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Does anyone else have skin-picking disorder? I heard that it was sometimes common with people with OCD and I’ve had this issue from childhood so I just wanted to know how common this was

How do people continue to have intimacy and pleasure with Pure O (with themes that centre around sexual intrusive thoughts)? I haven’t had sex in a very long time but I obviously want to.... I’m struggling to figure out how to approach intimacy again. I can’t even pleasure myself without my OCD acting up. Please share some tips and stories!

These are the tasks on one of my exposure hierarchies that I created on the NOCD app. If you need help thinking of tasks for a hierarchy, this is the place to brainstorm. Let us know a fear of yours, and as a community we will work together to thi k of some options for you. We may be stuck at home, but we can still make today productive

Saw an nhs therapist yesterday she told me she doesn’t think I have ocd but not disputing I might have thoughts and feelings related to it’s themes she thinks I have GAD I’m now struggling even more

Ocd makes me worry that the guys I’m attracted to are too feminine and I’m trying to ignore it but it isn’t working.

Does anyone have cheating ocd? Strategies to cope?

How does ERP work for someone who has Pure O?

Hi guys. My state is pretty much locked down due to the corona virus stuff. My daughter’s school is canceled and it’s just the two of us stuck at home. But I’m worried. I’m so worried that we could have it already and not know it. I’m trying so hard not to be freaked out but I am.

POETRY SLAM!!! Blue rain posted a pretty raw poem about his experience of depression and frustration, and it literally inspired me to write one about my OCD. It actually felt very cathartic to do and I feel like it captures a lot of what it's like for me, so I think I'm going to bring it to my therapist so she can understand me better, maybe even some friends, and maybe it also can be relatable to others and help them to feel a bit less like they're going through it alone. I'd love it if anyone else wants to contribute a poem or even a quick few lines, creative expression is pretty good for mental health and I know your poems could be very comforting for other people here, especially ones about specific themes or struggles that might feel quite isolating. Here's mine! As I want you to know Why I've said what I said, You can come on a journey inside of my head. A tyrannical place Where my thoughts try to smother, If one fear is gone then I'm getting another. I smiled at this girl, So I have to be gay- And that isn't quite right but I don't get a say. Are they gonna get sick? Is that unrealistic? The funeral thoughts just won't go, it's sadistic. I can't keep them safe So I'm counting my steps And it's spiraling down into terrible depths. Did I say something wrong? Did I cause some offense? I want to solve it but it doesn't make sense. When I've made a mistake It seems larger than life, My compassionless memory twists in the knife. Have I hurt someone badly, Was that my intent? Was I trying to harm them or misrepresent? I avoid vulnerability, Being seen hurts And I'll never feel safe while expecting the worst. Yet to get some control When my confidence falters, I panic and lay self esteem on the altar. The guilt of it says I'm corrupt to the core. Could it be that I am?- I don't know any more. Am I going to snap, Or become what I fear? Being judged might be better than suffering here. But the way to break free, Or so I've been taught, Is resisting the urge to keep fighting the thoughts And accepting the maybe That all of it's true, That I'm evil and everyone's doomed- even you. So I'll stay on the wagon, I'll put myself first. I could try to believe I can cope with the worst. And I sometimes succeed, Pain can feel like a dream. But my peace only lasts up until the next theme.

I live in the UK and there are a lot of people who have Coronavirus now. Every hospital has an ill person in. My boyfriends mum is a high band nurse in a hospital and she said it will get worse and apparently 80% of the population will catch it. I have asthma. I am wondering if I am likely to die from it if I have asthma? I don’t want to die, I’m only 21. Apparently people with asthma are at higher risk, does that mean I’m more likely to die?

Feelings check in: tell us how you're feeling using a song lyric Mine right now is "I wish you could see me now, I wish I could show you how, I'm not who I was" from a Brandon Heath song. It's a mix of pride in myself for growing, but regret that someone I care about isn't here to see it

Being stuck at home due to coronavirus has made my ruminating and intrusive thoughts significantly worse. Anyone else dealing with this and have tips? It’s also hard that I don’t have therapy to look forward to for help. I struggle with relationship OCD and it’s so hard especially since my partner is stuck at home in a different state and I have a lot of time at home to just think:(

CHRISTIAN PEOPLE/RELIGIOUS AND CONTAMINATION OCD HELP ME!!!!! I think I am losing my mind right now. I was not caring about coronavirus until today, now on Brazil things are gettings crazy as well and I dont know how to cope now. My mother as well started to talk its sign of the end of days and coming of Jesus. Thing is I am obsessing with this, I want to be saved, I want to go to heaven, I believe in Jesus as my own savior, but I am losing my mind. I am also doubting my salvation. Please someone tell me what I need to do to be saved, Ive regreted and repented for my sins, I want to feel happy again. I also super worried about this damm virus and about my family, I really dont know what to do ????

