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My daughter is almost 9 and she was diagnosed OCD almost 2 years ago. I am looking for support on how to support her. She has reassurance compulsions, always needs to know everything is okay. This can be from touching something or smelling something or walking by something. She asks me like 400 times a day.. she also needs the house in perfect order all the time. She is the 2nd oldest of 4 and can’t handle anyone playing with anything or things being out of place. She won’t ever relax and is constantly cleaning and reorganizing the house. She also is very fearful of being sick and is scared that everything will make her sick. She also has a really hard time making friends because it’s hard for her to hide what is bothering her. I thought she might have hfasd, and her psychiatrist agreed that she might but I figure if I can start helping her OCD then maybe I can help her as a whole. She just has a lot of anxiety attacks and I am burnt out on what to do. I feel helpless in how to help her. There are 3 other kids I am responsible for and she consumes almost every moment of my day, except for when she is at school.

Hey all. Coming on here just to rant really. Any advice or similar experiences would be great to hear. Trying not to ask for reassurance at all. My OCD has always been health related. It’s always been an extreme health fear of some sort. I had a fear of schizophrenia after a severe panic attack that gave me months of Dpdr. Kind of got over that w the help of my ocd therepist. Then followed visual snow because of floaters and probably pretty normal visual disturbances normal people have. I had on and off anxiety but nothing as bad as that was. Now I had another bad anxiety attack at work two days ago and my thoughts and obsessions have been at an all time high. I can NOT seem to shake this. I felt extremely dizzy during my panic attack (it was brought on by taking antibiotic on an empty stomach and almost fainting) and now I’ve done hours of googling symptom checking and hyperfixating on a new disease cause Alice in wonderland syndrome and vertigo. I will stare at things to make sure they aren’t getting bigger or smaller around me. I feel dizzy when turning my head to fast or looking around to fast. It’s crazy how these thoughts make you genuinely feel the symptoms you are fearful of. I go on my birthday vacation in a week and I just don’t want this to ruin it. It’s like a fine line in my mind between me being like (this is JUST your ocd thoughts and no you might actually have this because you’re body is showing symptoms) I am repeating mantras like this is just your ocd. Just your intrusive thoughts. I’m trying to have my mind else where like doing house cleaning and duties. I am planning on going to the gym. I want the reassurance that I don’t have these diseases soooo bad. But I know that willl only feed into the monster of OCD. How have my fellow ocd warriors conquered these moments ????

Having OCD gives me so much shame because how of my compulsions affect those closest to me. I constantly update my parents and my boyfriend on my health while throwing in my worries and telling them how afraid I am. They are exhausted. I worry that one day if I really do have a medical emergency I won’t be taken seriously because of my history of health anxiety over problems that are not really emergencies. This causes more OCD with whatever symptom I’m experiencing in the moment like- “this is it. What if this is the one time I really need help and they won’t believe me?” And then I freak out about people not believing me or taking me seriously. I feel like such a burden and I feel like I ruined my reputation with my parents and my boyfriend. There’s no going back from how they see me when my OCD is at its worst. It’s so frustrating that I’ve done this to myself. I feel so ashamed and broken.

i want to feel human. i want to feel emotions how normal people feel them. i get everyone is different but i dont get it. everytime i feel human for a second i get a random feeling of discouragement and false sense of temporary joy. i want it to stop but it wont stop why wont they stop. ocd and bipolar are not a good combination

So my theme has revolved around the fear of having schizophrenia for about a year now, many therapist and mental health professionals told me they believe it’s a mix of ocd and hypochondria. Well my main symptom of this disorder is the fear of having delusions, so over the course of this year I’ve had thoughts ranging from “what if my wife is a demon” “what if this song means something” “what if there’s some hidden message in this movie” “what if the government created the world and controls everything” “what if Satan is the true creator of the world” “why did my cat look at me like that, what if he’s a spy created by the government, what if all animals are?” Literally crazy shit but it all feels so real, I’ve thought about this stuff so much that I’ve started to have almost an emotional detachment from the world around me, I’ll have thoughts like, “why should I care, nothings real anyway”. And now it’s starting to feel like my normal line of thinking, like now I genuinely feel like everything is fake or staged in some way, nothing feels real or genuine, it feels like everyone around me, the media, news, politics, all feels like some sort of big act or lie. Feels like there’s something more to reality that I’m missing or something, everything feels “too perfect”. I’ve lost all happiness in everything and I’ve become SO suspicious of every single thing, everything has to have some deeper meaning according to my brain, it sucks. Has anyone ever had the fear of schizophrenia and it got this bad?

