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Does “mentally reviewing” mean you’re trying to prove/disprove a thought? (Depending on what it is…) like I’m trying to figure out the definition to it because when it says mentally reviewing I feel like that’s me doing something wrong like making it out like I’m purposefully wanting to think about something. When in reality when I mentally review anything, I don’t want to think that stuff and ocd cause me so much fear and doubt that I feel like I have to prove/disprove the thought… is that what it is, or is there a deeper meaning to it??

For context. I was on an NSFW discord server. There was optional age verification but i would only message women who were verified. I messaged this girl whose DM's were open... we talked before she asked me my age first. I said I was 20 (which was true) to which she immediately responded that she was 18. We talked about why we were on the discord server and had playful banter. I then asked her when she was born because I wanted to make sure she was consistent with her age. She misunderstood the question at first and said she was born in Colombia. I then asked her for the date she was born on. At 5 AM when I was asleep, she said "13😭", before reaffirming her age as 18 approximately 8 minutes after... does this indicate if she was lying about her age...?

hey! so i’m in college and i started zoloft last month. i’m on 75 mg. i usually go out once every weekend as most college students do and i do tend to drink a good amount for a night. will i be okay if i do that? sometimes i get a bit dizzy or lightheaded from a little bit of alcohol, but other times im fine. i know the internet says to not drink on it but i know plenty of people who do and i drank on my celexa. what experiences do you guys have? thanks!!

Feel my ocd is getting worse. Lately feel paranoid sometimes. Guy pulls up to gas his car up at the pump I was using, there was an open pump but he’s behind me I’m just about done. His buddy was doing something by another pump he gave him a honk he came back over to talk. They were foreign. I started to feel like they were doing something and now it’s what I’m thinking about. The paranoia feeling is bad and then thinking about it. Can OCD do that…..

Hi! I’ve struggled with bouts of disordered eating for years. It comes in waves and then settles down again. Today I realized it might actually be my ocd that causes it. The intrusive thought is gaining weight and the compulsion is the disordered eating/purging behaviors. Has anyone ever struggled with this? Could this be ocd?

i started having hocd at age 12 but didn’t know what it was till this past year at age 15. i was convinced i was gay but also like knew i wasent. i thought grounal responses was being turned on so i pretty much convinced myself that’s what it was. now i’m scared i really am gay and am just in denial. please help me i only want boys and i don’t wanna be gay i just wanna be happy and normal. i have false attraction and false feelings and groinals and thoughts and i want my attraction to men back

Still doubting bruh I don’t know what to do someday I feel like I am straight and some say not and also don’t remember or feel like what it like being straight and feel like I have no interest in woman but back then I always wanted a woman now I don’t really does anyone know what I mean?

Idk if she lied about her age but im honestly scared... i just hope she was 18 like she said she was... she said she was 18 before the incident... and when I asked when her birth date was, she messages the number "13😭" five hours later... and then 8 minutes after that, she said she was 18 without any prompting from me... Im just so anxious atm...

im just losing my mind... im so scared of minors lying about their age online... i dont go on dating apps, and I was on an NSFW discord server (with age verification) and literotica, a chat site where you have to be 18+ to access the chat and the site... Im so scared and anxious of unknowingly messaging minors online when i dont ever want to... I havent been on these places in a while... but im so so so scared of minors lying about their age... it honestly just terrifies the everloving crap out of me... i dont ever want to ever be involved with men or minors in any way... god im so so scared... i dont have reasons to doubt most. The ones I found suspicious were those who were unverified or suddenly left the server... this one girl gave me her birthday, so that wasnt that suspicious... but then when i asked this one girl what date she was born on, she just said "13😭" before reiterating that she was 18 later on and once beforehand... im just honestly so scared and anxious rn... idk if they were lying or not... thats whats scaring me... ive only talked to verified women as far as i know... and i get so scared about minors online lying about their age, and it makes me ruminate on whether or not this happened to me... Ive seen so many horror stories of minors lying about their age and it just terrifies me to no end...

What can you do when you get an intrusive thought so bad it scares you so much that all you can do is sit there and cry your eyes out

Had anybody ever suffered a psychosis episode?

Does anyone else find when a huge change happens in their life their ocd comes crawling in?

So I dropped my phone in the toilet yesterday, and everything seems to pretty much work properly, but I can’t help but keep thinking what if it’s not working properly, what if something is working slower, what if the audio doesn’t work right etc. And like what if it’s not clean after being in the toilet even though I washed it to death. Someone please help and tell me if this is just my OCD, these thoughts will not stop and I’m stressed out.

