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they don’t go well with OCD. I was asked by my mother if I could make some chocolate covered strawberries for her boss+coworker. I have made them multiple times before and they always end up okay. now im worried about making it for them though. what if i get them sick? what if they get sick and my mother loses her job? what am i supposed to do about it…. obviously i wash everything before i make the strawberries so i know that everything is clean. i have only ever made them for family so i don’t use gloves or anything (gross?) should I just buy some gloves to make it for them? is that me being dramatic?? it’s either i wash my hands constantly or make them with gloves. i feel so bad for all the ones i already made for my family, what if they get sick?

I was remembering something my therapist said about how sometimes SA victims feel things in their body when they’re being assaulted or can 0rgasm and stuff (it’s a physiological response, and it doesn’t mean they consented or enjoyed it) and my brain briefly imagined a fictional character I like and their SA story and imagined them 0rgasming during it. And my brain was like uncomfortable, and I didn’t even feel groinal response, but then like I didn’t feel uncomfortable for a few seconds? And I don’t know why, but my brain feels like I enjoyed it? Even tho immediately after I felt that lack of discomfort, I immediately felt fear and disgust over possibly being into the idea? I don’t know what to make of this and I have no idea how to tell what I just felt or not. I’m really scared because like… I absolutely despise SA and the idea of being into something to do with it. And this character I’m like heavily emotionally attached to (I have adhd and they’re my hyperfix and have been for almost a year) and this feels like a betrayal and really gross because what happened to them was awful. How am I meant to tell whether or not I felt arousal or not? What if my brain went into a weird headspace where I enjoy SA somehow? Is it possible my brain separated the action happening from the context for a split second? If that’s what happened, does that mean I’m into SA, or am a bad person?

First day of school after 2 month break, I feel both fine and stressed in same time. I wanna go back home, I don't wanna stay with normal people. They are all so normal while I'm so abnormal. I don't wanna stay with them. I don't like school. Everyone grew up, but I'm still the same.. No.. not the same.. I'm worse than previous semester. I can't touch anything that is dirty. I'm scared to touch my own bag. I'm scared to touch tables. I' scared to touch anything. Not even my own face or body. I can only touch my phone and my pocket and my hands. I wash hands 10 times at once or else I will feel like dying. Everything feels so dirty... I don't wanna do anything... No one understand me there... Not even my family... People will just say that I'm overdramatic if I explain... Hiding all these from people is better than explaining and got judged in the end. I hope I will survive.. I used to plan that I will die today...On the first day of the next semester. And today is that day... I don't wanna die yet... I hope I can surpass that plan... I don't wanna die before I could reach my goal... I hope I will be fine...

i feel like im being crushed by the weight of deadlines and my thoughts. i have so much to do in the next 3 weeks and i feel so distracted by my brain. i just got diagnosed with OCD and it feels good to put a name to all these endless thoughts i have. i think so much and never get a break and on top of it im so overwhelmed by assignments i feel paralyzed (i have adhd, too). even when i do things i enjoy my brain still somehow thinks of something to ruin the moment. 🫠

Does anyone else feel like they’ve really just convinced themselves they have OCD just to feel better about the thoughts and feelings they have? Sometimes I feel like a liar or a fraud. I’m undiagnosed and sometimes I feel like an imposter on this app. I worry that I’ve just convinced myself of having OCD as an excuse for my thoughts and feelings, so I can feel better.

I just want my brain to stop. I feel like I can’t even talk to anyone about it anymore because I’m just bothering my boyfriend with my problems at this point. I have compulsively vented since elementary school about my intrusive thoughts, and that’s all I’ve ever known. I’m afraid of almost everything and can’t even get on an airplane. I don’t even have the money to afford specialized therapy for OCD. I keep thinking I might be God and everyone else is fake, getting scared at that thought and upset for even thinking it, but still continuing to think it. I’ve been stuck in bed all day. The worst part is nobody can give me reassurance because they could just be a figment of my imagination, so I’m just stuck in this loop.