So my theme has revolved around the fear of having schizophrenia for about a year now, many therapist and mental health professionals told me they believe it’s a mix of ocd and hypochondria. Well my main symptom of this disorder is the fear of having delusions, so over the course of this year I’ve had thoughts ranging from “what if my wife is a demon” “what if this song means something” “what if there’s some hidden message in this movie” “what if the government created the world and controls everything” “what if Satan is the true creator of the world” “why did my cat look at me like that, what if he’s a spy created by the government, what if all animals are?” Literally crazy shit but it all feels so real, I’ve thought about this stuff so much that I’ve started to have almost an emotional detachment from the world around me, I’ll have thoughts like, “why should I care, nothings real anyway”. And now it’s starting to feel like my normal line of thinking, like now I genuinely feel like everything is fake or staged in some way, nothing feels real or genuine, it feels like everyone around me, the media, news, politics, all feels like some sort of big act or lie. Feels like there’s something more to reality that I’m missing or something, everything feels “too perfect”. I’ve lost all happiness in everything and I’ve become SO suspicious of every single thing, everything has to have some deeper meaning according to my brain, it sucks. Has anyone ever had the fear of schizophrenia and it got this bad?

Hello all, I was hoping to get some advice. I am recovering from surgery and I suffer from health/somatic OCD so it's very difficult to not think every ache and pain is something dangerous and life-threatening. I was hoping I could get some advice about how to deal with intrusive thoughts triggered by bodily pain as I heal. Any advice would be greatly appreciated, thank you!

Has anyone experienced OCD and the fear of having a cancerous tumor in their stomach? I was struggling with believing I had skin cancer (still do a little) but over the last few days I started to notice things moving around in my stomach and my brain immediately went to stomach cancer. I’ve been feeling like very heavily bloated and now pain in my right side. I don’t know if I should get it checked out or if this is common with OCD still? Anyone’s help would be appreciated.

Anyone here struggling with health ocd at the moment? I’m making myself physically sick over the thoughts of me having cancer. If anyone can share their experiences and what they did to get through it I’d appreciate it so much.

I'm really tired. Since i wake up, i'm constantly tired. I would sleep all day. And every visit i do, i keep getting gaslighted, or not taking seriously. Every time i try to talk with mumy friends, and i feel worse, because they can do so much in one day, maybe even 3 or 4 fully activities, when i have to choose if i prefer to survive (so eat wash etc) or do something useful (study, hobby). I can't do both, without my body completely hurting. I feel so hopeless, it never changes i am useless for myself:(

I can’t stop crying i currently live on public housing my partner pay rent which is no cheap either been trying to move to another apt but they are so much expensive I don’t work due to my anxiety so I m a mess is my fault we can’t move today I found a cheap apt but my bf is at work so I think is gone is taken once again this is my fault because due to my anxiety I can’t even go out I don’t work I m no body :( I wish I could find a way to make money from home but is impossible

My ocd is really bad right now. Two days ago out of nowhere I thought what if I have dyslexia and that really made me anxious... I read fine except in front of other people because I get anxious. And then yesterday I woke up and it seems like I read slower in my mind than usual. I don't know how to explain it but doesn't feel right. I'm very scared. I know you can't get dyslexia overnight hahahaha but I'm scared something else is wrong:(

I don’t even know what type of OCD this would fall under but here it goes lol. ever since i was a little kid If someone bad happened to me while i was listening to a song, I wouldn’t listen to it anymore, or if i heard it i would take it as a “bad omen” so i would try to avoid it at almost all costs. if something good happened to me, I would take it as a “good song” and need to listen to it on repeat so something good would happen even though it would drive me crazy hearing it after replaying it so many times. I have little memories in my head for almost all my music like for example “the day i listened to this song a kid near me coughed so it means that if i listen to it then i could happen again and i could get sick.” can anyone relate? any tips to help stop?