Just put my clothes in the dryer and my mind said "You need to put extra cups of laundry detergent in the dryer because it'd make you uncomfortable. Do it as an exposure." I tried to tell myself that I didn't need to do that, that I'm allowed to wash my clothes normally, but now I can't stop thinking about what if I followed through with my initial, intrusive thought. This is awful. What would ERP say to do?

This is probably going to send me to Hell, but is anyone else anxious when ever they hear other Christens talking about how the rapture has begun amongst all this corona virus stuff?

Hi, my name is Rebecca. I dowloaded this app a while ago but this is my first time on here. I've had OCD since I was 8 but didn't know it was OCD until I was 22. I have pure OCD so no compulsions, but I've had just about every thought type you could imagine. They tend to trade out in terms of subject matter. I dont really know what I'm looking for exactly, I just think it would be nice to hear from some other people with pure OCD, and not feel so isolated.

Struggling. Several months ago I told my gf about some nasty habits I had and something I had done that I felt great shame about and it hurt her deeply. Over time certain details would pop up in my head and I would again admit more things that hurt her further. But I felt I needed to come clean. Some of those things I’m not even sure REALLY happened. (That’s where the ocd starts) Now I will think of things I’ve done in my past and during our relationship that may hurt her more and often times things I’m not sure I actually did at all. But it’s possible. I feel deep shame and the only thing that makes me feel better is confessing to her, even if I’m not so sure that these things happened. I beat myself up about this ALOT. And on certain days I need reassurance that I don’t need to tell her more details or any things that I’m unsure about. She has basically requested to not hear additional details because she knows what I did and it’s just hurtful to keep talking about. as we have done an amazing job moving past things as a couple and I’m on a WHOLE other level on my journey into masculinity. I can just live as a better man every day and I should be so grateful for that opportunity but I can’t seem to let it go with these “what if I did this” thoughts..

Hey everybody, I’m really scared to share my story because I’m terrified of judgment, and I’m scared that my ocd makes me a horrible and weak person and I’m just really scared because I feel like I’m the only one and I feel so alone. But I can’t stop crying and I’m in a place Rn where I can’t even get out of my bed, and I should just write out my feelings maybe it’ll be helpful so here goes nothing. Last night and the night before, I’ve felt kinda unlucky and I’ve gotten myself into really traumatic situations, I won’t go too deep into it, but basically, a lot of the times when bad things happen to me, My ocd gets triggered times 100, and I start obsessing over anything that has ever been an ocd problem for me in the past. I don’t know if it’s to numb the pain and bring my mind to more pain, or what it is, but it just happens. I’ve been ruminating a lot about one of them which I’ll explain. Not trying to ask for reassurance or anything, i think that this app just encourages empowerment and improvement and so that’s what id like to exercise. I am head over heels in love with my boyfriend who I’ve known since I was 8 years old, and we started dating nine months ago. We want to be together forever and we’ve like each other for so long. For some reason I keep having ocd thoughts about his ex girlfriend who went to my high school. They never dated seriously or anything, it was super short term and they never were in love or anything. I never was friends with her, never hung out with her, we were just friendly acquaintances. And me and my boyfriend started dating years after they had broken up. Even though I was never friends with this girl, for some reason I am convinced that I did something wrong and horrible by dating my boyfriend, because I was acquainted with this girl and I have intrusive ocd thoughts saying what if I hurt her feelings, I know it sounds ridiculous. I think I even tried to be friends at one point and she was just with the popular group and sorta ignored me. Once we did start dating tho, she was in a new relationship and she messaged me asking and told me that she was super happy for the both of us and that she thought we are absolutely adorable together. And I asked her and she said she had absolutely no problem with it because if I’m happy she’s happy, and that he’s an amazing guy and that her and him were nothing serious and that it was years ago, and that she shipped us together and loved our relationship. I know that it really can’t get more resolved than that, and I am super happy in my relationship and I couldnt ask for anything better and more amazing, it’s just my ocd drives me insane sometimes. My ocd tends to always follow this exact same pattern where I am constantly afraid that I did something wrong or hurt someone’s feelings, and I am blessed that my man is so loving and supportive through everything. If you made it this far thank you so much for listening, i think that this platform is absolutely amazing so we can empower each other ❤️much love?

Can somebody please explain to me why POCD takes away my attractions to adults my age? I wasn’t feeling this way a couple weeks ago. I have always been attracted to adults but here I am questioning if I’ve been a pedo this whole time and not realized it and it’s this feeling of no more attraction that makes me even more afraid that I’m a pedo. It’s such bullshit and it’s pissing me off!!!

So some of you on here might be familiar with my struggles with my first therapist. I quit seeing her and started seeing a new therapist over an hour away from me and I am so happy I did! I was skeptical because the building is old and smelt like spaghetti and I actually had to walk down a hall with no lights (I almost turned around and left because I thought I was going to be trapped or something) But I gave it a chance because I need someone to understand me. Well, after one session only, I can say that I am so happy I went to her. It was as though she could almost read my mind. I’m so excited to begin getting good help with her!