Ive been really sad lately because i am afraid my bf doesn't care about me. He said he loved me for the first time yesterday. But today i am scared he is lying to me. I got a trigger today another guy texted me something weird and i sent him the text and was hoping he would be protective. But he just said that guy might have been the one who smashed his car window. And was t really acting protective at all and so now i am scared that means this is all a huge lie. I am so sad. All the time. I can't tell if he really cares and i feel like i should know. When we are lying in bed he never comes to my side to cuddle i always go to him. I know i shouldn't ask for reassurance but i need help, if someone can help me feel some relief somehow...i feel so sad and scared all the time my biggest fear is if someone is lying to me about how they feel

my rocd changed back to ex theme (which freaking sucks) so in the beginning of my relationship my fiancé didn’t gave me any memories of my exs a lot he looks very different from them but like 2 weeks in I scared believing he was my ex since I was 13-14 and etc. and I thought my ex was getting quote on quote revenge or pay back (I’m was being very delusional) so now us being 1 year and 9 months now I’m getting the same thoughts as before again now I did thought about how sometimes he brings back memories of an ex that I simply don’t want to remember and has moved on from it (even tho my rocd wants to say I haven’t but I did bc I would choose my fiancé over everyone else in the whole world) but now it has gotten so much worse especially since I had a dream about them and him and obviously I choosen my fiancé but I think that’s what really triggered in ep today because on ft he reminded me of them again and I was like wtf and I moved on from it but the intrusive thought keeps on popping up in my head over and over and I even gotten this heart sinking feeling in my chest aswell so I tried to calm down and look at photos of him bc it really calm my nerves but it only gotten worse the photos i saw of him looked a lil like my ex and I will panick and would get this heart sinking feeling in my chest and it won’t go away and the thought of my ex won’t go away even tho it’s makes me so uncomfortable… the only thing that’s similar is literally the hairstyle, and the glasses if far away and maybe the face structure but I never realized that until now when I’m in this ep and manners?? Which was also smt that I never thought was similar until I had this ep and I completely think I’m panicking so much that it’s making it so much worse and I honestly want this to end now. I have no desire to be, to see, to speak, or to even think about this person!!!! NOT TO EVEN DREAM!!!! Even if my rocd says I do miss them or wtv but I truly know I don’t! So please help me and give me some advice I’m so tired of this and I just want to live a happy life with my future husband

When I say regular therapist I mean the ones that have you sit down and have you talk about stuff like how they show in the movies. There’s no erp therapist near me that take my insurance so I’m thinking about just going to a regular therapist but Ive heard that regular therapist can make ocd worse.

How do people handle confessional compulsions? I feel like I have to confess everything all the time or else I'm a liar and a bad person and not confessing makes me feel sick to my stomach. Any advice for overcoming this? Ive tried to not confess but I just get so ill

I hate this crap, why does this make me feel so numb, I’m scared that it means that I don’t love my girlfriend anymore, even know I know I do, so much in fact, but why does it make me feel like I don’t? Why do I feel absolutely nothing right now? Why do I always feel numb? And only blush at what she says occasionally but more times than not I just feel drained, and my OCD says I need to leave because I don’t love my gf and the feeling nothing is proof, but I don’t want to leave, I don’t want too, I wanted to stay forever I don’t want too, but I’m scared what if I don’t feel something and I’m leading her on? I’m scared, I don’t want to hurt her and I’m scared and I don’t understand my feelings, because I feel absolutely nothing, through some I love yous/youre prettys/etc, but that could be normal. I know it’s not normal to always be flustered at the fact your partner said they love you, I understand it all. I’m just scared it means that I shouldn’t be here

When i was a teen (younger than 18) i fell into the world of 🌽. I admit i would get off to it and it may have became an addiction. Eventually i fell into more taboo topics. Things like cnc and pee which eventually lead to diapers. I don’t have those kinks but as a teen it was just something new. Anyway the main thing that distressing me was people roleplaying younger. I didn’t know they were trying to act like kids and thought it was just something new. About a year later i was diagnosed with ocd officially even though i had been dealing with it my whole life. Then i fell deep into a spiral thinking i got off to kids. I obviously never watched child p or things like that it was all roleplay and stuff but i feel horrible. I’m older now and think about it all the time. I read things about real pedos doing stuff like that when they were younger and i’m so scared i’m one. I didn’t even realize they were trying to act like kids i thought that was just how it was. I feel horrible and wonder what to do a lot. Please don’t be mean i’m really struggling.