I'm having a hard time. I stopped using gel nail polish originally because of fear of developing an allergy. I decided I would do it for an upcoming trip. I spent 12 hours doing my nails today and now I'm awake at 4am thinking I'm having random itching on different parts of my body and that it's a gel allergy. I've been googling for an hour. I need sleep. I'm so paranoid. Worst is I still have to finish one hand tomorrow and I need to redo one nail completely. If I develop an allergy from this ill never forgive myself.

Hi all, I wanted to share that I am trying hard to exercise frequently with many different sports/activities, but I’m finding that it’s keeping me in my thoughts even worse and making my brain increase and accelerate the unwanted intrusive thoughts passing through. Does anyone experience this/ and have recommendations to combat this? I need to exercise not only to get healthier but I also want to enjoy it and not dread it with the seemingly increased OCD thoughts and compulsions/rumination it causes. Thanks! 😊

This year the quality of my sleep decreased, resulting into chronic insomnia, lack of sleep and heavy dependence on sleeping medication. Quite recently I managed to regain control over it, though last week my insomnia returned and subsequently my OCD thoughts increased. From now own it circles around fatal insomnia and risk of having it. I know that it's irrational and the illness is very rare. However, I can't help thinking about it over and over. And it really disrupts my sleep, causing serious panic attacks.

Every time I think about my temporomandibular joint dysfunction (TMJ) or am reminded of it, it just suddenly manifests itself. I don’t know why or how this happens, and it only stops when I forget that I have TMJ or manage to distract myself. I keep getting comments from my mom that I’m forcing the clicking noise in my jaw, but it doesn’t make any sense for me to deliberately put myself through that discomfort??😭 I can’t manually make it stop bc the tension in my jaw is VERY real. This physiological reaction also happens when I get too anxious or excited. Lmk if you can relate to this bc i really don’t know what to make of it.

Hey guys, it’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been doing okay with my obsessions for the most part, at least with not getting too overly anxious but I still do a lot of compulsive behavior. I’ve been dealing with a lot of stuff recently, along with health fears that my OCD is picking up on a lot. I just feel like with all that is happening and my stress in life right now, it’s causing me to relapse to bad habits I had in the past. I feel alone to be honest, I’ve been using dating apps tying to meet new people and trying to see if I can connect with someone. But with my stress and falling back to old and bad habits, I just feel gross, pathetic, and unworthy of love. It’s hard, I don’t have many people to turn to. Is there anything you guys do to help with low self esteem and stress relief?

I told my doctor that I was having bad anxiety due to ocd health related problems. So she prescribed me this as a temporary relief. However I saw the side effects saying it could cause cardiac arrest and I'm kind of regretting even taking it now. I don't have anything wrong with my heart that I know of but like I already get bad ocd thinking I'm gonna have a heart attack. Then to find out the side effect of this one usually is with the heart it's kind of making me not even want to take it anymore. I don't want to panic over it but now I'm worried that I should of taken it in the first place tonight.

Fear of psychosis ocd… For about 10 months now I’ve had an OBSESSION with developing schizophrenia or some related psychotic disorder. In the beginning my symptoms manifested as hyper awareness of potentially hallucinating and things like that but the main fear that has really stuck is the fear of having delusions. I’ve reached a point to where I can’t enjoy anything in life any for because according to my brain EVERYTHING has to mean something or is suspicious. I’m so suspicious of everything, “what if this commercial means something” “why did that person make that weird face” “what if this song has some kind of hidden meaning” “everything feels so fake and staged” “why did my cat look at me like that” “what if none of this is even real” “what if there’s more to reality than what we know” “there’s no way other people are real humans” “there’s definitely more than what the government tells us about reality” “this can’t all just be science and biology” etc etc. it’s fucking exhausting. I can’t enjoy anything anymore, everything has to have some malevolent intent or meaning. These thoughts feel real, some of them feel like they could genuinely be possible, but I don’t want to think about this kind of stuff, I’m not sure if I even care if there’s something more to everything that I’m missing, but my brain will not stop this search for delusional things to believe. It’s gotten to a point where everything just feels fake and staged like a big act or illusion. Government, politics, media, just day to day life, feels so fake and artificial. It feels like I’m losing emotional attachment to things I love and care about because I’m constantly getting thoughts like “why should I care? Nothings real anyway?” Etc. Has anyone ever dealt with this?FYI: I’ve been to NUMEROUS mental health professionals who do not believe I have anything more than just ocd and severe hypochondria.