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My treatments have failed erp and acceptance therapy have both failed in their own ways erp at first And then acceptance therapy next

I feel like my OCD triggers have been kind of random or weird lately. It happens when I’m doing something that makes me feel calm or that is keeping me preoccupied. It’s like lately my OCD hates it when I feel some type of peaceful or calm. I’ll be chilling playing video games while calling with my boyfriend and then suddenly my OCD jumps in and I get super on edge and distracted. I get thoughts like “how can you relax when you are uncertain about _____?” or “what if you told [boyfriend] about the intrusive thoughts you have? would he break up with you?” and then I get shaky and panicky. It’s like I can barely slip into a moment of peace without my OCD making me worried because I’m *not* worried. Does this make sense? It also happens when I’m relaxed in bed and falling asleep. I’ll just be holding a stuffed animal my boyfriend got me and dozing off and then suddenly I’m hit with “you don’t deserve [boyfriend]” “you’re a terrible person” “what if you hurt him? you need to make sure you didn’t”. Then suddenly I’m wide awake even though physically I’ll just feel so exhausted. ALSO, when I’m making food/about to eat, my OCD tells me I don’t deserve to eat, or starts acting up making me feel nauseous to the point where I can’t eat. I think I’m doing okay right now, I just think it helps a bit to talk about this and maybe see if anyone else relates.

Me and my girlfriend had a conversation last night about how bad my OCD has got and how I'm over analysing her texts/movements etc for signs of the relationship going south. I plucked up the courage to talk to her about trauma and other stresses in my life which has triggered my OCD to spiral. We have agreed to keep all OCD talk out of the relationship and if I feel like analysing or asking for reassurance to get a notebook and write it down instead. I am now thinking constantly about how she asked me to talk but has kind of left me on my own and it doesn't make me want to talk to her about stuff now in the future. I get it's hard, but has my OCD taken a hold of this or is it valid to feel this way?

what are some things that help when you have unwanted thoughts and urges? For me i notice whenever I am upset I have a strong urge to want to hurt myself. I have too much anger built up inside of me and I need help. The gym helps calm me a little bit and i used to crotchet but i have been busy lately. Please any advice. I don't want to sit with these feelings or thoughts because i am scared of what will happen if I let go and hurt myself. I am scared of myself because i know i can be very violent because of all of my traumas.

I know what you resist persists, but something I've struggled with for years now is infatuation and falling in "love" with people. I fear my own feelings when I'm with women. I'm afraid of falling really hard for every second person but also avoiding is making it worse. I might get strong feelings towards them but avoid them because I know it's just infatuation, I fear falling for someone without knowing them then hurting myself and them along the way. Im also worried of falling really hard for someone and then getting rejected. My mind throws many arguments to mind about this such as : I'm not ready yet, it's a bad fit, someone else is better, you will destroy her life, I will get rejected, she's too good for me. Any advice. I was reading through the book Relationship OCD and it says infatuation isn't a good thing to base a relationship off and this actually triggered me more. Any ideas of how to allow this OCD pattern?

OCD definitely makes me feel like my future is nothing but bad. A bunch of what ifs and it feels super anxiety inducing. I remind myself that no matter how bad my life gets, I never want to harm myself or end my life. I want to get through each struggle in a healthy manner. I just have a fear of bad things happening in my life and Im scared how I would react to it. My OCD is definitely super anxiety inducing and I would love for anyone to share their thoughts.

My placement is started I have many fears related to ocd, patients, me and Nursing. Example contamination then reassurance that I will not get infected. Then health related ocd. Other thing is which is not ocd is I hate getting up early in cold weather and go for job. Maybe I have trauma to start a day and managing time for patients which now creep me out that how will i manage just a placement and how will I do job. Also always thinking in advance how will I enter in hospital, whom I will ask where I'm working, am I in right hospital because it's first day if not iam already late. Any suggestions to motivate myself for doing placement I actually kind of gave up and it's the last placement of nursing

My bf and I are gonna have to be long distance for 2 months and tonights the first night. I’m so anxious and I’m scared he’s going to leave me or cheat on me. What if he realizes he could be happier without me? What if he realizes there’s really nothing special about me? What if I don’t bring value to his life? What if somebody at his new job starts being sexual towards him? I cant do anything from 4 hours away I have no control and no certainty

Is it possible for your ancestors to curse you??? I keep getting intrusive thoughts about my relative that passed away and my thoughts are saying that they’re gonna curse me with one of my biggest fears. I’m so terrified right now. What if these thoughts were to actually come true..??!!!