I think I realized (probably too late) that I’m scared of losing myself to one of these themes. I’m not sure if it’s like this for everyone but sometimes when I have intrusive thoughts it slowly erodes my own sense of self. Intrusive thoughts become so muddied and virtually indistinguishable from my own. I have this idea of myself that all of my intrusive thoughts go entirely against, and I’m afraid I won’t be me anymore. I am trying to practice more self love, and more self care in general. I’m trying here. To gain a self esteem, to not be in control but to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.

Why can't I get better? I've been suffering with harm OCD for 3 years now and feel that it must be something other than obsessive compulsive disorder. I cannot think stop thinking about harm and everything triggers me. I'm a mom to two beautiful boys but I'm starting to do avoiding of triggering situations like changing and bath. I was doing so well for a couple months and now since I've started erp therapy two weeks ago things have just been so crazy in my mind. I meditate, I pray, I try so hard to build my home to be happy and healthy but I just feel sick and broken hearted.

Im working on it alone cause i see no help on the internet about this, i hope one day people will treat suicidal ocd normally, also people who want to tell me go to therapy, i was in therapy for years, one therapist said she cant do anything for me, she gives up and sended me to another one, and the other one who claims that knows ocd, told me stupid thibgs about ocd and told me the thoughts are somewhat real so she is the reason why im still questioning what if im really suicidal. I found out cause i really want to know that im actually suicidal or not, so i go into the feelings i have which sometimes feels like im enjoying or like i want tge thoughts. Sometimes it comes up when im angry of the people so it automatically comes with the anger and i actually feel like i want to do it cause im angry but at the same time i realize its bad but my mind grabs me back and says no i dont care im doing it, while i feel like i want to and then imediatelly i feel panic, shame and i want to say its not true...it feel like i really dont want to accept that im suicidal so im denying. But why im denying? So because i feel bad and i want to know, i go back and intentionally get back the feelings to see what do i felt and what i wanted, but i get lost and i heard you can get depersonalization in that moment so you dont feel the anxiety just the good feelings and you think you really want it, cause you dont feel anxiety and you feel like you enjoy it. I really dont want to say im suicidal or i think about suicide when bad things happens but for me it seems like that. Idk what to do. I will never do plans, but im always afraid that i will do something imediatelly when i feel it, cause i have thoughts like "do it now" and i feel the urge and like i feel happy about it and i hate to say that. Im so afraid that its actualy suicidal ideation, i dont want to accept that. Feels like im denying... but i didnt seen anyone saying who has ocd that in hard times they get this urge and like it would feel good and then they feel shame, i hear these from people with suicidal ideation... even if its passive ideation, im so afraid that can turn to active ideation.

Does anyone else feel like if there friends, family or partner knew what their intrusive thoughts were then they would fear you or hate you or feel disgusted by you? I hate my intrusive thoughts but feel like a liar or fake person for not sharing them.

I’m currently in the process of moving to a new apartment and it’s so mentally draining. I’m still in the process of “decontaminating it”. I wish I was able to just move in and live, but unfortunately I can’t. Although, I do feel that me having to actually clean it myself is exposing me to my triggers. It’s taking so much energy to clean because i’m cleaning things that haven’t been cleaned since it was built.

Lately I’ve been feeling pretty confused on almost everything now to the point where I just don’t even know anymore. Every positive thought turns into a bad one such as finding out people in denial tend to avoid thinking about it completely, made me feel pretty good but now it’s telling me that’s how I think. I’ve been having false attraction, feeling sick to stomach, can’t stop thinking, feeling like I’m lying to myself, feeling numb, the only emotion I can feel is being scared the more real this feels. I’m extremely worried that this is becoming true and that I am gay. The only thing I have left is what I want, which is to marry the girl I am with one day, that brings me a good feeling. Anyways, what are some methods of being able to tell what’s real and what’s not when everything is leaning towards being gay besides what I want?

I notice that I have a more difficult time relating to others who don’t have ocd or do not really understand ocd, which had me thinking, how does everyone make friends when you are living with this condition? I’m genuinely curious. My tendency as an introvert is to just not really seek out friendships, but maybe that’s a form of compulsion and avoidance. I think it would be beneficial if i could make actual friends who could understand and relate to me. Any ideas? Thoughts?