If you click my profile and check the post before this one.. it would really help me out 🙂 thx

Over half a year ago, This girl wanted me to roleplay a CNC scene with her and to not ask the next time we chatted online I believe... (i cant remember if this happened or not) When we started doing that the next time we met, she suddenly left the chat. So Im scared on if consent wasnt given. I remember her saying that she got booted the next time I talked to her, and asking if she wanted to continue where we left off, but im not too sure and I cant recollect it... as a part of the roleplay, she would say things like "stop" and I think she roleplayed her movements but I dont remember if this was a part of the roleplay, or her genuinely telling me to stop... my friend on the explicit chat site says that since its been over 6 months, that I most likely didnt do anything to hurt her and that I should move on, but my intrusive thoughts keep saying that I violated this womans consent, when a womans consent is the most important thing to me... my harm ocd keeps saying I SA'ed the woman and intrusive thoughts of her saying this and I just throw up every time...

literally randomly through the day ill worry “are u a p?” Or my brain tells me I am one and it actually feels like I am one. I get these groinal responses immediately after and get the urge to self soothe. that is a bad compulsion of mine. I really hate this. my mind goes straight to p related things for EVERYTHING it doesn’t even have to be kid related but somehow my brain does and finds connections in anything about me being a “p” im really scared i am one. i have no “proof” besides these thoughts, urges, and sensations and compulsions, which i feel like is enough proof and i should search for help for being a p.

I’m curious to see what other diagnosis’ this community may be suffering with, I personally have ADHD, OCD and PTSD … do some of you also have as many struggles as I do 😅

I feel like such a bad person because sometimes I’m unable to feel empathy. I feel it for animals, my sister and my mom, sometimes for a few other family members. But when it comes to friends, if they trigger me in some way, my empathy completely disappears. My friend was just in a hospital for heart problems and all I could think was “shut up, you don’t have it that bad, stop pretending”. And I feel really guilty about that, but it was me. It wasn’t intrusive. I still agree with those thoughts. I probably have this because of trauma, where I was not listened to about being bullied a lot. This means that a) I feel like I can’t feel empathy for people because I can’t trust them, and b) I get REALLY angry when people are “sicker” than me because it makes me feel like all the resources and attention will be taken away from me and given to them. I hate it. But I also hate my friend right now. I know it will pass but god it’s so overwhelming.

Cause I did find masc lesbians already attractive before. I didnt want to do anything sexually but I liked their appearance because they look like men...but then I read about a girl realizing She didn't want to date a masc lesbian cause She was used to the thought of liking guys and date them and maybe I have the same problem. Cause if I like the way they look and I find them attractive what's stopping me? Just the vagina? It has to be denial.

Can it make you believe you’re in love with someone else (who is not your partner), to the point of mad obsession? While I recognize what false attraction is and that OCD can cause you to fixate on people, this one case has me doubting everything and I’m terrified. I have to hold back my tears constantly especially when my partner shows up, because I love him SO MUCH, to the point I’d lose my mind without him, and I feel like God is torturing me by making me fixate on this other guy, who I barely know and whose face I barely remember. But why does it feel so intense and so real!? I feel like I will never be capable of true love because I have been “programmed” to be unfaithful. And I feel disgusted that I allow myself to be with my loving partner who I know is faithful and true, while I “betray” him in my mind. Someone please help me.

So basically, after having a good past two days… I saw a man shirtless and it’s got me triggered, I’m not looking for reassurance… Somebody please just tell me what to do when I do feel triggered please?