of any for health related OCD. I’d appreciate any advice!

I’m a few days in on starting 10 mg of Prozac, my anxiety has definitely been heightened and it’s making it really hard for me to eat :( also sleep has been very hard when the intrusive thoughts fill my head. I want to stick with the medication and give it a good shot as I know it could really help me. Any suggestions or some encouragement to help me get through this time

I know the solution is to always say “yeah that could be true, but I am choosing to live my life anyway.” However, I feel like my biggest issue is my brain always assuming that it is immediately true when I do that. Like if I say “maybe I’m attracted to teenagers, it’s possible,” then my brain INSTANTLY starts rationalizing that thought and defending it and being like “oh okay so you think this now and it makes sense because xyz, and now that’s who you are and your real desire is now and always will be teenagers.” I feel really alone in this area of feeling like my brain “accepting the thoughts” means my brain immediately accepts them as true. I obviously don’t want to think they’re true but I feel so stuck now.

I'll start by saying, I have not been clinically diagnosed, as I do not have the funds to see therapists or psychiatrists in my current situation. Once I'm in a better spot, I very much intend to. That to say; after months and months of having issues with anxiety, specifically health related, my partner was the one that mentioned OCD. I did have some somewhat OCD related behaviors in my youth, though those likely could be explained by potentially undiagnosed ASD (as my mother is on the spectrum as well as a sibling, both diagnosed.) But I never considered OCD taking form in a health sense. I posted earlier about how I've had 4 days of pretty minimal anxiety and intrusive thoughts, and it has led me to doubt the OCD label I've been working at treating? I don't want to be the person that identifies themselves with a disorder they don't have, which is why I hesitate to self diagnose with OCD or ASD or anything else. At the same time, I've read that a lot of even clinically diagnosed people with OCD doubt their diagnosis. It makes me wonder if I will always have this doubt, and if that means it is worth it or not to get tested? I know that if I do, they can actually do ERP (whereas I've been self taught and self guided so far) so that would be worth it...

Does anyone else’s OCD convince them that bad thoughts are not actually that bad…. Like I know they are so why do I feel like they arent😭😭

Please don't judge me or think badly of me. Earlier, my OCD started obsessing over the question of who God really is — Jesus, the Father, and the Holy Spirit. I got curious and started searching online, and I came across the teaching about the Trinity. I learned that Christians believe in one God, but He exists in three Persons: the Father, the Son (Jesus), and the Holy Spirit. I grew up mostly only thinking of Jesus when I prayed, because I would always see His image in churches, on TV, and in pictures. So, when I prayed, He was the one who came to mind. As I got older, I started learning more — like how Jesus has a Father, and that there's also the Holy Spirit. That’s when my OCD started to obsess and worry. It told me that I’ve been “wrong” in my prayers because I only focused on Jesus. It kept pressuring me, saying I should now imagine and pray to all three — the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit — equally, or else I’m doing it wrong. But I don't even know what the Father or the Holy Spirit "look like," and I don’t want to offend them. I truly respect and believe in all of them, but it’s overwhelming. My OCD keeps telling me I’ve already committed an unforgivable sin just for not knowing these things before. It says I’m not praying right. It keeps bringing up the fear of blasphemy, especially about the Holy Spirit. It’s so scary. I tried to calm myself down by reminding myself that when I pray to Jesus, I believe the Father and the Holy Spirit are included too, even if I don’t fully understand how the Trinity works. I still feel confused, but I try to believe in the Trinity because I’ve noticed that whenever I pray, I naturally say, “In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.” Even though it still feels new and hard to understand, I’m doing my best to trust in it. Growing up, my family wasn’t very religious, so I never deeply understood these things. I used to think Jesus *was* the Father, and that He was simply God. So learning about the Trinity at 17 feels like something I should’ve known sooner. That makes me feel guilty and unforgivable — like I’ve failed as a Catholic. My OCD keeps pushing me to get a “perfect answer” or else I feel like I’ll go crazy. It’s causing me so much anxiety. Now that I know about the Trinity, even praying feels confusing. Before, I would simply pray and feel connected to Jesus, but now my OCD is telling me I’m “leaving out” the Father and the Holy Spirit. I don't know who to pray because my OCD keeps on saying there are 3 Gods. I’m scared that God will punish me for not knowing everything earlier, for being confused about trinity — and for not praying the “right” way. I didn’t know the Holy Spirit is also fully God. I never meant to disrespect or forget anyone in the Trinity. I just didn’t understand before. Please help me. I feel overwhelmed, scared, and confused. I don’t want to offend God. I just want to love Him and feel close to Him again, like before. But now my mind is full of fear and anxiety instead of peace. I feel like I’m falling apart inside. Can anyone give me advice? Religious OCD is ruining me. Please help.

Whenever someone say no to me and work go beyond my wills intrusive thoughts bad words comes in my mind regarding God and spiritual figures I don't want to do it but it happens that time I always say no resist to my mind that this is not because of them it is something else but all logics become failed and bad words comes now I am in severe pain why this is happening it is ocd or not I think I am doing it by myself how it can be ocd. It's seems to be real.

Does anyone have any tips on how to sleep with harm ocd, I’m always so tired but I can’t fall asleep until it gets to the point my eyes won’t stay open, I’m scared that I’m gonna do something in my sleep or my thoughts just eont shut up and it causes issues with sleeping, advice needed please

Last two sessions have been rough. Not gonna lie. I feel like we’re back at square one. It’s no fault of my therapist really. I feel like we finally conquered my balance/symmetry themes only to have a new health anxiety theme pop up. And this one is tough to tackle. That’s how insidious OCD is. I hate you OCD.

It could be possible to treat a severe scrupulosity OCD without taking medication and asking guidance from the psychiatrist? I can't afford for professional consultation 🥹. Can anybody give me some advices on how to deal with these intrusive thoughts? 🙏

So me and my boyfriend of 5 months broke up and I'm very sad about it, but I'm trying to move on. But it seems like nobody wants me. They either ghost me or we hangout once THAN ghost me. I need someone to date.

Is anyone here actually gay and has/had sexuality or religious ocd? I don't have it at all haha I'm a lesbian myself without socd or religious ocd but I'm just curious: what's it like and how did you deal with the whole "biggest fear coming true" thing?