Often, I think that having violent intrusive thoughts is so much better than when they’re sexual. I mean, it’s exhausting— even the simplest actions can set them off. And it’s not that I only have these thoughts, I do have violent intrusive thoughts as well, but I believe that being physically violent with someone is, in a way, better than forcing yourself upon someone. For so long, I’ve thought myself disgusting and gross and repulsive and I’ve found myself sobbing over it in the past because I do dearly yearn to be normal. To not have these thoughts because by god, they are awful. I feel guilt looking into their eyes. I feel shame when I see statues of them playing. I can’t even call them what they are, can’t even type it. It’s awful and I’ve come to understand that these thoughts are rooted in my fear of it, in my strong sense of morality and what is and isn’t wrong. This, too, shall pass. I swear it.

I’m starting my first year at college after this gap year I used to improve my mental health aka ocd, and I’m not super sure how this will go. I’m living on campus, and I’m super excited to start classes and move in, meet new people. I just know it will be overwhelming, and if anyone has tips on coping with that, so my ocd doesn’t go absolutely wild, it’d be greatly appreciated

Does anyone else get this sinking feeling in their gut, like something terrible is about to happen? I use to panic over it but now I know it’s my OCD, it’s just so random, like all the sudden my brain is like SOMETHINGS WRONG OMG OMG DONT BE ALONE DONT LEAVE OTHERS ALONE 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

Hi there I suffered with health ocd and am currently getting over being sick and being on antibiotics. I feel that my ocd symptoms have gotten much worse the week I’ve been on the medicine helping me get better. Has anyone else had a similar experience or just me? Also any help with health anxiety intrusive thoughts would be greatly appreciated. Thanks

I have pocd and i’ve started feeling better about the whole thing but I can never fully get over it. I don’t have panic attacks over the intrusive thoughts anymore, but I can’t help but feel so grossed out and whisper “ugh i hate myself, i wanna kms” to myself. It’s like every time i start feeling happy about anything, I get reminded of the fact that I have disgusting thoughts that I shouldn’t and I can stop thinking about how it’ll affect my future. What if it gets worse. What if I get in a relationship and he wants kids. I don’t ever want to have kids and I don’t ever want to explain to my s/o what i’m going through. What if my ocd gets really serious like it was last year but I won’t be able to get help because I can’t tell anyone. Ik others without ocd will never understand. Sometimes I really wish that I die so that I don’t have to deal with that. But I want to live and enjoy life. I want to travel and fall in love and have a family, but Ik my ocd will never let me be happy.

I was just petting my dog and I had an almost vision of jamming my thumbs into his eyes and I literally can't look at him right now I'm so scared because he's so much smaller than me and weaker than me and I don't want to hurt him at all and I'm still so new to this world of ocd and I've never had this type of intrusive through before

someone said something WORD FOR WORD what i am going through. i want to post it to see if you guys have any advice. to me, it’s the fear that my values or morals have changed forever. i don’t want them to change tho, i have no idea what to do

I feel like my intrusive thoughts are becoming worse lately as I just started birth control almost a month ago. I’m questioning things that i have never crossed my mind but now my mind is saying i have done these things and that I am a bad person. even though I know I never done anything wrong I feel guilty for just thinking of these thoughts. It’s messing me up so bad where I feel like i can’t do anything without these intrusive thoughts screaming at me. I feel like I’m not worthy of good things. I am so scared of losing the love of my life because of these storms in my head.

I am so disgusted by mind. I genuinely want to vomit and i have the biggest pit in my stomach. Why are thoughts so vivid???They feel so real its scary. I understand the thought exists and thats all that it is a thought but god it is disgusting. It hurts my soul. My mind then pulls the "what if you secretly like these thoughts??" and it hurts me because then i have to prove that i dont like them. Im truly exhausted but im trying my best i really am :/

Sooo.. for 7 years i havent worried about demons magic and other evil things.. because i prayed, and told my self. God is protecting me because og my prayers. And that worked very good. But my ocd just jumped to everything else in the religion like ocd do. 7 years of hell. Off all the things that ocd attacked in my religion from everything about sinning to perfect in prayer etc. I Got sick off all the stress. I then learned that prayer is a compulsion and that i have to face my darkest fear. Which is not to pray and face the possibility to get possed and attacked by evil. I Got the balls to do it. And i still beleive god Will protect me even if i dont pray. But. I worry if it Will work ore not. That i just should not Care if i get possesed ore not. To be honest i dont Care anymore.. But im afraid that it wont work this method. So i gues its the fear of fear.. what are u guys experience with this?

I’m feeling so angry and scared. I’m afraid that if I help other people in tough situations I’m going to make someone angry and they’re going to come kill my loved ones or me. some of these thoughts are a conglomeration of traumatic things ive heard or read about actually happening. i’m not even sure if this is my ocd, but i think it is because i feel like if i dont think about this until it feels solved and impossible to come to fruition any harm will be my fault and i’ll never forgive myself.